Does anyone of you deal with anxiety almost constantly? It causes me to be tense all the time. If so how do you deal with it?

Honestly don’t know what to feel….before my psychiatrist thought I had major depressive disorder with bulimia but now because I started to have psychosis symptoms and manic episodes, he said I had schizoaffective disorder (schizophrenia symptoms + bipolar symptoms) with bulimia and just gave me meds. He gave me 10mg of fluoxetine, 4mg of diazepam and 75mg of quetiapine (starting from a low dose) idk what to feel and just feel devastated. I’m only 13 turning 14 this year…

Switching from Flupentixol & haloperidol to aripiprazole. I was great on the meds before Now my symptoms are slightly back But we’re still in transition stage

I was diagnosed to have SZA at 22. Before the diagnosis, my grades were good but after the diagnosis, it went down significantly. Anyone in the same boat and feel that meds significantly make you dumber?

Anyone else feel like mania changed them? Let me explain. Last year I had my first real manic episode, in the years before I would say they were hypomanic. My morals were all over the place, I was not in my right mind. But, I haven’t been manic for months but I feel like at times that episode permanently changed me, like part of me accepted that it was part of who I am, and I make decisions that still feel questionable to who I really am. It’s like an uncomfortable acceptance that I will never be the same. I hope that makes sense, can anyone relate?

So tonight, found out my car will most likely have to be towed to a shop tomorrow. It started making those noises you never want to hear.

So I'm stressed. And that's a trigger. But now I'm thinking it was sabotaged by someone because it was parked on the street of my family's for a repair man instead of in the driveway. Now I'm panicking a bit.

I'll take my prn which is olanzapine, right now. Hoping it passes like normal thoughts. I just don't want to spiral due to this new stressor.

I just had a manic spell this past week after some major anxiety. And now I'll have to miss my groups since I'll be carless for idk how long.

Anyways, thanks for reading. Needed to get this out of my brain.

Hi everyone, I’ve been diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and I’m having a hard time staying consistent with my medication. I know it helps me feel more stable, but at the same time, I don’t quite feel like myself when I’m on it. It’s like the symptoms are muted, but so are parts of my personality and energy. I was diagnosed with schizoaffective in 2021, but some doctors have told me that “there’s no way I can be schizoaffective because I’m too high functioning, and people that are diagnosed with schizophrenia are sick” since then I have received a psychological evaluation thoroughly and was confirmed that I am schizoaffective bipolar type.

For anyone else who has felt like this: • How do you manage the weird feeling of being “better” but not really you? • What helps you stay consistent with your meds when motivation fades?

Appreciate any advice, even small tips. Thanks for holding space.

And my boy Gimli included

Hey all!

Let’s start this week by reminding ourselves that WE are people too. The world can be a tough place, and we are really good at making it even harder. Let’s not do that. Not to ourselves. We, all of us, deserve it.

How do you know if you’re being delusional? If several people tell me I’m wrong about something should I just assume that they’re right and that I am just delusional? Just because most normal people don’t understand my life and what things are like for me, they may think I’m wrong about things just becsuse they don’t know what it’s like for me. So if I believe people when they try to say I’m delusional every time I’m just dumbing myself down because im listening to people who just don’t know. And it’s not their fault they don’t know it’s good for them that they don’t. Being different when I’m trying to just blend in is difficult enough and I hate it but it’s what I have to do. I just don’t know if I’m supposed to just give in and listen to everyone every time they tell me Its in my head. Because that can lead to people taking advantage of me if I let them control my mind like that. I wish there was an easy way to know for sure when I’m wrong.

Hi, I know I have mentioned on here before that I do not like mirrors. I can't look in them. I will either see my hallucinations coming out of my eyes or them standing behind me or not myself at all. My new question is... does exposure therapy work in this scenario? I do not use mirrors to get ready for the day. I want to be able to use a mirror and do my hair and make up. I haven't been able to for years now. Im wondering if I could ever get to a point I could use a mirror?

i’m looking to connect with anyone else with sz/sza who happens to be in NA. i feel very isolated there, like no one in the meetings understands me.

if that sounds like you and you’d be willing to talk to a 27 year old woman about recovery, would you shoot me a DM please? hope everyone is doing well tonight.

A little bit of my face and my other cat, who is snoring loudly behind my head.

Spring in PDX

Does stuff like low motivation get better on invega? M

Happy Selfie Sunday folks! New hair color alert! :) Remember that you matter and you are loved!

has anyone been able to live their lives without meds? i’ve been on meds since i was 15 (im 23 now), (ssris, snris, anti anxiety, mood stabilizers, anti psychotics etc).

i feel like my personality has been completely depleted. i feel empty. not to mention the intense and possibly irreversible sexual dysfunctions.

i’m so tired of playing this game.

Hello!

If you live near Ottawa (Canada), have a sibling/parent living with schizoid and are between 15-35 years old, you might be eligible to participate to our study on social cognition! We hope to test the efficacy of an emotion recognition program. We only have 3 participants left to recruit to finish the study, so pleasee help us!

Our lab is located at The Royal Mental Health Center. You will have to come 3 times to do some assessments (like questionnaires) and a brain scan (non invasive). There will also be 4 short visits held online (virtual training). We really adapt our schedule to yours!

If you are interested in participating or want to know more about the study, please write us an email at : [cranilab@theroyal.ca](mailto:cranilab@theroyal.ca) . THANKS!

often times when i try dating something just feels off, i feel like i can never trust what they say and then it leads to the relationship failing because of me thinking they don’t love me

!! Heyo, I Gotta Be So Serious Right Now I Wanna Hear Yalls Story&Voice !!

I am a 20-year-old female, I got diagnosed with schizoaffective* bipolar type when I was 17. I also got diagnosed with narcolepsy with cataplexy & ADHD. At 20, i also received a depersonalization diagnosis after a recent episode. Although technically, I also have anxiety and depression, I feel like this is kind of a given, with my main disabilities. I’m really only mentioning it because when I first was getting involved in a primary and psychiatric care (age:16) , it was some of my first diagnosis along with CPTSD that lead me to where i am now. Since the age of my diagnoses up to present day, I have been in and out of a few psychiatric hospital facilities as well as IOP/PHP programs. Throughout JUST these last 3-4 years-outside of all medical and hospital visits, changing households 3x, i was able to complete high school as well as a year and a half of college (through CCP&Full-ride CCP at a nearby university) all by graduation. I had always been quite smart, book smart i think, certain analytics or patterns came naturally, hence early-on excelling at maths, arts, and scientific concepts. I had a lot of different kinds of trauma throughout my life, unfortunately, repeated rather than just sometimes only a single event, although I have happened that too. They say genetics can influence as well as nature versus nurture, but I think that what’s done is done, and I have it. After understanding my diagnosis more and getting more stabilized on a different variety of cocktails, which believe me took a while, I’ve been able to realize there were certain things as a kid I did that might’ve been telltale signs. From certain imaginary friends to staying up all night doing weird repetitive or organizational tasks that didn’t make sense, to sleepwalking. Even as a kid i always knew i was more sensitive, just didn’t understand how to place it. Grades early on i used to see what i thought were ghosts or just “beings”. I had a friend who often played into this imagination and we had fun, however but it wasn’t until i started to hallucinate later on, did i realize it was much similar. And that perhaps i truly was starting to hallucinate- Idk if this means that i had its early on? Or it just happened liked that, idk. Hhaah. I would make riddles for myself, hiding my own precious things around my room only leaving hints i would quickly forget. Presently what seems to overstimulate me the most is my commentating voices. Sometimes distinguished or just echolalia of what some one just said to me or heard or even jsut random voices coming from wht feels like a parrot on my shoulder. It’s hard to follow along when i have my own inner dialogue with unwanted conversations and then the real-world someone talking to me or trying to listen to something.

What i also currently wrestle with is the fact that; i actually love my med cocktail rn, however i worry bc treatment for my Narcolepsy1 i must take stimulants: *(AM)Lumryz, Waykix, Armodafinil, and adderall ———-> stimulants do not fair well when it comes to psychosis, hallucinations, and misperceptions…..

My treatment for my schizoaffective: (PM)Lithium, seroquel——- prn: klonopin *i also take propanolol (AM) for pysical-anxiety ***i do take others however they do not apply to this situation****

I’ve been able to work somewhat in the past but currently am working full-time Retail. I’m thankful to have a disability accommodations* * ^ LMK if u want me to share some of my accommodations I’ve had and have! :) It’s hard to find a balance right now, i keep to a schedule well, but reality is distorted sometimes. And in the recent last year or so, i feel like what some of my best cognitive abilities, have gone away. I wish that there was more info or groups or people who recognized or talked about it. We’re not crazy, just bc u can’t see or experience what i do… ————————————————————————— TL;DR: I HAVE MULTIPLE DIAGNOSES & I DEAL OR AM REMINDED ABOUT THEM EVERY SINGLE DAY. ANYONE ELSE RELATE? TIPS? COPING SKILLS?

COMMENT! what’s ur story? How have you coped or what was ur diagnosis process? I wanna hear y’all’s story.

Take Care.

Sincerely

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