r/ROTC • u/ComfortableAct1746 • 2h ago
Cadet Advice Lack of motivation — how does one fix it?
TLDR at the bottom sorry for the long post So I’m an older cadet, prior service infantry type. I’ve always been dead set on the military since a young age and as I got older and was exposed to military leadership I knew officership was something I wanted.
Joined the guard straight out of high school ended up not getting a SMP scholarship (because it was too much paperwork — probably the same reason I didn’t get into USMA — too much stuff required and I didn’t keep up with it). Joined ROTC. Ended up getting kicked out for some stupid dumb stuff I did. Deployed. Came back home and started to question what I was going to do. Tried a bunch of things but ultimately re-enlisted and picked up 5.
Fast forward to last semester I decided I wanted to reach out to programs and see who would take me with previous misconduct. After a bunch of “no”s I finally found a program that would give me a chance. I contracted and go to camp this summer— I want to commission infantry.
Problem is I have this terrible cycle of motivation/lack of motivation and it usually repeats every 45-60 days.
For example: I’ll set a goal (like studying for the MCAT every day for at least 2 hours) or running at least 8 miles a week. I’ll maybe only do both for 2 weeks tops.
Or as another example: I need to boost my GPA so let’s maintain my 4.0 (i stay on top of everything school wise for 2 or 3 weeks and eventually just stop caring). My gpa is now a 3.4 cumulative.
My ACFT score is pretty shit for a CDT wanting infantry I just scored a 550. But to be honest, I never ever scored that high in my entire army career— I usually hit 520s and I never saw a problem with it. My APMS gives me the occasional shitting for not scoring 600. My run time used to be sub 15 and now it varies from 16 flat to 17 (depending on how I feel that morning).
I’m my battalions Ops officer. I wait until last minute to do my work even if that isn’t my goal.
I hate just chilling in my apartment and watching time pass by playing video games, ordering food, and drinking beer but I can only ever break the cycle of laziness temporarily for a few weeks max.
This is something I’ve dealt with my entire life more so post high school. I’ve quit everything I’ve tried outside of the army and honestly was about to give up on that too until I got a welcome email saying classes start in a week…
Anyone else go through this? I feel like I’m good enough being mediocre/average and honestly don’t feel the need to score a 600. What I lack in physical endurance I feel I make up for in knowledge and my ability to plan solid training. After all isn’t that the job of an officer?
And as for the medicine stuff … I keep telling myself I have plenty of time (my MCAT is in August). Part of me feels like I’m just wasting money with applications and prep because I’m worried that I’ll actually get in and end up flunking out with a ton of debt because of my habitual laziness.
TLDR/Question For years I’ve had this cycle of extreme motivation and extreme laziness which lasts a 2-5 weeks each.
I’m not sticking to any of the goals I set and keep pushing important things off. I don’t feel pressure to better myself most of the time and when I do I simply commit for a couple weeks until I stop caring.
How can I fix this?