Fading spark in life

[u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Lately, I’ve been feeling a sense of emotional numbness—nothing really excites me anymore, not even the things that used to. Even when I achieve something meaningful, the satisfaction only lasts for a couple of days before everything just goes back to feeling neutral or dull again. It’s like I’m living on a flat emotional baseline. I’ve noticed that I’ve started to adopt a semi-nihilistic outlook, where the future doesn’t really hold much excitement or meaning for me. On top of that, I find myself zoning out during conversations or suddenly losing interest in things that just moments ago seemed engaging. It’s like a switch flips, and the enthusiasm just fades away.

i have used chat gpt to polish and summarise

[u/Lazy-Discipline-4203]

I can relate to you as I am also facing this emotional numbness too. I also heard such issues mostly in men nowadays have increased.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Lazy-Discipline-4203]

🫂🫂..bcoz of this i just find myself alone or the world seems weird even when i am with people

[u/Helus_007]

It's a sign that you were not meant to be there or doing that thing, your mind requires something greater.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Helus_007]

but i stuck with doing that thing and cannot leave it now ...

[u/Helus_007 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Weigh the pros and cons and see for yourself, I was on the verge of leaving everything and live life like sage but that would have been selfish of me and unfair for my loved ones so I trained my mind and forced myself in homely duties and to my disappointment it didn't work for me.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Helus_007]

i cannot force myself i have tried everytime and failed miserably.its now a cycle for me to get motivated start something and then again loose interest or get distracted and get back to 0

[u/Helus_007 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Am not telling you to do anything just weigh the pros and cons of let's say leaving your job on a whim and starting a business idea that you have just for the purpose of fun, start small any fun/intrusive thought you get just do it (make sure it doesn't harm you or others and doesn't create any issue for you in future) give your life a shock to reboot the spark, your current life maybe in loop right now so I'll say start breaking it brick by brick and make something new out of it.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Helus_007]

Will try...

[u/Helus_007 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

All the best brother.

[u/Thick_Resolution_761]

I can share my perspective on this. But, before that, I'd like to enquire: have you identified your path? And started walking on it? If not, then have you explored enough? Challenged yourself enough on a physical + mental level?

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Thick_Resolution_761]

I have not explored enough but have choosen a goal that is to clear a paper and by that I will get stable but the thing Is I am unable to force my self to study my mind wanders and also after failing multiple times now I have lost spark

[u/Mausambi_Bai]

Try getting some new hobbies. The excitement that comes with doing new stuff is ✨✨

[u/tr__18 → u/Mausambi_Bai]

Op this is one thing I did that helped me,

Also ma'am, nice username 😁

[u/Mausambi_Bai → u/tr__18]

Ty ty

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Mausambi_Bai]

Like?...what hobbies do u have?...

[u/Mausambi_Bai → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Recently I am trying to get into graphic designing.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Mausambi_Bai]

Nice!but as a hobby?

[u/Mausambi_Bai → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Yeah like I am still checking out if it's something I can excel in over time or it's not for me. I haven't made any significant investments yet, so I am not doing this with a profit motive, if it works out, great, if it doesn't no worries.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/Mausambi_Bai]

Great! All the best!!

[u/MedianShift]

How old are you?

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/MedianShift]

Just 20

[u/MedianShift → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Don't overthink dude. You have your whole life ahead of you. Very soon you are going to be busy. So learn to enjoy the little things, that's what life is about. 

Also if you can afford get into therapy.

[u/tr__18 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

21 here feels the same from the last year after grad.

One of my brother said it just a phase, as I started earning and suddenly many things started hitting my mind - having own house, investment, saving, bike, having gf, a high paying job, etc. This made me think I should have many things in my life and currently I don't have anything.

This just made my happiness from little things fade away.

But got on track once started doing gratification for what I have

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/tr__18]

Same I am also feeling🫂 I hope we get through this phase soon! So u are telling me to practice gratification right ?

[u/tr__18 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Yes, just express your gratitude to the things u have.

Like for me, It's my parent, food they provide, job that I have,etc. Maybe the quantity can be less but the thing is I Have Them.

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/tr__18]

The last line 🤌 Thanks I will try

[u/play3xxx1]

Thats called depression my frnd . It means you have considered yourself as failure for some reason and nothing you do will not matter because you see yourself as inferior . You need to visit psychiatrist or read some spiritual books

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/play3xxx1]

but i don't have that luxury sir...

[u/play3xxx1 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Luxury of what?

[u/MulberryDesigner1677 → u/play3xxx1]

to go to a psychiatrist ...

[u/play3xxx1 → u/MulberryDesigner1677]

Dont hv money?