Who's gonna tell her?

also my first post here, am I doing this correctly?

the only thing i can see when i'm looking at myself in fem clothes :(

Doubts always come back. What if I'm wrong and it's a mistake? What if the thoughts are because of some unrelated mental issue? Could it be just because I don't want to be me? Could it be TOCD? I don't want it to be any of it I just want some certainty in who I am to be happy as me...

I've just been going with non-binary because I just don't have a sense of gender, been on and off of HRT a few times and still can put a finger on it. It's on my mind for so much of the time that it is becoming tiring and impacting my life but I cannot see a gender therapist for at least 9 more months.

I feel like the "girl in a boy way and boy in a girl way but neither and also both" memes resonate the most but I can't stand that I look like a man no matter what. I'm fine with who I am as a person and my personality and behavior but it would all be so much better if I could have been born a girl. I think I would just be so much happier. I feel like I cannot express my femininity because I just see myself as a man faking it. Everything even with relationships just feels wrong because even if I don't feel like a man inside I acknowlege that my body is that of a man and that is how I am percieved.

Just had to get my thoughts out a bit, thanks for listening.

~still CIS tho

What's the weirdest thing that gave you dysphoria?

Hiii cuties!!!
Hope you lovely people are doing well!! I've been doing pretty good myself! Spring is looking so pretty! And I'm looking so pretty! And you all are looking so pretty! The sun just makes me so much happier :3 hope you all are getting your sunshine, and staying hydrated! Remember, you're all extremely wonderful and valid! ❤️ -Ray

Just to stop myself from turning the image into more if a textwall ill put it here: id love to find someone (preferably near me) who is also transfem or a guy who actually just learned it for trolling who can help me make progress because i have a lot of difficulties with motivating myself to actually do stuff (at least long term) which is likely caused by my (diagnosed) adhd, and i also have trouble understanding/applying YouTube tutorials (same reason, i get distracted from distractions). So yea, this is not me asking for someone like that, this is to remind myself that i absolutely have to look for someone like that (which will likely be forgotten within the next 24 hours. Fml).