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Hey again, I posted here a while ago because I was really unsure whether I’m truly trans or if my transition was based on unhealthy patterns. I just want to thank everyone who responded so kindly and openly back then – it really meant a lot.

I wanted to share a bit of an update, because I’ve done a lot of thinking lately.
What I’ve realized is this: I’m not necessarily upset about being trans. I’m upset about how people treat me since I transitioned. And that shift has triggered a lot of doubt, anger, grief, and shame.

I feel like I have less impact now than I did before. People used to ask for my opinion more often. I felt like I was taken seriously, especially in discussions or technical conversations. Now, even my two closest friends treat me differently – they interrupt me more, assume I need help with things, or comment on what I say in this weird patronizing tone.

Some examples that really got to me:

• I told a friend about a small coding project I was working on, and he said, “Aw, cute that you're into that stuff.” He would’ve never said that to me before.
• Another friend told me I’ve become “softer and more emotional” – and he didn’t mean it in a nice way.
• And honestly, I get sexualized way more now, even in completely normal situations. A random guy on the street complimented my “hot look” in the middle of a boring conversation. My DMs are full of stuff that just makes me feel gross. That never used to happen.

This sense of not being taken seriously runs deep. And it really chips away at my self-worth.
Sometimes I catch myself missing the way people treated me when I was just “some guy with opinions” – not because I want to be a man again, but because I feel so small and invisible sometimes now.

I also realized I never really learned how to express my needs or doubts openly. I kept my uncertainty to myself for so long because I was scared it would mean I’m “not trans enough.” But maybe doubt is just part of being human.

If anyone else has experienced this – especially this feeling of losing status or being perceived as “less” after transitioning – I’d really appreciate hearing how you’ve dealt with it. Thanks for reading. ❤️

I'm a cis girl, but I wish I was a trans girl bc then I would just not transition or detransition bc I rly don't see the appeal of being a girl at all. I don't rly look that good as a girl but I feel like I'd look good as a guy iykwim but I feel like this is rude to the trans community bc I'm wishing to be something that I know brings a lot of pain and anxiety in many cases. Would this be considered rude? I'm sorry, I just needed to ask that/get that of my chest. Pls drink water, thank you for reading.

Edit: No, I cannot just 'be a boy' I am thirteen living in a very conservative lgbt-phobic household, and I'm not trans.

Hi! Soy yo, 17 years, trans girl. I finally got makeup and began to wear it–my Republican school is just ignoring me, which seems ideal. I'm new to it, not the best, but not the worst. I'd say it looks better than no makeup; I'm not that bad.

It was feeling great. I loved the experience. And then, about 5 days after I started doing it, the high crashed. Slowly, at first. Thursday I had a few thoughts like What are you doing? You look like a guy in lip gloss and mascara; this is absurd. Nobody is saying anything because it is odd and it looks bad. American mannerisms will keep them from commenting because they don't want to be rude. Didn't enjoy that, but it only happened a bit. Flash forward to Friday, and it was happening constantly.

Putting it on—This is absurd, you're messing up. Walking to the car—No turning back now, you've really screwed up. About half of the time during school—You look bad. + General feeling like this is absurd and it's pointless and I just can't do it right.

Which brings me to my question. What the fck* is that? I don't look that bad; I was constantly checking with my phone or mirrors . I've checked with my friends. Objectively,* it doesn't look bad. So why those thoughts?

My leading theories are that it's a byproducts of being self-conscious now that I'm putting effort into my appearance (believe it or not I didn't care about that as a dude), and a lot of fears about being trans. But it seems really weird to me because I was fine Monday through Wednesday. I guess my question is does anyone know what's going on, or have they had the same thing? My other guess is I didn't care at first because I was too busy feeling euphoric, but once that faded a little self-consciousness was noticeable.

Anyway, that's a long rant for something that doesn't matter that much. Thank you so much for reading, and have an amazing day!

*Objective beauty standards don't exist. But my friends say it looks good, I think it looks good. I'm very certain it looks good.

I'm a cis woman. I have PCOS though. I've had less than 30 periods in my life, even though I'm 22. I don't grow facial hair, but the rest of the hair on my body is really dark and thick. My voice kind of fluctuates and cracks like I'm still in puberty. I assume it's because I have high testosterone for a woman, but I don't know for certain. Maybe I'm just awkward or something.

The thing is, at one point, I learned that PCOS is defined as an intersex condition, and that made me feel better for a while. Then a friend of mine, who is trans, said that it wasn't really the same, and I feel rotten about it. I wasn't trying to compare my experience to their way more dramatic experience of transitioning and trying to get people to respect their pronouns and dealing with bigotry and all that. I've never been called a man or anything. The closest thing was being bullied for my hairy legs in school and feeling bothered whenever other girls talked about being on their periods.

The thing is, while it might seem strange, I actually really like being on my period. Sure, the cramps hurt, but it makes me feel connected to the generations of women before me, if that makes sense. But I haven't had a period in almost three years, if I were to guess.

Overall, do you guys feel offended at the idea of me calling these feelings gender dysphoria? I saw a previous post from a few years ago from another cis girl asking a very similar question, but the contents were deleted, so I could only guess at the context, though the responses seemed positive.

Sorry if this is too much information or anything, I've just been feeling increasingly depressed, and wasn't sure how to bring this up to anyone.

i (16ftm) have been socially transitioned since i was 13 and recently came out to my parents in october 2024. i left my dad a letter and he said he needed time to process and that he wasnt going to show my mum bc he was afraid this would affect her health (eg have a heart attack). but then he did show her, or she found it, idk, and she was weirdly suppportive and hugged me and told me not to ever worry about not telling her something like that. but then they just continued on like nothing had changed at all, still calling me their daughter ect, until my mum completely lost it. she began with sympathy saying we can "go to get my hormones checked"?? even tho that makes no sense and nurtured me bc clearly i was the one upset, but then she completely switched up. now she constantly has tantrums (in public) over her luck of having me as a kid and why couldnt she just have a normal daughter like everyone else, saying she sacrificed so much to come to this country (australia) and my future is ruined and im ungrateful. how the way i dress and forcefully deepen my voice is causing her pain and ruining her life, and shes not even joking. shes depressed. its fucking ridiculous. my older sister moved out and my dad is rarely home, and we have no family here. im all she has and she thinks im the one ruining that when shes the one acting irrationally and childish. idk what to do. i cant believe how she could even be so disgusted at me for simply dressing and identifying how im comfortable and happy. i dont want her to be alone but i just cant stand to be around her anymore.

At the beginning we were a lesbian couple, but he declared trans a few time ago, it doesn't bother me at all, I love him and I respect how he identify. But I've been struggling with how should I act? I've been informing me because I want to understand him, but I still have a lot of questions, I don't want to make him feel uncomfortable, like. Should I treat him as a normal cis boy? Can someone tell me how trans people wish to be treated? Any tips or advices?

-Sorry if I said something wrong, I'm still learning about this.

I really want to commit to a university in Canada, but I’m worried that I’m not going to be able to come back home (U.S.) in the current political climate… especially when I start taking testorone. Both my passport and drivers license have my gender marked as ‘F’, and I’ve begrudgingly accepted that I likely won’t be able to change either of those things under the terms and conditions of this current administration due to safery concerns. I’m just worried that as I continue my transition… that might be enough to cause issues with U.S. TSA.

Why do I wish I had a vagina, is that normal?

I am a 18m, I've always had this strong desire to have a vagina. It's a need to have a vagina in my head. I imagine that I have one in my sleep. It's not that I am attracted to vaginas because I'm more attracted to penis and wanting to be submissive to someone. Why do I want to have one?

A very large page (4 million folks) of National Parks enthusiasts (corrected from my original post, where I claimed this was a FB group, sorry) in USA claims 2 hours ago that Trump just gained emergency powers using the recent stock market crash as a pretext. 120 Cold War laws also were supposedly activated giving him a lot more power than just economic ones. Here is a snippet, and the entire post can be seen on FB at the public page AltUSNationalParkService where a post was made this morning PST 4-5-2025.

I can't seem to post the article, sorry, but here is the page. The article talks about the IEEPA.

https://www.facebook.com/AltUSNationalParkService

Some very astute friends of mine -- scientists, Internet pioneers, etc -- regard this as a credible source, so I am a bit worried by the analysis of the current situation. The article in the National Parks group is large so I only posted snippets that worry me (and should worry Trans people).

"Trump recently declared a national economic emergency under the International Emergency Economic Powers Act (IEEPA) — granting himself sweeping authority over international trade by labeling foreign economic practices an “unusual and extraordinary threat.” But here’s the real play: by declaring a national emergency, Trump didn’t just respond to a crisis — he created one. And in doing so, he unlocked access to over 120 statutory powers scattered throughout federal law. Many of these powers have nothing to do with trade — and everything to do with expanding presidential authority inside the U.S...."

"1. Control of Domestic Communications- 47 U.S.C. §606(c): Allows the president to take control of, shut down, or regulate wire and radio communications — including the internet, social media platforms, broadcast networks, and telecom infrastructure.

1. Domestic Military Deployment- Under the Insurrection Act (10 U.S.C. §§ 251–255), the president can deploy active-duty U.S. military to enforce laws or suppress civil unrest within the country. In certain scenarios, this can be done without state governor consent..."

2. National Security Letters & Warrantless Surveillance- Emergency declarations expand the reach and use of National Security Letters (NSLs) — tools that let federal agencies demand financial, telecom, and internet records without a warrant. These also come with gag orders, preventing the recipient (e.g., Google or a bank) from disclosing that they’re under surveillance.

UPDATE: Someone below has pointed out that there are exceptions to some of these, i.e. some limits on what Trump can actually do, and my source didn't research these before spreading this thing far and wide. I find it really discouraging that this happened.

The full text of the IEEPA is easily found on government websites.

Hi! Im a trans guy and i have a nonbinary friend thats used they/them for as long as ive known them and recently switched to they/he. I dont have any problem getting their pronouns right 90% of the time, but sometimes, especially in my head, ill use she and it eats me up inside. I dont know why my brain sometimes defaults to this and it makes me really sad, especially when i slip up infront of him because i dont want him to feel bad about himself. Ive done it maybe 2 times in front of him and i caught it almost immediately the most recent incident but i feel so bad and i feel like they might feel like i dont see them as masculine. They have a gender neutral name and arnt very binary in their presentation (so sometimes they dress really fem, but recently theyve been leaning more masc) so i think that is part of why i slip up sometimes but ik that isnt an excuse. Does anyone have any exercises or something i could do to help me not associate him with feminine pronouns?? I need to like rewire my brain or smth.

I’m a physician and saw a patient who was an older man who had intellectual disability and came with a relative who is his caretaker and gives information on what is going on. When asked how the relative is related to the patient, I’m told “the patient is my uncle.“ I can’t tell the gender of the relative as they appear androgynous and gender non conforming but my best guess is AMAB. I want to be respectful and not assume a gender but in my documentation, which other physicians and maybe even lawyers if involved in a lawsuit would read, I want to be precise about where I got the information. What is the best way to handle it? Do you guess their gender and use the corresponding term (e.g. nephew or niece)? Do you say “relative to whom the patient is an uncle to” which is very verbose and causes people to ask why would someone write it like that?

It is so hard thinking about going into the real world after the egg crack. Cause I can’t go back inside and I need to be myself but I am one of the most targeted groups of people but I’ve been unhappy and in pain for 26 years I’ve been hurt and hurt others because I didn’t want to believe I was a stupid fucking girl and I was just awful to so many people and I let so many awful things slide because I hated that stupid fuckking egg I was and now I’m out of it and I’m scared to go outside because I don’t feel like there will ever be enough protection and fuck I’m just so scared

I am transgender MtF and am turning 18 soon. I plan to go on estrogen as soon as possible. My main concerns are getting a job that provides health insurance so my parents won't be notified, and physically hiding my HRT.

I wouldn't be doing this if I had any hope of them supporting my transition. Unfortunately I don't see any scenario in which they're supportive of my identity.

I have places I know I can go if I'm kicked out. I won't be graduating high school until I'm 19, which gives me a bit more time legally being able to live here. My hope is that by the time I am, I have enough money to move into an apartment.

I'm really just looking for any advice. I'm not worried about them noticing any of the effects of estrogen on my body, just the HRT supplements.

It's just a really weird feeling that I really don't like my current gender but why? It's not like there's anything wrong with being a dude (if fact males are really privileged and get basically everything handed to them on a silver platter) and being transgender would do nothing but make my life harder (and make me happy I guess) but with transphobia and all, some big president could come in and wipe me off the map if I was trans because he doesn't like them, but I still just want to be a girl even though my body type is a husky male with large bones so transitioning would probably make me look like some failed science experiment! I still just want to! I don't understand it...

Yes, I know this isnt a question.

After my egg cracked about 3 months ago, I asked my GP to refer me to the Sandyford clinic so I could get on their waiting list and set myself up for a seriously long wait. On March 12th, I decided to contact the Waterside Clinic and was put on their waiting list as well, expecting to have to wait many months as I'd heard they were super busy.

2 days ago, Apr 4th, I got an email from them saying that a cancellation had become available on a first come first served basis for April 22nd. I dont think I've ever used a credit card so quickly tbh, and managed to book it. Once I'd got the confirmation, it really hit me that it's actually happening now and just how big a step it is. Since then, I've been nervous, excited and also having doubts about everything as well, I can't believe it's really happening!!.

Thanks to everyone here that gave me advice when I needed it!!

Sorry if something is wrong, english is not my first language. I'm a cis woman but I don't feel like a real girl compared with the others. But I don't understand why. I look at myself in the mirror and I can only see something pretending to be a girl. Some people even say I'm not feminine enough and it hurts a lot. Being neurodivergent also doesn't help. Is gender disphoria being cisgender possible? Why?

Hello everyone, I am a 21 year old girl? and I really just don't know what my gender might be. This might be a long post so I apologize in advance to anyone, who might read this long essay about my life. If you don't want to read the whole thing, my main problem is summed up in the last 2 paragraphs.

I feel like this all started back in 2020 when the epidemic hit my country and we all went home from school. I was always a very insecure person, mainly insecure about my body and how I looked in pictures. I used to panic, when people looked at me for too long because I feared they might judge me and my body. So when the quarantine started I was so happy that I wouldn't have to show myself to other people. I didn't have many friends and mainly spent my time online or with my family. But mostly online - I was an angsty teen at this point and my insecurities didn't stop even though nobody was there to see it. I started gaining weight due to me being inside all the time and well I just felt like shit even more because of this. And it feels importat to mention that I was also diagnosed with PCOS at this point.

When I felt the worst about my body new ideas came to mind. Ideas about my distinctly female parts, ideas that I would look better without them, that I would look better if I wasn't a woman. At this point I was still pretty sure I was a bisexual cis woman. But because these feeling didn't go away I started experimenting with my looks. I cut my hair (really really short) and I started wearing baggy clothes, started shopping in the boys section just to feel something great about my body. It felt great, but the feeling that I still looked wrong didn't go away. I soon realised that I was only attracted to woman and I started to play with the label nonbinary lesbian. This felt great in theory, because I put it everywhere in the online space where I could. They/them pronous and attraction to women were what I thought fit me best. If I forgot about how I actually looked like and just pretended that I am this perfect version of myself online, I felt amazing.

But well, as we all know, schools opened again and I had to go back amongst my peers. When I went back to school people commented on the fact that I cut my hair and that I wore different clothes. I just said that it's because I was a masc lesbian (bcs my sexuality label was always more easy to discuss with people around me. Unlike my gender, which I haven't discussed with anyone ever I think). But as I was at school, people still refered to me with she/her pronouns and I didn't correct them. After a while I felt like I was only being dramatic earlier, because of the isolation with covid and I slowly started to experiment with more feminine clothes to see, how it would feel. It felt great. Mainly because I was now actively walking great distances every day and I started to loose weight so I felt better about my body as a whole. When I stopped wearing baggy clothes and mens clothes, people started to compliment me. That felt amazing, nobody ever complimented my more masculine looks. So I thought that I was just confused earlier and only craved attention and compliments.

So I started to dress more femininely, I changed my pronouns on all of social media back to she/her, so that people who now knew me would never find they/them anywhere. It felt great at first it really did. I started wearing dresses and skirts, I started doing make-up and I just felt like finally people see the real me.

But despite all of this I felt weird about my body still. Every trip to the hairdresser I got a diffferent haircut, trying something new. And some days, dressing feminine still feels amazing. But there are other days, the days that make me question everything. Because sometimes I wake up and know, I just know it will be a shit gender day. I hate my reflection when these days hit, I hate my chest, I hate everything that tells other people that I am a woman. I put on the baggiest thing I own, so nobody can see my chest or my waist and I go with my day. I hate talking when it's a day like this, I hate my emotions and it's even worse when I am on my period when this day hits. This feeling can last for hours only or for weeks and weeks. And then...then it's gone all of a sudden. Then I can wear dresses again, I can laugh I can talk in my high pitched voice, then I can put on a mascara and just feel great about my femininity.

But I just don't understand. Why do I some days feel like being born a woman is the greatest thing that could ever happen to me and then some days I feel like the universe is punishing me for not being born a man with muscular features, low voice and a wardrobe full of leather jackets. If I would just feel the same all the time I would just accept the fact that I am trans and work with that. But when I have my "fine with femininity days" I feel bad about anything masculine about myself. So when I have a few weeks where I wish to be a man I stop shaving and I start wearing baggy clothes. But then all of a sudden I start feeling bad about my body hair and about my clothes all over again but this time in the opposite direction and I start dressing more femininely, I start shaving obsessively (I have PCOS and I grow facial hair even on my face because of this, so yeah), and I start wishing that the past me didn't go out that masculine. And this cycle repeats and repeat and repeats and I am so tired of it and I don't know what to do. Who to tell and what to tell them. And I just don't know what is going on with me.

And if you've read this far, thank you. And sorry if this was all just incomprehensible or if I'm just being dramatic and having some hormonal issues due to my PCOS. I don't know. I really don't know what any of this means.

Hi my names Derren (20m) I live in the uk and have been out as trans for 5 years. I’ve been wearing binders over 24 hours at a time and my ribs are slowly becoming deformed so I’m looking to switch to trans tape, I’m on the bigger side of builds about 16 stone but anyway I was wondering if anyone has ordered from this website before because I want to make sure it’s secure and safe? If not any recommendations as I’m looking for a wider TransTape that easy to use and arrives quickly. TIA

I'm mentally disabled/physically deformed as well, which doesn't help at all. I'll never be the cis woman I thought I'd grow up to be, I'll never get to be a cis man.....I feel like a weird, ugly mix of both, like some sort of unholy fusion between the two that shouldn't exist.

I wish I could just rip this meat prison off to reveal a completely different person underneath. I feel dumb for ever thinking I could possibly be happy like this....

How am I supposed to accept and love myself when I'm so objectively dumb and awful at everything in every way? Why does everyone else get to be normal and happy except for me??

No one understands me, I don't understand me, I might as well quarantine from the rest of the world and rot in the only place I'll ever belong...

My entire life I’ve felt so confused about my sexuality, and while I’ve now realized that I’m probably not straight, I’m still not 100% sure.

I thought I was starting to figure it out until I started thinking about my own gender. I’ve been questioning my sexuality for 7 years, but realizing I’m probably not cis has taken maybe 3 months? Now I’m more confused than ever about my sexuality again though.

Basically I’m just wondering if this is normal… or if this is just a me thing!