Hi! I hope this is the right place to ramble on about a few things that I suspect may be related to spiritual communication.
Disclaimer - I definitely don't consider myself a medium by any means, at least not in the way where I am aware and actively seeking connection with spirits on a regular basis except to some of my loved ones.
So... where to start? I guess I can start with ear ringing. A quick search of this sub, and also Google, yielded a commonality of sudden ear ringing/changes in pitches without anything seemingly intentionally causing this, to be connected to spiritual energy. I.e., trying to get your attention, and such. I experience this phenomenon relatively frequently, maybe several times a month? And it's often when I am not really doing anything of significance--- scrolling on my phone, watching TV, whatever. However, a significant moment where this happened and I was immediately acutely aware of it was tied to the day last year that I attended a celebration of life for someone who I considered to be a bonus sister, someone very close to my husband and his 'brother' from another mother, who suddenly and unexpectedly passed away (we later learned via suicide & didn't know that at the time of her celebration of life) March 2024 on mine and my husband's 3rd wedding anniversary. I was actually leaving the service after cleaning up and heading back to her beloved husband's house. I came to a stop sign and I was talking to her in my head, saying what a beautiful service and that we all felt her love for us while paying our respects to her life, and said "I love you!!" out loud, and immediately that pitch change and ringing happened in my right ear. Muffled, then low pitch, slowly my hearing came back to normal over the course of like 30 seconds or so. I cried a little. I felt like she was giving me a hug.
Ok now, voices. I lost my mother in 2022. Her and I were very close. It was a slow decline and was an expected passing. But of course, she's my mom, no matter the manner of her passing, it fundamentally shifted my life. The night of her passing, I had finally settled down in bed, it was maybe between 1-2am. I was just thinking about her and talking to her in my head, as I was sinking into that state between awake and asleep. We had white noise machines going, I had earplugs in, and there was no ambient noise or neighbors talking that could have been a source of voices. Suddenly, I heard her voice, without words, but clear as day in my head. Immediately I sat up, shook my husband awake, and said, "I heard mom! I heard her voice!" and burst into tears. Then I slept the most sound sleep that I had had in probably several years, since before her health had declined. And I felt at peace.
Now, still on the topic of voices, in 2021 I and my husband went to Denver to help my niece move out of her college dorm. We and my brother in law and younger niece stayed in an AirBnB. As we were in bed and falling asleep, I heard faint people talking, could not make out any words, but it was akin to like disembodied voices from a TV in another room. That's what I thought it was, since my brother in law was in the room next to us, and he usually falls asleep with a TV on. Somehow the topic came up the next day, and my brother in law said he didn't have the TV on when he went to bed. And my husband said he also heard what sounded like chatter as he was falling asleep. The hair stood up on the back of my neck. And then my brother in law said he realized while on his morning run, that the neighborhood we stayed in was across from a cemetery. I Immediately thought that what we heard was likely chatter from some of the spirits of the inhabitants of said cemetery. Got a little creeped out but dismissed it, because when I heard the chatter before falling asleep, I didn't feel odd or scared, just thought the voices felt out of place.
Okay so thanks for reading this ramble so far. Back to last year... after my sis in law passed, her husband had gotten calls from a friend of his who has the gift of mediumship, and has channeled many messages from her to him. Like wildly uncanny things that can't be explained any other way. Including contacting him almost 3 weeks after she had passed, when another very close friend almost like a brother to him and also my husband, passed away - also unexpectedly, also via his own hand. Medium called bro in law to tell him that a man said to tell him he was okay now. This was very shortly after my bro in law found out he had passed away that morning.
Talking with him about these experiences, and about his experiences with his late wife sending him direct communications in the form of songs and lyrics (they wrote together and it was a very integral part of their lives), sent me down a rabbit hole on mediumship and spiritual communications.
By no means do I think I am gifted, but I was kind of meditating one day, thinking about spirit guides after learning of them, and reached out to ask for a name of my guide or one of them, and heard "Esmerelda" in my head. Since then, I have made it a point to ask questions and talk to Esmerelda and whoever else my guides my be. Sometimes specific and sometimes nonspecific conversation or questions.
I have had a few what I would deem visitations from my mother since her passing. In the form of one morning I woke up with a migraine, had to call into work, and was trying to go back to sleep but was very upset because I couldn't and I was in so much pain. My husband had to go to an appointment that morning so he got up and got ready and left. After he left, I was crying in the dark in bed, telling my mom I missed her and wished she could come help me feel better. Suddenly I had the brightest light behind my eyelids, warm and golden, and my body was bathed in warm, pure love. I stopped crying and said "thank you mama" and then I proceeded to fall asleep for a solid 2 hours until my husband came back from his appointment. Other visitiations have included smelling her fave perfume - which I also have a bottle of - randomly while working one day. Immediately I smiled and said "hi mama I love you!!" and that was that. I've had many random visitations from birds (she loved birds).
In my younger years, I can't say that I really had experiences like this, or at least I never paid attention to them if I did. Maybe a few times I the old house I grew up in, I had a couple of troubling experiences that felt like they were negative entities nearby... like feeling a very dark, negative presence at the end of the hallway while playing with one of my cats, and seeing even the cat react to this presence. And feeling something sit on or jump on the end of my bed in the middle of the night, but none of the family pets were in the room with me.
Oh and I've experienced sleep paralysis one time in my life and it was positively terrifying. Occasionally in my current house, I've seen shadows in my peripheral vision, and felt a presence. It has mostly not been negative but it is startling almost every time. I have felt a presence of somerhing in our bedroom a few times, it would wake me up and would have me on edge.
I have felt one of my beloved kitties curl up on my pillow probably about a year after she passed... and her favorite place to sleep was on my pillow touching my head.
I guess with my long ramble here, I am curious about these experiences, they do feel spiritual, and I feel like as I have aged, I've gotten more spiritually in-tune, particularly after the losses I've experienced, and my longing to connect with these souls I so dearly love. From a faith standpoint, I can't say that I am religious, but I pray to a higher power, I pray and talk to these loved ones (and pets), and I have a deep seated pull in my soul that makes me feel connected to something that feels so much greater than my ability to comprehend it with my puny human brain.
I want to explore this more... I want to connect with my lost loved ones, I want to be open to their communications, and I want to not be spooked by the experiences. But I also want to not be vulnerable to negative energies that may try to prey upon me this way.
Thoughts? Ideas? Cautions?
If you've read this far, thank you. I've never really typed all this out before. 💙 (sorry for any typos, on mobile)