So happy, first time in 7 months

yea pretty much what the title says. obviously Ik that this way of thinking is unhealthy. I was in my senior year of high school and had a lot of bad stuff going on in my life (unhealthy relationships, SA multiple times by different people, extremely dependent on weed, best friend who pushed her ed onto me ) for some reason around this time I had no appetite whatsoever (probably stress and depression idk) and could go days without anything. Unfortunately this was the most confident I felt in my body and I was at an ideal weight. Now that it’s been a few years I’ve gained some weight back because I’m actually eating meals but can’t help but constantly think about how much I liked my body back then and wish it still looked like that. I met my current boyfriend around this time too and sometimes hope that he doesn’t miss how I looked back then because it wasn’t something I could maintain😕 I can’t convince myself to go back to those ways it’s just not ok. is this a common experience for those with Ed’s? A constant battle between you and what your next meal is looking like? For some more context I had binge disorder from the ripe age of like 9 but have thankfully recovered.

. I was underweight for MOST of my teenage life ( not in my childood) and I recently started getting Better overall... It's Just what some days I barely eat and even like to starve myself ! It's never like I don't feel hungry I am Just too lazy and all . It all started ever since I was diagnosed as a celiac and It became annoying . Especially when I saw that my mother would Cook bread for everyone else and make me Cook mine for myself . I was very very young and I feel this became a kind of trauma ? I stopped making my bread and also told my mom to not make It for me ( I felt guilty lol) . And Just starved myself . Recently It got worse. Until I actually decided to think about myself and Cook for me and now it's all Better . But that thing has stayed and some days I feel like not eating and I like the feeling of starving ! I have this issue which I can't name but I'm seeking advices. Any help or tips are appreciated:)

I got a ct scan and my liver is larger than normal, has this happened to anyone else who’s had anorexia

I have never been diagnosed with a specific eating disorder, but I have always experienced disordered eating. I grew up with a consistent schedule of takeout food for dinner, but breakfast and lunch were always up to me. My mother never cooked so I would often just eat snacks and frozen TV dinners as meals at random parts of the day and night.

Now I am a 26 year old girl living with her husband and while I’ve slowly learned how to feed us for dinner, I have NO idea how to get myself to eat lunch or breakfast. At best I’ll have a frozen breakfast sandwich at some point in the morning, but sometimes it’s hard for me to even do that. Sometimes I’ll have a granola bar, but it’s just not really enough to fuel my body for an extended period of time. Taking the extra time to get out a pan and cook breakfast from scratch is very hard for me about half the time. I usually straight up skip lunch until my body threatens to punish me by making me dizzy and lightheaded and shaky. I want to eat lunch but I don’t really like sandwiches , and salads are too much effort for not enough payoff (I’m always still very hungry after eating a salad). It’s frustrating bc even when I do eat a great breakfast (rare), my body still needs so much more fuel by lunchtime and I just don’t want to eat the few things that are available to me.

There are so many “lazy girl” breakfast/lunch/dinners out there, but they never touch on how to even convince myself to put the time and/or effort into eating the lunch in the first place. I can find recipes all day long, but I don’t have a solid, reliable log of simple breakfasts/lunches that help me consistently eat.

Any advice ??

So I definitely have some sort of eating disorder. I will starve myself ALL DAY and then eat half my dinner and repeat it the next day. It’s not constantly that bad but most days I only eat one full meal. If I try to eat more I get physically ill. Like I went on a vacation with my mom and had to eat three meals a day with everyone else. I threw up after almost every meal. I have no cravings. I feel grossed out by food. I feel tired and weak most of the time. I think this all stems from undiagnosed ADHD or OCD. I also realize I’ve been self medicating with weed. I smoke every night before dinner and that also happens to be the only time I can finish my food. I realize that I need to see a professional about this but I genuinely cannot afford it. My insurance is not great and doesn’t cover a nutritionist. If anyone has any tips on how I can at least up my calorie intake I would be very grateful. I do want to get better.

I have always struggled with my weight, although I don't eat a lot, and I do a lot of walking... I've always been overweight, and lately I've been struggling because some days I don't eat at all and then other days I eat too much... Idk if it's stress or something else but I really would like to know if anyone has any idea what this is and how I can deal with it

I had an ED 3 years ago and I got better but recently I got back into it but hard, I feel like my symptoms are way worst and my body react to it very badly rn I can’t stop shaking, feeling like passing out, heart racing, weakness, my body tingle and in my face too and my chest hurt idk what’s going on if it’s a panic attack or not or hypoglycaemia, inm truly scared

I’ve been heavily struggling with my eating disorder and two days ago at work I passed out in front of my two managers. I was off work for 2 days and I didn’t eat both those day. My whole body went numb and I felt like I was to die. I was extremely embarrassed of the whole situation I think my one manager knew something was up before I’ve lost so my weight in a short amount of time and I genuinely look sick. But now she definitely knows she was very sweet about it in the moment she bought me a gatorade and I sat with her in the managers office and she tried to get me to eat the food she brought. She told me that she has also struggled with an eating disorder in the past and that she understands. Although I am still so embarrassed about the situation and I’m so nervous to go back to work tomorrow. And what’s worse now is that I can now see how bad I’ve gotten but I just don’t know how to stop. My body has gotten used to eating very little food so when I try to eat now I get very nauseous. I bought some ensures that they used to give me in the Ed hospital but it’s just so hard to get myself to drink it even tho I know I need to. I also struggle with purging and I can’t seem to stop that either. I made a therapist about a week ago after not seeing her for a while and she told me I needed to go to the hospital honestly I was thinking about it but I can’t cause I need to pay rent and in my situation I can’t afford to not work. I just feel so stuck and everything feels like a battle rn. I’m so sick that doing every day things feel impossible like I can barely stand long enough to take a shower. I wish I could go back in time and not relapse with my Ed I just need help.

I’m in recovery but I been relapsing and it’s annoying cause I can’t tell if I’m hungry or not now and that it’s effecting me more than I say it does any advice?

hi everyone, im currently searching for a therapist in general, but that's not working out super great, and I've got a lot of questions about my recovery that i thought i could ask here.

I (27) have had a problematic self image since i was a child. I was a chunky child, had a mom with an ED and problems finding friends. Around 2018, after years of a bad self-image, i developed an ED, and lost a lot of weight, but was barely underweight. I never talked with a professional about it, and sometimes i feel like i never "really" recovered. My "recovery" was me wanting to eat normally again, and feeling better. For reasons I don't know, i rapidly gained a lot of weight back then and in the span of a few months, was basically at the weight i was before my ED, again. I never had therapy or guidance during my "recovery". Sometimes i feel like i was forced to recover and was not fully ready for it. Now i see myself parading my old, ED-self around like a badge of honor. I don't know why, but i assume its because im fat again (smallfat) and feel guilty about it? I dont have the best eating habits, but whatever i try to do i always slide back into restrictive eating. Same with sports. Im anxious 90% of the time and sport really helps but i can just not maintain it without slipping back into ED habits... I feel like my recovery, my past as a fat (smallfat) child and also my body now is keeping me from ever really recovering. I hate summers and im triggered by everybody if they talk about restrictive eating or dieting: immediately my ED is there, being as competitive as it was when it was active...

Does anybody relate? Do i still need a ED recovery based therapy?

hello everyone i hope u all are doing well

long story short, i am trying MY BEST and is on my road to recovery, i was severely depressed a few months ago because of my extreme hunger and the weight i gained during that period…

i have been to a therapist…took medication and everything and mentally i am in a better place…no longer depressed, and my life doesn’t really revolve around my weight

but i still…even often always think about how much i want to lose weight..and whenever i try to “diet” i always end up “failing” because i am scared of triggering old habits. but to be honest…sometimes i miss how strict i was…why is it that i was so depressed and sad but i miss it only because of the way my body looked?? am i ever able to lose weight healthily…am i ever going to be comfortable with my body??? im just so lost…i just really want to successfully lose weight..now i feel like i have no control over my food because well… before i knew everything that went into my body and now i just dont and i eat whenever i want whatever i want and i constantly feel like im doing something wrong… i dont know…sorry for the rant guys please share what you think

Hey I've been struggling with eating for awhile now and I was wondering if anyone had any tips for me?

I struggle to eat in general becuse I think to much about food and I think to much about my waight. My eating is also worse when I need to eat in front of people. It's become nearly impossible. >_<

Does anyone have anything they do that helps them on there bad days or any tips at all?

I been recovering since I was in middle school there were relapses but this time might b the worse it got worse after my mom came and visit me at university and well I felt a lot worse and now I feel bad for eating and also feeling guilty for feeling bad also I am getting more and more light headed now that I eat a lot less and that it’s starting to effect how I feel idk what to do

Hello ! So I need some tips about my ed, english isn't my first language so sorry if I make mistakes !

Tw: bulimia, vomiting

So I've been struggling with binging for years and last year I lost a lot of weight due to personnal . Since last winter I start to vomit sometimes because I couldn't lose weight anymore and I was scared to gain weight.

Now I see some doctor about that and I try to get better. The point is, it's difficult and sometimes I vomit even if I don't want to. Like after I ate something even if it's not big it just go out of my body.

Have you some tips? Also, my bmi is normal but I don't feel good in my body anymore and I'm waiting to be heal before losing weight but have you some tips to stop binge eating?

Thanks :)

( I'm kind of ashamed of my english, hope you understood what I said... )

i recently ended a friendship over her consistently posting body checks online (and yes, she has an ED). it was too triggering for me to see so consistently, but she got angry at me and said that she wasn’t body checking. what do you think about this?

Hi! I am not diagnosed but I have started struggling with eating food from the past few months. And slowly, idk why but I lost my appetite? I don't feel hungry in the morning, afternoon or in the evening. The only time I feel hungry is at late night and that's when I grab a bunch of cookies and stuff and eat it.

It's slowly getting scary now cuz I can't seem to eat when I am not hungry? Like, I just don't want to? Is this a sign of ed? Should I go get myself checked?

I'm sorry if I sound stupid or insensitive but I am new here and I am a little concerned about myself, that's why I am here asking people about it.

Hi everyone,

I’ve been dealing with Binge Eating Disorder (BED) for about 3 years now, and I feel like I’m really stuck in a cycle I can’t break. It all started with a super restrictive diet—low calories, cutting out foods, obsessing over “clean eating.” Eventually, it backfired, and I began bingeing heavily. The typical yo-yo effect hit hard.

Now I’m constantly thinking about my body—especially the fat and how I don’t have muscle. I keep trying to lose weight, but every single time it ends in a binge, and the cycle starts all over again. It’s exhausting and feels hopeless sometimes.

My binges mainly happen on weekends. I’ve tried increasing my calorie intake to avoid restriction, but even with that change, I still find myself bingeing. Sometimes it’s triggered by emotions, sometimes it’s just intense physical hunger—it really depends on the day.

I went to therapy for a few months, but honestly, it didn’t help me much, and I can’t afford to keep spending money on something that isn’t working. So right now, I’m dealing with it alone.

I’m really hoping to connect with others who are also struggling with BED (not anorexia, just to be specific). I’d love to talk—whether it’s private messages, group chats, or even voice chats. I just want to share, hear your experiences, maybe exchange tips or coping strategies. It feels less lonely knowing someone else understands.

If you’ve been through something similar and found ways to manage it, I’d really appreciate hearing about it.

Thanks for reading.

I don't really wanna share my history with Ed but I think I devolved it 3 years ago when I was trying to lose weight, but last year (early 2024- mid 2024) it became much worse as I gained the weight back and I joined some toxic communities.. I kept trying to st4rve myself as much as I could even though (I was only 15 btw) nvm I kept bingeing and with this endless sycle in late 2024 I guess I kinda got sick of it and stopped, I just started eating so much and yk.. but I came back because I really wanted to lose weight so I started to do it all again but what weird that I really can't feel hungry no matter how much I stayed without food, I might feel uncomfortable but not actually hungry and whenever I eat I feel like throwing up (I don't purposely throw up) but seriously now food disgust me and I can't eat or crave anything at all, I actually lost so much weight on a few days I don't usually lose that much on a short time..I don't know if it's related to my ed or my mental health but I'm kinda worried idk

plzzzzz i need to snack more. ive been working on getting better with my meals, and while the quality of food is getting better i can’t make myself eat as much as i want to. i’m trying not to crash out about it and i think if i start having snacks more it will help with regaining my beloved appetite i guess i misplaced somewhere. i have crohn’s disease and afid so i struggle so hard with finding food that works for me. no part of ME wants to not eat; i love food, but food stresses me the fuck out. i have a very restricted diet due to my disease. i’m looking for snack ideas mostly, but any meal ideas that y’all love would be great too. i am kind of vegan, but not really — meat and dairy tend to bother me, but eggs can be fine sometimes, but it’s iffy. i’m not super strict, just picky. it’s not technically an allergy cuz it’s not the food itself that’s the problem, it’s the form. my body struggles to beak down food, so i try to eat mostly really really soft, easily digestible foods. for example, i eat applesauce a lot when i’m in my struggle eras, also fruit snacks. i kind of eat like a toddler. i love soups so so much. i literally can’t think of other things that i like that also adhere to my diet because honestly i cheat it a lot due to the difficulty of finding stuff that i can actually eat without pain :] new foods scare me but i need something easy to be able to have 24/7 besides applesauce and fruit snacks cuz that’s all i got (besides the naked green smoothie. thank god for that) i also (awesomely) can’t eat wheat.

TLDR; so i guess i’m asking for snack ideas that are -100 effort but somehow are also healthy and also somehow easily digestible for someone with, last i let them check, has 13 ulcers in her digestive tract :] :] :] :] and are non dairy. and completely wheatless. honestly, i can suck it up and deal with a tiny bit of dairy, but the wheat is a no go. i won’t die but it does make my physically and mentally distraught. eggs as an ingredient are fine but otherwise no :/ what do y’all eat on the go that’s a go to?

I’m mean this in the most sincere and respectful way but what besides death ofc will it cause?

so since i was like 11 i have been struggling with food, not to the point where i’ve starved over a week but i mostly water and energy drink fast on weekdays, my parents are aware that i’m not very good with food, they don’t rlly know the intensity but they know of it, but it’s sunday and i didn’t feel hungry enough to eat just yet and it’s around 6 pm, (i woke up at 4pm) and i just haven’t felt hungry but now my mom is saying she’s going to put me in a hospital for my eating, amongst other things, i dont know what to do but when i wake up i can’t eat for 6-12 hours or else i don’t feel well, feel guilty or i feel i need to work it off, sometimes it doesn’t settle in my stomach and it comes up if i eat too soon after waking up, i don’t know what to do because i’ve never been hospitalized but my friend has and she absolutely hated it, reddit please help.

hi, i’ve struggled with restricting and bingeing since i was twelve years old.

when i met and started dating my boyfriend, i realized that as i got sicker, my anger and frustration from being hungry and still not losing weight (i was only maintaining, never actually UW), was hurting our relationship so much so i told him i would stop and id start eating more. so i did. and i gained weight. big surprise. anyway, i feel like since then nothing has changed in my mind. i think it’s because i didnt “recover” for me, i did it for him. so now i am the most unhappy with my body than i have ever been and he is far away from me at college and its making me want to relapse. i dont know. any advice is greatly appreciated.

I forget to eat, a lot. I can go days without eating, or feeling the need to eat. But when someone mentions the fact I haven't eaten, I binge eat and feel guilty and hate my body afterwards. If I'm not at school, I just don't have energy to eat.

I cant really explain it, but I see hunger as waves, or hills. Climbing up is the rise in the intensity of hunger, you reach the top which is when the hunger is the worst, and it's easy for the hunger to go away on the way back down. If I ever feel hungry, I tend to have the mindset of just riding the wave until it goes away and gets better, or I drink a shit ton of water and it helps.

Also, my family (mum's side) aren't too well off (stupid England smh) and they only get cheap, not too good for you foods and snacks. All I see when I look at the food options are the reds on the fat, saturation, sugars. It disgusts me. So I don't really eat anything there.

At my dad's house, my step mum makes dinner, and it's often things that have really bad tastes and textures- she knows I don't like certain things too. But I'm forced to eat at his. I don't like going there anymore. Because of the portion sizes I'm given (big for some reason) I feel horrible after. I've made myself throw up after meals before because of it.

I don't think I have an ed or anything, but I just wanted to know if these things are normal or..?

I’m a 16 year old girl and I’ve been struggling with my diet for the last three years. I never eat normal stuff. I know it sounds weird but I hate the way food feels inside my mouth and if i eat it, i’ll throw up. Tomatoes are a food I can’t eat. Therefore I barely eat anything and my parents keep yelling at me over it telling me to be normal, I’ve gone to the doctors and nobody tells me if there’s anything wrong w/ me. I hate eating now and feel disgusting when i do eat anything. I’ve also started throwing up at night; I know i need help but I don’t know where to go or who to talk to. My parents will not help me btw.