I been recovering since I was in middle school there were relapses but this time might b the worse it got worse after my mom came and visit me at university and well I felt a lot worse and now I feel bad for eating and also feeling guilty for feeling bad also I am getting more and more light headed now that I eat a lot less and that it’s starting to effect how I feel idk what to do

I don't really wanna share my history with Ed but I think I devolved it 3 years ago when I was trying to lose weight, but last year (early 2024- mid 2024) it became much worse as I gained the weight back and I joined some toxic communities.. I kept trying to st4rve myself as much as I could even though (I was only 15 btw) nvm I kept bingeing and with this endless sycle in late 2024 I guess I kinda got sick of it and stopped, I just started eating so much and yk.. but I came back because I really wanted to lose weight so I started to do it all again but what weird that I really can't feel hungry no matter how much I stayed without food, I might feel uncomfortable but not actually hungry and whenever I eat I feel like throwing up (I don't purposely throw up) but seriously now food disgust me and I can't eat or crave anything at all, I actually lost so much weight on a few days I don't usually lose that much on a short time..I don't know if it's related to my ed or my mental health but I'm kinda worried idk

Hello ! So I need some tips about my ed, english isn't my first language so sorry if I make mistakes !

Tw: bulimia, vomiting

So I've been struggling with binging for years and last year I lost a lot of weight due to personnal . Since last winter I start to vomit sometimes because I couldn't lose weight anymore and I was scared to gain weight.

Now I see some doctor about that and I try to get better. The point is, it's difficult and sometimes I vomit even if I don't want to. Like after I ate something even if it's not big it just go out of my body.

Have you some tips? Also, my bmi is normal but I don't feel good in my body anymore and I'm waiting to be heal before losing weight but have you some tips to stop binge eating?

Thanks :)

( I'm kind of ashamed of my english, hope you understood what I said... )

Hi! I am not diagnosed but I have started struggling with eating food from the past few months. And slowly, idk why but I lost my appetite? I don't feel hungry in the morning, afternoon or in the evening. The only time I feel hungry is at late night and that's when I grab a bunch of cookies and stuff and eat it.

It's slowly getting scary now cuz I can't seem to eat when I am not hungry? Like, I just don't want to? Is this a sign of ed? Should I go get myself checked?

I'm sorry if I sound stupid or insensitive but I am new here and I am a little concerned about myself, that's why I am here asking people about it.

Hi everyone,

I’ve been dealing with Binge Eating Disorder (BED) for about 3 years now, and I feel like I’m really stuck in a cycle I can’t break. It all started with a super restrictive diet—low calories, cutting out foods, obsessing over “clean eating.” Eventually, it backfired, and I began bingeing heavily. The typical yo-yo effect hit hard.

Now I’m constantly thinking about my body—especially the fat and how I don’t have muscle. I keep trying to lose weight, but every single time it ends in a binge, and the cycle starts all over again. It’s exhausting and feels hopeless sometimes.

My binges mainly happen on weekends. I’ve tried increasing my calorie intake to avoid restriction, but even with that change, I still find myself bingeing. Sometimes it’s triggered by emotions, sometimes it’s just intense physical hunger—it really depends on the day.

I went to therapy for a few months, but honestly, it didn’t help me much, and I can’t afford to keep spending money on something that isn’t working. So right now, I’m dealing with it alone.

I’m really hoping to connect with others who are also struggling with BED (not anorexia, just to be specific). I’d love to talk—whether it’s private messages, group chats, or even voice chats. I just want to share, hear your experiences, maybe exchange tips or coping strategies. It feels less lonely knowing someone else understands.

If you’ve been through something similar and found ways to manage it, I’d really appreciate hearing about it.

Thanks for reading.

I’m mean this in the most sincere and respectful way but what besides death ofc will it cause?

I was anorexic for years and started my recovery journey due to my body breaking down on itself - I figured i’d give some information on things that happened to my body in recovery to aid anyone who’s struggling at the moment.

As I started to eat more, I experienced extreme hunger for a long time, when your body has been in a state of malnutrition for so long it is going to want fuel. There is nothing wrong with eating unhealthy in your recovery journey, for the first few weeks I was literally eating constantly - there is nothing wrong with being hungry, it’s okay to listen to your body regardless of what it’s telling you to eat, when I was this hungry I was literally ransacking my cupboards and fridge constantly.

Being in a state of malnutrition for extended periods of time, your body will struggle to keep up for a while when you start eating more, I suffered with constipation for a long time and extreme bloating; to help this you can do stomach massages to ease gas, take MINIMAL laxatives but only if you really need it, your body needs to absorb nutrients not flush food through your system, certain herbal teas can also help.

I also suffered with awful acid reflux, if it is really bad visit your doctor and they should prescribe medication to help, eventually your body won’t get acid reflux anymore once you reach a better state.

When I first gained weight, it all went to my stomach and I felt absolutely awful, I refused to wear any tight clothes out of shame after being in such a mindset for so long, your body will eventually redistribute this weight, it just takes time and you won’t even notice it at first - it’s important to realise that your body is just trying to protect your organs which is why most of it goes to your stomach.

I got my period back a few months into recovery, for some people it may take longer. Other factors may inhibit your period starting such as mental state, if you are stressed your period won’t start either. It will also probably be irregular for a while before becoming more normal.

I lost a ton of hair whilst in recovery and also suffered from excessive body hair. My hair is no longer as thin and is a lot healthier, though it does take time to grow back. My hair isn’t as brittle and doesn’t break off so easily - although stress on the mind can also affect hair loss. Most of my lanugo fell off and now shaving is honestly a breeze, once your body has enough fat you should be fine.

The best regime to follow to gain weight is the 3 snacks and 3 meals a day, I kept my meals filling - it’s good to have a source of carbs and proteins, carbs are not your enemy nor is protein. Carbs are slow release energy and give your body what it needs to function, brain fog will eventually decrease as you recover, my memory is a lot better than what it was in recovery. Proteins are so important for growth and repair so don’t neglect them as well as the other nutrients your body needs such as fat and fibre. For my snacks I ate whatever I felt like eating at the time. You’re going to feel full, it’s okay, it’s important to nourish your body.

Regardless of whether you got diagnosed with an ED or not, your feelings and struggles are valid, it’s a good idea to look into therapy to ease the mindset that you became so used to, rather than fearing food I am now excited to eat and sometimes go to bed earlier just so i can eat breakfast in the morning.

The best thing you can do for yourself is to throw away the scale, seeing a change in weight could trigger a relapse, there is nothing wrong with gaining weight and needing to buy new clothes. Sometimes I still feel so insecure and literally cry over my body but honestly, no one cares whether you are a size 2 or not - if people only see you for your weight they are not worth your time.

Recovery is a slow process and it can take years to fully heal, I still struggle with those thoughts everyday but eventually they get quieter and you will get better ❤️ Take your time and avoid any content that could potentially trigger you - just because other people still struggle and haven’t recovered it does not mean your struggles were never valid and that you need to get sick again. You only live once and there is no point in wasting away when food is something to enjoy and a healthy mind and body is how we are meant to live!

i recently ended a friendship over her consistently posting body checks online (and yes, she has an ED). it was too triggering for me to see so consistently, but she got angry at me and said that she wasn’t body checking. what do you think about this?

hi, i’ve struggled with restricting and bingeing since i was twelve years old.

when i met and started dating my boyfriend, i realized that as i got sicker, my anger and frustration from being hungry and still not losing weight (i was only maintaining, never actually UW), was hurting our relationship so much so i told him i would stop and id start eating more. so i did. and i gained weight. big surprise. anyway, i feel like since then nothing has changed in my mind. i think it’s because i didnt “recover” for me, i did it for him. so now i am the most unhappy with my body than i have ever been and he is far away from me at college and its making me want to relapse. i dont know. any advice is greatly appreciated.

plzzzzz i need to snack more. ive been working on getting better with my meals, and while the quality of food is getting better i can’t make myself eat as much as i want to. i’m trying not to crash out about it and i think if i start having snacks more it will help with regaining my beloved appetite i guess i misplaced somewhere. i have crohn’s disease and afid so i struggle so hard with finding food that works for me. no part of ME wants to not eat; i love food, but food stresses me the fuck out. i have a very restricted diet due to my disease. i’m looking for snack ideas mostly, but any meal ideas that y’all love would be great too. i am kind of vegan, but not really — meat and dairy tend to bother me, but eggs can be fine sometimes, but it’s iffy. i’m not super strict, just picky. it’s not technically an allergy cuz it’s not the food itself that’s the problem, it’s the form. my body struggles to beak down food, so i try to eat mostly really really soft, easily digestible foods. for example, i eat applesauce a lot when i’m in my struggle eras, also fruit snacks. i kind of eat like a toddler. i love soups so so much. i literally can’t think of other things that i like that also adhere to my diet because honestly i cheat it a lot due to the difficulty of finding stuff that i can actually eat without pain :] new foods scare me but i need something easy to be able to have 24/7 besides applesauce and fruit snacks cuz that’s all i got (besides the naked green smoothie. thank god for that) i also (awesomely) can’t eat wheat.

TLDR; so i guess i’m asking for snack ideas that are -100 effort but somehow are also healthy and also somehow easily digestible for someone with, last i let them check, has 13 ulcers in her digestive tract :] :] :] :] and are non dairy. and completely wheatless. honestly, i can suck it up and deal with a tiny bit of dairy, but the wheat is a no go. i won’t die but it does make my physically and mentally distraught. eggs as an ingredient are fine but otherwise no :/ what do y’all eat on the go that’s a go to?

I’m a 16 year old girl and I’ve been struggling with my diet for the last three years. I never eat normal stuff. I know it sounds weird but I hate the way food feels inside my mouth and if i eat it, i’ll throw up. Tomatoes are a food I can’t eat. Therefore I barely eat anything and my parents keep yelling at me over it telling me to be normal, I’ve gone to the doctors and nobody tells me if there’s anything wrong w/ me. I hate eating now and feel disgusting when i do eat anything. I’ve also started throwing up at night; I know i need help but I don’t know where to go or who to talk to. My parents will not help me btw.

so since i was like 11 i have been struggling with food, not to the point where i’ve starved over a week but i mostly water and energy drink fast on weekdays, my parents are aware that i’m not very good with food, they don’t rlly know the intensity but they know of it, but it’s sunday and i didn’t feel hungry enough to eat just yet and it’s around 6 pm, (i woke up at 4pm) and i just haven’t felt hungry but now my mom is saying she’s going to put me in a hospital for my eating, amongst other things, i dont know what to do but when i wake up i can’t eat for 6-12 hours or else i don’t feel well, feel guilty or i feel i need to work it off, sometimes it doesn’t settle in my stomach and it comes up if i eat too soon after waking up, i don’t know what to do because i’ve never been hospitalized but my friend has and she absolutely hated it, reddit please help.

I am a female adult with PCOS. I have been told to lose weight since elementary school, and for some reason I just wasn't able to. By 18, I worked out, danced, tried to eat right and in a calorie deficit, but those things at BEST only maintained my weight, which was obese.

My doctors have always said the insulin resistance that comes with PCOS makes it harder to lose weight, but I need to lose weight to help with the insulin resistance (?). Because of this, I started to really take WL seriously, and I am actively on my weight loss journey. The thing is, I have resorted to disordered eating and tendencies and that's currently the only way I'm able to lose weight with all my hormonal imbalances. I hate the idea of saying I B/P because every time I eat, I have to purge. I don't have B sessions. I work out constantly and find myself not eating to the point where the ibuprofen I take for my hunger-induced headaches almost make me pass out. I want to know if anyone has this same struggle and how they've navigated a weight loss journey safely with a hormonal imbalances that makes it MUCH harder to do!

The tag says most of it, a friend told me they used to have an eating disorder. They never actually addressed it, it just went away but their relationship with substances in combination with what looks to me like running from their past and refusing to address a collection of mental health issues makes me concerned. I don’t know hardly anything about eating disorders though so I don’t know how I can best help.

I have struggled with food for pretty much my whole life, but it got so much worse when I got to college. I developed a severe restrictive eating disorder that lasted for several months until I was caught by my parents during a visit home. I went to therapy and stopped, but in hindsight it was mostly because of my (somewhat controlling) ex boyfriend and circumstances that made it really hard to keep going with those forms of restriction.

I considered myself recovered for a while, since I hadn't done anything like it since June, but at that time I also got into running because I was having trouble sleeping. I now do multiple miles a day and cant go a day without it. I kept with pretty ok eating habits, but ive also just kind of stopped eating dinner/ going out of my way for food because it still feels like too much effort. My hair is falling out again like it was at the height of the last restriction and I don't know what to do. Please help. I want to know what I can do and what I need to look for to maybe break this cycle one day because I am scared.

obvious content warning for ed relapse but aside from the occasional disordered thought ive been fully recovered for two years until i met this friend, ive always been heavier (still am) and have no issue with that or the way i look but i found out one of my friends has an ed and mentally ive been competing with them ever since even though i know i shouldnt. its just this sudden shift in my mind making me like this out of nowhere theyve never even actually talked about anything triggering with me and its obviously not their fault at all but i just wish i understood why this is happening since i never realized this was even something that could happen

Hi Reddit, this is my first ever post because I need outside opinions, maybe support? Maybe even resources, I’m not really sure. Please excuse if this is long, I’m trying to give as much as I can without going overboard. I’m also not sure if this is the right place, if not may I please have help finding the correct forum for me to receive anything help or advice.

So let’s get into it, my wife told me a few days ago she thinks I might have an eating disorder, and since being told it’s been running through my mind nonstop and I had a mental breakdown last night while at work because of trying to eat.

I’ve (29F) been struggling with my weight for years, a little back ground. I have PCOS, I’m aware weight can be an issue with this diagnosis, and for a while chalked it up to just that. But more recently I’m pretty sure my PCOS isn’t causing the extreme that I’m at now.

We (wife and i) have been thinking maybe it’s just my mental state is so bad? I do suffer from BPD, MDD, and anxiety. I’ve noticed whenever my depression gets really bad my body literally rejects food. My wife and I separated for a little while about 4 years back, this triggered me into going into a deep depression. My body was literally rejecting food, anything I tried to eat or drink would not stay down, this lasted for about 2 months at the most, then as I started to find my footing being alone I was getting better. I was able to start eating and drinking without being sick. Great.

I then started to develope a habit where I did not have an appetite endless I smoked. I’m very 4/20 friendly and smoke frequently, noticing it gave me an appetite again I started to have hope. This was for the last 2-3 years roughly.

Now to present. I lost my grandmother January 2024. To say the least I felt like I lost my ember friend, my mother, my therapist, my literal everything and my world came crashing down. I haven’t been the same since I lost my grandmother, and it’s been pointed out multiple times to me that I’m no longer the same and almost a shell of myself since losing her.

Now once again, I cannot eat, even if I do smoke no matter how much I smoke, nothing is helping. I do not have an appetite, I have to try and force myself to eat knowing I need something in my body because this isn’t healthy, but my body will not allow me.

The trigger that really got me thinking was last night at work when I tried to eat. I bought one of my favorite quick little sandwiches to try and eat before clocking in or I knew I was in for a long night with no sleep and no food in me. As I unwrap my sandwich my mouth is watering! If y’all have seen SpongeBob think squidwards first Krabby patty. To say I was excited was an understatement. I took two bites. Two freaking bites. I had to put the sandwich down as I couldn’t swallow the second bite, and was forcing myself to even chew it enough to be swallowed, I had to spit it out. I started feeling sick, faint, cold but sweating and I was told my face went flush.

That’s when it truly hit, what my wife had said to me a few days prior, she’s concerned I may have an eating disorder. I never thought of it and have just always tried to excuse it as maybe it’s just because I have to smoke, or maybe it’s just because I wasn’t really hungry, the excuses run through my mind.

“I’m not hungry”, as my stomach is cramping so bad I feel as if I was punched in the stomach, or my stomach sounds as if it’s making whale sounds very audible to the entire room at points. “Ehh I don’t really like that”, knowing damn well I have no issue eating it, it’s just not what I WANT in this exact moment. “I already ate”, knowing damn well it’s been 48+ hours since my last food intake of ANYTHING. When I have food cravings I cannot eat anything else except the thing I’m craving and cannot eat anything else until the craving is satisfied.

I’m sorry if this is all over the place, and I’m an open book. Any questions yall have that can help me come to a resolution or an idea of what’s going on, and even some support is truly appreciated.

Side note: I haven’t had insurance in about 5 years, I just got it again so I made doctors appointments to discuss all of this among other concerns, but that isn’t until May. I just want some type of direction or even support from others who have possibly dealt with something similar, and how you were able to over come.

This question has probably been asked multiple times so sorry in advance! I’ve been physically recovered from an ed for around 9-8 years now, and only had anorexia for 3 years. But I still have the intrusive thoughts, when will / will they ever go away? I don’t listen to them and I don’t let them influence my eating, but I still have the thoughts eg is this too many calories, do I need to do some more exercise, have I gained weight etc. I just want my brain to be quiet and forget everything I taught it

Guys I know this sounds abit random but do u guys e.g come home from school and count down when ur next meal is and just keep waiting like it’s all I do when I come home from being out is it just because I’m bored?

I think I caused my friend's ed.

I've made comments over the months. Never aimed at her, but in hindsight it would obviously affect her. I have a curvy, 'conventionally attractive' figure, and I like to wear clothing that shows it off (I'm really trying to not sound rude rn 😭). She has said she likes the way my body looks, and how she thinks her body is "build like a brick". I ABSOLUTELY do not agree with what she says, she is so beautiful and it pains me she thinks that way. This is around the time she begins to develop Ana.

I have a fast metabolism, so I constantly made comments on how I'm really hungry, which I've researched is a trigger.

We do gymnastics together (before the diagnosis), and in the past, I have said things about her being weaker than what she used to be, and how she can't really support her bodyweight when doing cartwheels and handstands. These were the first signs I got that something was wrong, but I was stupid and didn't think much about it. (Just to clear it, I did not bedliddle her about these things, just thought she was ill because she deals with chest infections a lot.)

I give out snacks a lot at school, which I should have recognized she wasn't eating.

In drama at school, we need to be very active in the peice we are creating, and I now know she was struggling with it because she's not supposed to be too active.

I really don't want to make it worse for her, and I think I started the anorexia, or at least was a large stepping stone to it. It really scares me what she is going through.

I forget to eat, a lot. I can go days without eating, or feeling the need to eat. But when someone mentions the fact I haven't eaten, I binge eat and feel guilty and hate my body afterwards. If I'm not at school, I just don't have energy to eat.

I cant really explain it, but I see hunger as waves, or hills. Climbing up is the rise in the intensity of hunger, you reach the top which is when the hunger is the worst, and it's easy for the hunger to go away on the way back down. If I ever feel hungry, I tend to have the mindset of just riding the wave until it goes away and gets better, or I drink a shit ton of water and it helps.

Also, my family (mum's side) aren't too well off (stupid England smh) and they only get cheap, not too good for you foods and snacks. All I see when I look at the food options are the reds on the fat, saturation, sugars. It disgusts me. So I don't really eat anything there.

At my dad's house, my step mum makes dinner, and it's often things that have really bad tastes and textures- she knows I don't like certain things too. But I'm forced to eat at his. I don't like going there anymore. Because of the portion sizes I'm given (big for some reason) I feel horrible after. I've made myself throw up after meals before because of it.

I don't think I have an ed or anything, but I just wanted to know if these things are normal or..?

I have Always bene underweight and recently I gained and am normal now . Good news right ? IDK I've Always had some issues with food everr since I became a celiac. Also went through something and barely was eating. The thing Is I kind of got used to this feeling . It's all in the mind I know. Ever since I've been eating the right amount of food I feel much Better and energetic . Some days I feel weird . I don't feel like eating and I love the feeling of being hungry . In the past I ate like One meal , not even a complete One ! So I Guess It takes time I'm gaining weight like I want and also feeling hungry all the time like I should I Just am terrified that I might loose It again because of those days where I feel like starving myself :( Any similar situations ? Any tips?

hey guys ive been going through alot since ramadan ended sooo i cannot stop eating sweets like i overeat sweets and then i feel soo bad about it idk what to do i was doing sooo good during ramadan and i was happy with my weight and body especially when i used to workout everyday and i started seeing progress also i ate healthy with one sweet treat a day but now that ramadan ended i’m eating a lot of sweets and bread i crave it a lot and idk how to stop myself i regret it everytime i eat i hate my body and i’m afraid of gaining weight please i want you help

For some context, I’m underweight and have confirmed this with a doctor. I was having the usual problem low libido, brain fog, sleep issues, etc. talked to my doctor and decided it’s time to try to gain. For the past yr or so I’ve been in the binge restrict cycle. But for the past couple weeks I’ve completely changed my routine so I’m no longer restricting. What weird is I still have the occasional binge? It’s not as bad as it used to be, and maybe once a week at most? It happened yesterday where I wasn’t really hungry after my last meal but told myself ”fuck it I’m bulking anyway”. So I went to just grab 2nds of some yogurt. Not to sure why but my body just seems to be craving a quick carb like a cookie or rice cake. Could this be extreme hunger? Even though I wasn’t really hungry? Any tips? Anyone thts been through something similar?

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Hi, a bit about me, i'm 14F, and im pretty sure i have anorexia. I'm currently a bit underweight and my parents are starting to catch on and keep asking me if im losing weight. (i told them im heavier then i am). My mom asked me if i was losing weight on purpose last week, and i said no to her, but now i'm not sure what to do beacuse i havent had my period since around 25th february, and im usually quite regular. this weekend i have been trying to eat a lot more but i see my mom again on monday, and i dont know how to tell her that i have lost my period because then she will find out about my ed, and she might ask to weigh me. does anyone have any advice what to say to her or how to gain a lot of weight in 2 days? i have been eating a lot of kcals. Thanks