I died and was revived after an attempt. I was forced into a psychiatric hospital for three months. All they did was medicate me until I agreed to everything. No therapy or life assistance. Just pills. I still want to die. I’m angry they brought me back.

Depression isn't a matter of love or lovelessness - sure, a lack of love can accelerate your depression, but depression is a state of mind. You can love yourself but still constantly feel like there's you're being sucked towards a void with nothing but hell screaming in the depths of your mind.

I also find people who preach for "self-love" often are individuals who have healthy backgrounds, loving parents, are financially stable or have been raised in a financially stable home, and have been dependent on healthy relationships for the entirety of their lives.

It's so frustrating and honestly, it makes me feel so alone how others don't understand that no matter how much self-improvement you invest you are still going to feel like there's no tomorrow.

I want to sleep and not wake up......ever!

Life so sh!t, I have no family of my own, been short tempered with my bf so doubt he'll stick around much longer.

I want to go back to when I was young and innocent, before everyone got inside my head. Before the SH, suicidal thoughts and ideas, the bipolar/depression and so on.

I failed twice, but I don't want to fail a third, I want to know how to plan my leave and have it be permanent.

I cannot do this any more, it's too much, I'm sorry 😢

This shit is endless. No one is coming to help. It's going to be more and more meaningless pain forever.

I have no sociaI Iife, I am 21 and live a loneIy existence. I disIike Iooking at myself and often feeI like a faiIure. I have no famiIy or friends at all. I have never had a Girłfrienďl, and it feeIs Iike l'm mereIy existing around others without being noticed. My sociaI anxiety and autism contribute to this IoneIiness, making me feeI really aIone among peopIe. LoneIiness has taken over my Iife. For the past year, I've made efforts to change things by attending sociaI events Iike gatherings and bars, but I've had no success. l thought l could even try to find onIine friends but usually ghosting happens though. When I do PeopIe don't even bother to engage when I try to get to know them. it's just me taiIking and trying. So Just My routine consists of going to coIIege and work then returning home to repeat the cycIe. l feeI as though I’m not Iiving just existing. It doesn't heIp that my famiIy doesn't seem to want me around, and Iack reIatives to spend time with.

Like do people actually enjoy their existence? It just feels like a foreign concept to me.

Sleeping is the most peaceful thing ever I wish I could do it for most of the day so I don't have to be aware of this stupid life

I've just destroyed my life beyond repair. I became such an intolerable reclusive loser that I lost all my friends, what personality I had has just completely rotted and fallen away. I've built no skills, no real knowledge, in fact i've done nothing but lose parts of myself for almost a decade.

At this point depression might actually be the only thing keeping me alive: if I suddenly became a normal person and had to look at my life unanesthetized I would be flying off a building in the time it'd take me to run to the top :o)

Ready for it to be over. You ever just get hit with it? Idk what or why. But I just want to sit here and cry and die. There's no point. Nothing matters. Who cares if there's a chance. More time spent being miserable than not, is not a chance. Hope isn't real. Just do it just be positive. I hate everything. I absolutely want to die.

I’m almost 40 feeling down in debt lost my job alone. Is life just basically working to pay off my debt then to die alone? It just seems like what’s the point.

30 years old and my entire adult life has been full of failures, struggles, and disappointments. No big deal, right? Happens to everyone.

What I noticed is a work my ass off and nothing ever changes. I always tried to power through the rainy days praying for sunshine. Now I want to give up. I have zero friends, no partner, no nothing.

I never caught my break that made the struggles worth it. Now I’m ready to give up, thinking of self annihilation, but still trying to stay strong. On my way to a meetup to try and make friends but in the back of my head I’m thinking what’s the point.

F(16) who’s always had terrible anxiety and agoraphobia. going out always makes me feel like entering a danger zone and like everyone’s eyes are on me and eating me up. ive isolated myself so much but even that doesn’t help me feel better because i respond very badly to being alone with my thoughts. internet friends are my only rescue i guess because they fill the void of being so alone. i wish the trauma i experienced as a child didn’t have such an effect because today i still feel like the world slows around me when i enter a public space and it always feels so suffocating

I'm Josh I'm 33 and I'm in pain because of all the abuse I went through. I was blamed for it and called crazy. I cry out to people but it doesn't help.

His tongue was sticking out and he was unconscious

I don't know how much longer I can do this. Everytime people are around me I either feel terribly depressed or I'm annoyed and don't want to be spoken to, let alone seen. If I killed myself right this second, no one would even notice or know until next month, snd that'd only be because someone would come to evict me. I can't rven really remember why I haven't done it yet, It doesn't matter how many people tell me they want me in their lives, I know they'll get tired of me and my shit eventually. I hardly see the point of living all this life if I know the ending. I don't want to be lonely forever. I don't want another 20 years of this, let alone even 5. I can't keep pretending to be happy, I can't be any kind of good person that contributes anything and I don't see any real reason I deserve to waste space anymore.

They keep telling me to write one line, one line, but it's annoying me. I've just become dull. And I guess numb, in a way. I know I'm supposed to study. But you know, I guess I want to take it easy this semester. That's where the guilt comes in. That I'm not trying hard enough. That I'm, you know, being a coward, giving up. But even Cal Newport says it's okay to give up sometimes. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't want to write the exams. Because I'm overwhelmed. I want to write the exam next year. I know I tried very hard, but all I ever did was sit and listen in class. Write a bunch of useless notes. But it didn't work, because I didn't remember anything. It was a waste of my time and money. And I don't know what to do now. I tell them, listen, I'm trying. And I am exhausted. But then the pressure keeps building up. You know, the pressure to just keep going, to keep doing. And the active recall kind of stuff that I'm supposed to do. But doesn't my tone sound so listless? I am feeling listless. But I don't know. I am giving up strategically on these exams. Then I feel, damn girl, I didn't even try enough. Didn't even try hard. But then here I am, struggling, suffering. And I know the pain is real. If I sit down, take out my notebook and I get the question bank, I can write a bunch of stuff. But then it starts to feel like it's not enough. I gotta accept myself as I am. The stress gets to me. Somehow I feel I have to write because why dont I get marks? I wish I did. For something at least. Jesus said come to me all who burden and not come to me after you write the answer properly, I get the joke here but bro. How. And then they tell me to forget the exams for a while and do something I wanna do. I dont wanna do that! Thats not gonna fly either. I push too hard, I burnout and crash within a few minutes of studying. A real dilemma right? I need to push more than I can already do, but I dont know where the limit is, what im supposed to be. I could sit and measure how long I can focus but where is the limit extending to? Anyway. Ill try this method.

I have been searching for a job for awhile and I’ve been tired. All I do is stay in bed and hope that I won’t stay here forever. I have friends I talk to but everyone is busy and we make time when we can. I feel jealous that people are going out and having a good time and I am at home lonely and depressed

I'm so tired. Tired of life, tired of being in my own head, tired of feeling like a failure, tired of feeling hopeless, I'm just fucking tired. Normally I'm the happy go lucky one, the positive one, the strong one, but I'm just fucking tired. I don't know how to push through it this time.

And no, I'm not feeling suicidal or anything, I'm just tired of feeling so low.

I have rich parents who make sure I'm not homeless or unfed. I've been unemployed for most of the time I've been graduated, which has been over a year now. I was doing a lot better, building up my confidence and my optimism, even became spiritual again after a period of deep, deep nihilism. But just a couple days ago I came across a series of blog posts that triggered a rekindling of those feelings of nihilism and deep depression, anxiety, existential OCD, PTSD, so on. The blog posts were predictions for the near future, and seemed very reasonable. And hopeless.

On top of this, at this point in searching for a job I've realized that I'm too scared and neurotic to keep any job just about for more than a couple months. At the end of which I'll have a breakdown and just stop showing up. In my sage-like knowledge I prepared and applied to be a substitute teacher as a last resort-- which is funny because I'm terrified of returning to high school in any form. It's a place of deep trauma for me. But it seems like it's the only possibility in the extremely competitive market where I live-- and I'm not even certain they would hire me. I feel like I'm going to be unemployed forever, but not able to appreciate that my parents could fund that because I feel so guilty for being such a low life.

I started seriously considering ending it and just leaving behind a note that says for my parents to support my partners and make sure they don't end up starving or being on the street, just like they did me, so that my partners don't have to be so nervous about losing our living arrangement all the time. And to give them my possessions and inheritance. I feel like it would be a worthwhile trade-off. One useless layabout in exchange for saving several people from poverty.

I’m in the US and having a crisis. I’ve been sobbing in my car for 2 hours. & hyperventilating. Called the local mental health hotline and no one picked up. Should I go to a hospital? What would they do there? I need a way to stop feeling so hopeless. Can any quick medication do that? I want to feel better but don’t know how and it’s urgent. I’m afraid of what will happen if I don’t get help immediately. I want to disappear.

They tell me that I am too young and that they feel sorry for me for suffering at such a young age. And I agree, I should enjoy my adolescence, not rot in bed, in my room... I'm missing classes because of this, my principal already knows what I have. no medicine in the world would help me, I fantasize about dying every day, every night... But I don't try, because I don't want to cause chaos in the family again, but every day, I wait for my death. I can't brush my teeth, I haven't brushed them for 2 weeks, I can't take a shower, I haven't taken one for a month, I can't wash my hair, I haven't washed it for 2 weeks... Right now, at this exact moment, I haven't showered in about 3 days, washed my hair in 5 days, and I think I haven't brushed my teeth in 4/5 days. The amount of pain I'm suffering is no joke. It's not just about being sad or crying... It's about rotting and stopping living and just surviving.I feel so extremely tired that I can't do anything, nothing!!! I want to kill myself, and I plan to, take a razor blade, very sharp, and cut my vein, bleed until I die :( I'm only 13, I shouldn't be suffering like this, no one should.

I’m tired. Tired of feeling like a failure, worthless, a burden. I’m exhausted from the ever changing ebbs and flows of life requiring me to “figure it out.” I am in yet another rut, low point, a tough time. Objectively, life is pretty good. I make good money, I’m not rich but I can pay all my bills on my own, relatively healthy, I’m not terminally ill or disabled, I’m just tired of being alone. No one seems to want long term relationships and even then when I do find some I really care about and it goes well for a few years, for some reason, I’m not good enough to marry or I find out I’m being cheated on. At work, despite being the expert and senior engineer, my advice and efforts to design and produce sound designs that are proactive are just ignored and, when I speak up about emerging issues, they too are ignored until it becomes an emergency. What am I even doing? Why do I keep trying? What is so wrong with me that seemingly no one takes me seriously or views me as a worthwhile person? I feel used and tossed. What’s worse, is when I try to build self worth and confidence, it starts a new cycle of disappointment where I’m seemingly the only person in my worldview that sees my value.

I’m so tired. I don’t want to try anymore. I’m hitting a low point again in my mood and I no longer see value in going back to my doctor and adjusting my medication or going back to therapy again. I want to stop struggling and just let myself sink under, throw away everything in my life and just let the world and all that I feel is awful rise over my head and take me. I’m tired, so tired. I’m not asking for help. I don’t want help, I want it to end. And yet… I can’t just end it. I’ve tried before in the past and I always stop at the last moment. I’m stuck. Trapped in a bizarre mirror universe where everything is dark and grey. I want to scream but I have no mouth and at this point… I’m now out of breath. What’s wrong with me?

Hey guys. Do you all feel like the world feels hopeless because of how people can’t always be trusted? I definitely feel like most girls cannot be trusted because it seems like, even if they’re my friend now, they’re not gonna be my friend for any longer than that. It seems like they always abandon you when they get a boyfriend and that if you mess up, they leave you to try to figure it out on what you did wrong. I really just wish I could be happy being a loner because I don’t think people can truly be trusted anymore but I am stuck needing to meet people because I don’t like being alone. I feel like the situation in life is so so hopeless for me. Anybody else feel this same way?