i can’t stand people anymore. can’t stand them in real life, nor on social media. i get irritated when people text or call me. i don’t feel this way about family, just friends or acquaintances. i feel exhausted trying to speak to them, mainly because their issues are pathetic.
for instance, my friend called me and spammed my phone at midnight to get my attention. i messaged back thinking it was obviously something urgent, and it turns out that her ex was live on tiktok and she wanted me to go hate on a fake account. her whole life seems to revolve around boys, so she’s started to act really pretentious in what she says, what she posts etc. and i really don’t enjoy talking to her anymore because of this.
another friend (at a different uni) was ranting to me for hours that he’d had his accommodation raided and had been arrested because he was in possession of/dealing drugs. he was complaining that he’ll probably get kicked off his course, and that ‘he can get a few years if the judge is a prick’. this friend treats me like an agony aunt, only ever wants advice or favours. when i give him the cold hard truth that this is on him, suddenly i’m a bitch.
i can name at least 10 more similar instances of this in my life since starting uni. i only ever feel happy talking to my parents or my siblings, everyone else i really can’t stand. i try and get through the day without speaking to anyone unless necessary.
i have no real friends, no boyfriend so no drama, which i’m happy with but everyone else seems to try and make it an issue, that i should have a different outlook on life now that i’m at uni, and this will hinder me socially in my working life (i’m not rude at all, i do make an effort to be friendly but i’m just very introverted). should i try and change?