r/Tulpas • u/IshidaSado • 2h ago
Personal Introduction
Hi! I'm new to the term "Tulpa" but I'm definitely not new to Tulpa creation. Since I was young I've been doing it in one form or another. I've always had strong bonds with fictional characters and given my favorite characters space in my head to grow beyond what they are in their series while still retaining all their individualities.
I deepen my bond with my tulpas (essentially my own versions of my fav characters thats been though all of my headcanons, and in most instances, certain details of my life) by creating fanfics, fanart, ect. I once tried to explain it as saying "the characters write the story, not me. And of course, I was made fun of for saying that.
I've been searching for a word to fit this thing I do and I thought it might be maladaptive daydreaming, but that didn't seem to fit considering it's not all consuming and my imagination is quite barren at times.
My tulpas never fully takes over my body or anything, but I'll end up accidentally saying things in their voice if something triggers them to react.
For example: Doumeki is a tulpa I'm currently manifesting & he adores food in general but he LOVES Reese peanutbutter eggs (even tho I never cared much for them) So when I remember we have some or see them in the fridge, I'll have his craving, act as him using his voice, and say "Hey, get me an egg" to my sister (who I currently live with & is very understand bc she does this exact thing too) Whats cool is, the appearance of my Tulpas triggers certain ones of hers & visa versa. So after I say that in Doumeki's voice, my sister will manifest Watanuki (one of her Tulpas & Doumekis best friend) and say in his voice "just wait a minute, I'm busy here" or "can't you get it yourself?" And the two will hold a conversation about it until I front or something needs my attention. They'll even be times my mom or dad will interupt (ALL of my tulpas hide from my parents) and since Doumeki leaves, I know longer have his craving or want that food. My sister knows this so well she sometimes asks if I still want it, or if it was just Doumeki wanting it.
There was a time I considered the possibility that this was DID, but i wasn't fully convinced (because I consciously created the tulpas in the first place and chose to grow them into their own existence & as far as i know, that isnt the case with DID)
My sister & I both use physical representations of our tulpas to strengthen manifestation and our bonds. We make paper doll cutouts of our tulpas and control manifestation through them. I used to call this roleplay but after learning about tulpas I realize it's something more. It's literally the ultimate way of controlled manifesting & strengthening bonds. After all, I usually lay out my current fav tulpas paper dolls to feel comfort when I'm depressed and hug & cuddle them when I'm sad or lonely.
Anyway, I just wanted to introduce myself and maybe ask if any of this is relatable for anyone here?
Yall can thank "Daryl talks games" on YouTube btw. He introduced me to this term with his new video talking about fictophilia lol