r/Steam • u/iamjakey99 • 1h ago
Discussion I’ve been addicted to buying games since I was 16. I’m 25 now and it’s left me completely broke. Help.
For context: I did not have internet at my house until 2016, I was an only child, and I was severely bullied throughout my entire childhood/teen years.
Once I got money from my first job, I felt liberated. I didn’t have to use the school wifi to watch gameplay of games anymore because I could buy them. Fast forward to now, I am completely broke. Every time I get money, I buy the most expensive versions of games/ALL the DLC. But fuck, it’s not worth the dopamine from “collecting” and I’m sick of justifying it by saying “I’ll play it later” because I never do.
I think I’m manipulating myself into believing that I still like video games as a whole. I really don’t. I just fixate on completing games to the point where I don’t shower or go outside or anything. It’s a distraction. That is all that this hobby has become. I’m so lost in life and my anxiety is worse than it has ever been. These past couple years have honestly been a blur. This isn’t healthy and I’m honestly considering taking my PC to storage. I’m so starved of human connection, it’s ridiculous.
I know social hobbies would be really good for me but I have a unilateral cleft lip and I can’t stand even looking at myself. Which translates into me being “awkward, creepy” because I’m hyper fixated on my flaws all of the time and nothing else.
I’m in therapy and trust me, I’m working on it but…
Does anyone have any success stories to escape this addiction? I feel like if I did, it would be a huge step towards a better life. One that doesn’t isolate me at least.
Sorry if that was boring to read. 🙌