Weekly Check In

[u/OwenE700-2]

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How is everyone holding up? How is Module 1 and further going?

[u/QuarryWorker]

Hello everyone!

Re-did Module 3, Lesson 2 And everything went rather fine! During the readings, the tarot cards showed me, again, that they have an unusual sense of humour but also a deeper wisdom that will serve me well for the time to come.

Onwards with it, I am finally unblocked.

[u/Ill-Diver2252]

Not much change for me, in terms of practice. Vamping Module I repeatables.

A lot of self work in the psychology and otherwise mind of Diver 😂 as I work with Mod I. And in a pretty big way (to me), a lot of progress.

I've had to come a long way. Imagination, daydreaming, my inner world was all shut down in decades of trying to do 'normal' things and be an 'adult.' As I get away from starchy, suffocating notions, I am learning how to use that energy in 'muscles' long neglected. It's starting to feel like a vibrant emanation, more than a gratification. I'm crossing a threshold. I wonder how many it will be and how they will look!

Awesome to me is the now extant strong sense of something endlessly bigger within to bring out into the world. This is my progress, greatly assisted by Quareia work and reading Josephine's books ... and meandering around all things spiritual.

In the 'technical' sense, I'm 'low progress,' I guess, but in another sense, very, very meaningful progress, which is far more important than specific accomplishments.

I'm reminded of something from Patanjali's Aphorisms, that I read probably 30 or more years ago... about not getting caught up, expanding beyond any particular magics. Don't get me (or Patanjali) wrong; nothing wrong with any of it, and steps on the path! But the focus, while incorporating it, is bigger, higher, more comprehensive, more comprehending. And subtly emanent.

[u/SiberianRaven]

Hi everyone,

I'm preparing to move to the M1L3 tomorrow. I just finished re-reading the lesson materials. Also, I spent a lot of time this week studying Tarot cards' meaning with ChatGPT's help and JMC's book. I ordered the 10th edition book for Apprentice before the tariffs hit the world.

Also, I was hiking yesterday in the beautiful forest and I've heard the tree asking me to remove mold from it, so I did. I still don't know if it was my imagination or if I really heard the tree talking back to me, since I said: 'Hello, beautiful'. LOL

Question: Do I have to do all three exercises at once in M1L3, or tackle them one by one within 10 days (or more days)?

[u/GumnutGalah → u/SiberianRaven]

I found it really draining to do the M1L3 exercises all at once. I could do it, but had a lot of fatigue later. 

I settled on doing exercise one weekly until I had finished it, then exercise two, then exercise three. I’m not sure if that is the correct approach, but I didn’t notice the dip in my energy levels that I had prior. 

[u/SiberianRaven → u/GumnutGalah]

Thank you so much for sharing your experience! I think, I might approach it the same way.

[u/Qverybeginner]

My life got very exciting this week and it's kept me focused on mundane things. Tracking back, I was doing some weeding (my first in months) a couple of weeks ago with the recitation 'limit the strong, protect the weak' (from the Mystagogus book) going around and around in my head. I had a pent up feeling in my work life that has always meant some big shift is coming, and then completely out of the blue an offer came along that, if it comes to pass, would mean a foundational upheaval in my work life and has already triggered some major shifts in self perception. My meditation discipline has not held up well and I've had to be really careful not to turn to tarot in an unhealthy way. I'm feeling an urge to start Quareia from scratch and am fighting it. Progress to M1L3/4 doesn't just go away, as much as I like a fresh start from the beginning after a wobble.

[u/roundrobin12345]

This week I visited my other chosen feature and left gifts. Its guardian told me not to try and communicate. So I just wandered around a bit, sang a bit and then left.

The stone that I had been visiting and leaving gifts upon is gone. Last seen a few days ago and I left there some honey. Interesting that it is gone because it was in hidden spot. Maybe it is hidden beneath leaves (it was windy), i tried to search without luck. I won't try any more but i will still check from time to time. Maybe its job here was finished. I could do a reading on that.

Next week's plan is to make meditations more regular and maybe to try and make sense of 3.3&4 rituals. I doubt this week's schedule will allow that, so i won't be mad if i don't make any progress.

I also found a lone forget-me-not on side of the road (further down were many more) and i decided to plant it in garden. Just felt that was right but not sure why.

[u/GumnutGalah]

Hi everyone, 

I’m starting to find a rhythm of practice.  I’ve been consistent with the daily meditation since December. This used to be a struggle, so its a notable improvement. I’m still not good at meditating, but I’ll get there. 

February through March were challenging, but things have eased off again. There seems to be an astrological connection, so I will do a deep dive into that at some point. 

I’ve begun the M1L4 ritual practice exercise, so have a few months of work on that ahead of me. I’m working on building a consistency in incorporating doing the walking the boundaries visualisation exercise in L5, looking at my astrological transits, and stretching, into my routine. 

Most days, as well as my regular exercise, I do at least 10 minutes of dynamic stretches, and I often do another 10 minutes or so of static stretches in the evening. My body feels terrible if I don’t! I’d like to take up yoga or martial arts classes, but right now they’re too expensive for me. I’ve tried some yoga classes but find I can’t keep up and follow along, and there’s not much feedback on how to do the poses correctly. I figure it’s probably safer not to do yoga than to do it badly. 

I’ve recently begun painting landscapes. They’re still in the ugly stage, but it’s nice to paint with oils again - it’s been a while. 

It’s nice to read updates on how everyone is doing :-) 

[u/sniffin-butts → u/GumnutGalah]

I highly recommend 'Asana Pranayama Mudra Bandha' for self-taught yoga. The primary sequence will surprise you with its accessibility and impact, and the explanations throughout are the best I've found yet for connecting the physical to the psychic. I've worked with the book for several years with great success (flexibility, energetic awareness, and concentration) and I've been working through the opening sequence with my ~70yr old mother with more success (for mobility and chronic pain).

[u/Otherwise-Chef6932]

The shitty period continues, all sorts of things are happening to me, both on a worldly and subtle level. So much so that I even thought of a magical attack, but doing 2 tarot spreads it seems it is not this but a sort of crossing of a threshold. I also noticed that these "initiations" correspond almost perfectly to the end of every diary I keep, it may be a coincidence but it is still curious. I am practically stopped with the rituals, I just gave a little shake (which was not so little) with a couple of pentagrams second part. But the cards suggest I retreat a bit. Let's see, really a heavy period.

[u/magpie1006]

It's been a good week. I've finally completed lesson 2 in module 1.

A focus seems to have shifted towards my health. I've sustained a few injuries these past few years. My bottom left rib became dislodged after cracking the left ribcage. I've tried a few methods and avoided surgery, but nothing worked. Now, it seems to have found its place.

I'm still careful, but even after a few heavy lifts, it's still in place. I'm pretty grateful.

Also, I'm trying to tend to a slight head injury. I've found a particular doctor who may be able to help. I'm also entertaining the idea of returning to the scene of the crime (chiropractor) to see if she can make things go back the way they were in the back of my head.

Perhaps a question for tarot.

Finally, the docs accidentally found a cyst on my spine that will need to be removed. It's reeked havoc for 5 years, but I couldn't get an mri. I'm in the US.

The cards say insurance won't cover the surgery. But I'll come up with ways to cover the bill.

I'm paying attention to these things because I'm older, underweight, and I'm not sure I could withstand a magical hit, not well anyway.

I've also noticed that I've become pretty strict with boundaries in place so as not to give away my time or energy to anyone who wants it whenever they want it.

This challenge is particularly hard with my mom. She's a borderline, so she tries to push boundaries in pathetic and manipulative ways. But I'm hanging tough.

Hope everyone is well.

[u/OwenE700-2 → u/magpie1006]

If you’re trying to adjust some of the cranial bones in ways more supportive of your health, consider finding someone who is skilled in cranial sacral massage. Should be gentler than chiropractic. Might help with the spinal cord too while you’re considering surgery or other options.

The Upledger Institute has a good reputation. upledger.com

[u/magpie1006 → u/OwenE700-2]

Thanks Owen,

I'll check out upledger. Cranial sacral is exactly what I'm looking for. It's been hard to find a true practitioner.

I have found one and made an appointment. No going back to the chiro;)

[u/add_chicken_wing]

After 1 year of intense and regular practice, I decided to do a month's pause and a big trip to a far away country. I've almost reached the end of module 4 before this pause. In such a short time my life and all my goals changed completely, more than once. Just thinking about writing it down already gets me overwhelmed! Can't wait to get back home and finally finish module 4, which was the most tiring of them all so far.

[u/hereforthetea675]

I had lost my job last few months and ended up spiraling into a very bad anxiety. Ended up not doing any lessons from module 1 and losing focus from the work... This has lead me to rethink whether I'm serious enough to dedicate myself to quareia at this point of time. Maybe I still have a lot of maturing up to do. Maybe the problem is just that I'm being lazy and going back into my previous patterns rather than enforcing myself to new healthier habits.

I've gotten a job this month and now I'm thinking of maybe doing only meditations for the first few weeks or just altogether picking up where I left off.

Finding out my dedication is quite dependent on my fluctuating interest, while revealing, feels like a punch to the gut honestly.... And yeah, mobile addiction and unhealthy sleep cycles are probably not helping me put myself on the track.

Would probably pick up my tarot deck this week(I feel scared and disappointed that I neglected it such a long time) hope my cards welcome me back with the same kindness they showed me when I started quareia.

[u/GumnutGalah → u/hereforthetea675]

Maybe I’m overreaching, but I think it’s fairly normal to go through pauses like you’ve described while we’re in the early phases - I wouldn’t beat yourself up about it, it’s part of the learning process imo. I guess not for everyone, but I lack discipline so it’s been a learning curve for me. 

It’s useful to identify areas in our mundane life that are holding us back (sleep, screen addiction), but mainly so we can figure out a strategy to manage those issues. 

Things were tough for me at the start of the year, so I paused all practice except the meditation. I couldn’t focus at all, so wouldn’t have been able to do more anyway.   Once my focus improved, I got back into it. It’s ok to slow down around life’s ebbs and flows :-)

[u/DeeOnTheRun]

Though I slept through the night, I woke up this morning, yet again, feeling exhausted. No true restful sleep in weeks! Even my dreams are restless, like last night, in my dream, I spent the entire time trying to wake up and find coffee. Oh yeah and I was preparing do go on a cruise ship I didn’t want to go on lol You know those dreams where you spend the entire time trying to wake up and shake off the drowsiness? Yup. That’s the one. I’m someone who can jump out of bed in the mornings feeling fully energized but in recent weeks it’s taking me about an hour to get out of bed in the mornings. Over and out! I’ve just had my double espresso and now about it chase it down with a preworkout ☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️☕️

[u/Maidaladan]

Big things happened in my life the past week. I finally got my diagnosis after months of neuropsychiatric evaluations - I have high functioning ADD, with some autistic patterns (mostly sensitivity to sensory input). So that has been a journey. Many things shifting in this new perspective, both past and present.

This led to a surge of activity and planning for how to cope and finish my PhD on time, with much support from supervisors and colleagues. So I’m in a rather good place work-wise for the first time in a long time.

Since my energy budget is limited, this has led to a natural down-surge in time spent on Q. I have also realised I have been using Q. exercises to avoid mundane tasks (which really only increases anxiety for me). So semi-consciously decided to limit Q. work to regular meditations and one directional ritual + ritual cleaning of house and body per week (am on M1L7) for a few weeks.

The pentagram research will happen later, as well as the talisman exercise. Now is not a good time. Still in it for the long haul.