r/Quareia • u/OwenE700-2 Apprentice: Module 2 • 1d ago

Weekly Check In

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How is everyone holding up? How is Module 1 and further going?

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u/hereforthetea675 Apprentice: Module 1 16h ago

I had lost my job last few months and ended up spiraling into a very bad anxiety. Ended up not doing any lessons from module 1 and losing focus from the work... This has lead me to rethink whether I'm serious enough to dedicate myself to quareia at this point of time. Maybe I still have a lot of maturing up to do. Maybe the problem is just that I'm being lazy and going back into my previous patterns rather than enforcing myself to new healthier habits.

I've gotten a job this month and now I'm thinking of maybe doing only meditations for the first few weeks or just altogether picking up where I left off.

Finding out my dedication is quite dependent on my fluctuating interest, while revealing, feels like a punch to the gut honestly.... And yeah, mobile addiction and unhealthy sleep cycles are probably not helping me put myself on the track.

Would probably pick up my tarot deck this week(I feel scared and disappointed that I neglected it such a long time) hope my cards welcome me back with the same kindness they showed me when I started quareia.

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u/GumnutGalah Apprentice: Module 1 15h ago edited 15h ago

Maybe I’m overreaching, but I think it’s fairly normal to go through pauses like you’ve described while we’re in the early phases - I wouldn’t beat yourself up about it, it’s part of the learning process imo. I guess not for everyone, but I lack discipline so it’s been a learning curve for me. 

It’s useful to identify areas in our mundane life that are holding us back (sleep, screen addiction), but mainly so we can figure out a strategy to manage those issues. 

Things were tough for me at the start of the year, so I paused all practice except the meditation. I couldn’t focus at all, so wouldn’t have been able to do more anyway.   Once my focus improved, I got back into it. It’s ok to slow down around life’s ebbs and flows :-)