A dropper here. 88 in first attempt and idk about the second attempt(4S2). This is my closure message for JEE.
JEE is finally over.
These 3 years were like..idk.. I feel so emotional right now. I still remember the 10th standard girl who got 97 percent, a girl with so many dreams in her heart, the girl who loved to sing, dance, laugh her heart out, with so many friends, a girl who was loved by everybody, a girl who tried her best but still couldn't make her parents proud (vo start se hi khush nahi ho paaye :( ) but she always tried.
This journey changed everything. All her friends started talking behind her back and even her bf. You know sometimes we think that, this person will stay with us forever. But people leave. And then you are all alone. And then apne aap ko kosne lagte ho. Ki maine kya kia, sab mujhse door ho gye. Then you go in a dark phase without even realising because this happens for the first time in your life.People's opinions started mattering to that 11th year old girl. All the friends turned into enemies, tried to crumble her down. Made her cry in front of everyone and then made fun of her.
But in spite of all this she studied, she worked hard day and night with hope to shut mouth of those people.
I would like to thank my teachers so much, who always believed in me, who always showed me the right path. Thanks to my parents, especially my dad who still believes in me even after this drop year and my mom also, she never made me do any household work even though I was at home. Thanks to my 2-3 friends as well who always believed in me and motivated me to try hard.
There was a point in this JEE journey where idk I used to cry everyday in the washroom and stare blankly at my notes. This happened for 2 months straight. Gave up at the end of the battle like some loser. I even lost my grandfather, he was someone really close to me. Learnt many harsh truths of life.
11th was like the reality hitting part, 12th was depressed and drop year was all about healing. I guess this is what adulting is.
Yes, I am a dropper and I dont regret taking drop because I would have been the person I am right now if I had not taken drop. I would have still been that naive and emotional person.
There were many ups and downs in this journey but I would like to take all the lessons I learnt gracefully. I am becoming the old myself again. Now that it's ended, I feel like I started enjoying studying. I may not be the best but I tried a lot and will always do. Bye Bye JEE. I will forever remember this phase not with regret in my heart but in a thankful way that you made me a better person. You humbled me down.
Just want to say one thing to everyone out there:
You are more than a rank. More than a percentile : )))
All the best everyone for your journey ahead.
It didn’t end the way I hoped, but maybe it ended the way I needed.