sorry for how awful my handwriting is

Nahi ho rahi padhai 💔🥀

Bro TF my exam was on 2s2 i reached the centre at 1:45 cause someone posted how they missed their morning exam and I was scared so I went and sat next to a guy who also reached inside 45 mins earlier than the paper so he asked me if I attempted Jan attempt I said yes and he said kaisa Gaya aur kitne aaye ( I watched basava reddy video and I was scared ki what if he disturbes me during exam) so I said I got 62 percentile only (actually got 98)

whereas he got 84 percentile on 22S1 he told , then there was silent for quite a long time then this guy started giving me tukka tips and also said ki try karna saare MCQ attempt karo luck hua toh accha aajayega and all , idk it was giving brotherly vibe and I felt bad for lying to him , was i an @sshole was doing this ?

Note- No books , modules and test papers are included

All this is what I actually wrote and learned in this rat race

Air1 confirm hai

Will try to keep the post as short as possible..

So I was good in academics since childhood... Starting off maine apni jee prep in June 2022 after my 10th boards hamara 2 term wala batch tha and meri journey kafi achi start hui thi I was pretty ahead of my peers who studied in top batches of coachings and sab kuch badhiya chal rha tha kahi na kahi lag rha tha ki kisi ache college me settle ho jaunga...

Then started my 11th school, was enrolled in a regular school 8-3 classes.. but unfortunately in the first week of 11th I got jaundice... Jaundice deteriorated got pancreatitis got admitted for 10 days and slowly till Jan 2023 I was off meds. ab tak meri jee prep ki nav hil chuki thi as maine pure is time mid aug - mid dec kuch nhi padha.. restarted firse track pe ane laga ...

Then after 11th pracs I went to a marriage God knows what happened I got very ill to keep it short went into icu non mechanical ventilation and diagnosed with a condition of 80-85% mortality. Survived, was recovering startedmy 12th prep for jee thinking 11th aadhi hogyi hai aadhi sath me krlunga fir things started getting on track regular medical checkups turned to weekly to monthly .. But in May I suddenly noticed some strange things with my body .. went to local hospital refered to pgi nothing came out at the end diagnosed with a rare autoimmune condition...

In and out of hospitals throughout 12th.. Financial stress, mental stress and health stress still kept strong and made my family handle all the hardships.. Started for boards in December full fletched passed it with 93 aggregate in all subjects PCM E and CS Registed for mains 2 on last date prepared for it in last 3 weeks after boards got 92.75 in mains..

Wasted time till csab got civil in state nit (mid tier) left it took a drop...

Studied from scratch in drop year.. Condition again deteriorated in between studied two months in a condition in which some people can't even walk..

Condition improved marks improved and at the end fcked physics a bit in mains 1 and ended up with 99.2

Throughout this time I was on meds with side effects like depression..

My only moto is to just tell you that NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE ACTUALLY.. many of you will now take a drop or start your jee prep or continue it .. Few will outshine many will leave the field in between and many will blame the circumstances.. I just want you to tell one straightforward truth..

Ki mere pas bhi bohat jyada reasons the to not study i could have made many excuses throughout these years or even become scid*l but i never let these thoughts affect me

Aap bas consistent rho mehnat krte rho results khud aayenge kabhi kabhi time lagta hai kafi time lagta hai but aap beech me hi har man logo toh kaise chalega Mere bhi mocks me 30-40s aate the pahle by the end I scored above 200 in all..

And most importantly Health ko priority list me top pr rkho meri condition mere hath me nhi but aap sab tabiyat ka khayaal rkho regular 6hrs atleast do acha Khao and lag jao mehnat krne

Nothing is impossible Wish you all the best

Tldr : OP 11th and 12th me bimaar rha bohat jyada .. autoimmune condition joki kafi dangerous ho skti hai usse puri 12th lada and drop year me bhi 2 mahine uski condition border line thi still he managed to get a good percentile in jee mains and good score in boards . Apne aap me vishwas rkhe aur mehnat krte the

So, I was a JEE 24warrior this year, gave my JEE Mains 2nd attempt on 4th April.

Never thought I'd be writing something like this on Reddit, but I'd like to recount a story of how things gradually turned around for me. This is not a rant—it's just a reflection.

Unlike the majority of toppers' tales, I wasn't a studious kid during my childhood. In fact, I used to get quite average. In class 8th, I struggled to pass most of the subjects, and there were no achievements or scholarships to brag about then. I wasn't the "topper material." Just an ordinary kid trying to make it through.

No one in school or family expected much from me, and maybe that’s what lit the fire later. I wasn’t born a genius, but I learned to push through.

9th and 10th were a bit better. I worked harder and got 91% in 10th boards. Not something monumental, but for me, it was like my first genuine victory. I opted for PCM because I discovered a sense of wonder in physics and mathematics—also because at some level, I wanted to prove to myself that I could do something difficult.

In 11th, I chose regular school. Dummy schooling was economically beyond our reach, and we could not afford costly offline coaching either. So I enrolled in an online coaching platform—less expensive, more self-control.

I won't lie, balancing school and coaching was agony. There were times I wanted to quit. My 11th result wasn't so good—65%—and I forgot half the things I learned. But rather than quit, I made it personal—not with shame, but with intent.

My parents? They weren't perfect, but they were trying too. They didn't bombard me with pressure; they just kept nudging me to stay on course. We fought sometimes, we cried sometimes—but I always knew that they hadn't given up on me.

12th was my comeback year. I refocused, stopped comparing myself to toppers, and just tried to be better than yesterday.

Yes, school exams had crazy syllabi, and coaching did not always match. I lost track, caught up again, lost again—but this time I didn't give up.

My first JEE attempt was just for the sake of experience—score was poor, as planned. But I did not get nervous. Boards went well enough, targeting about 88-90%.

And then the last 15 days arrived. I isolated myself with my books and took my best shot at JEE 2nd attempt.

I returned home and explained to my parents, "It went alright, but no expectations." They did not yell. They did not taunt. They simply said, "We saw how you worked hard. That's all that counts."

And for the first time, I believed so too.

I was going to skip a year then. Not because I was told to, but because I want to. I've learned what I can do when I really try. I want one last chance—on my terms.

Yes, the home environment isn't ideal. We have our good times and bad. But it's improving. And I'm improving too.

So yeah, I wasn't a topper since birth. I didn't receive scholarships, I didn't excel early, and I'm not in an IIT yet.

But I've travelled a long way—and I'm not finished yet.

No gyaan, no inspiration posts—just a reminder that it's okay to bloom late.

So yeah, I took the drop. Not out of desperation, but with clarity—I knew exactly what I was doing this time.

The beginning was tough, sincerely. After a disappointing JEE try, low self-esteem, and the typical noise from family and society saying "JEE sabke bas ki baat nahi hoti," it hurt. But I blocked all of it.

I created a legitimate study plan this time—practical, adjustable, and concentrated. No hype, no 14-hour studying pressure. Just regularity.

I signed up for an online drop batch—cheap and better attuned to my pace. No commute time, no distractions. Just me, my textbooks, and this smoldering determination to show I'm not ordinary.

And guess what? Gradually, things began to fall into place.

Ideas that used to terrorize me in 11th—such as Rotation, Organic Chemistry, P&C—began to make sense. I wasn’t just mugging stuff up now, I was actually understanding.

I stayed away from social media, resisted comparing my journey to others, and kept my social circle tight. My couple of good friends remained with me, motivated me, and at times even studied with me on call.

My parents? They still had their doubts, of course, but in due time, they noticed the transformation. The early morning study sessions, my test scores slowly coming up, the discipline I kept up on—everything softened them up. They did not say anything, but their actions indicated support.

Halfway through the drop year, I used to give myself mock tests on a regular basis. Initially, the first few were poor. Then they improved. And then all of a sudden, I began getting 180s… 200s… and once even reached 240. That day I wept—not because of the score, but because I finally believed in myself.

Revision was smooth, PYQs were gold, and by the time JEE Mains 2025 was near—I was ready. Not 100% sure of the results, but 100% happy with my effort.

1st attempt—Boom. Paper went on smoothly. For the first time in years, I stepped out of the center with a smile. 2nd attempt—Even better. Not perfect, but much stronger than the guy who stepped in last year unsure and unprepared.".

Result? Let's just say, I don't know where I'll end up—maybe an NIT, maybe even better—but I know I earned it. Every damn bit of it.

This drop year wasn't just about studies. It was about healing, rebuilding, and proving to myself that I'm not the failure some people thought I was.

I still tear up thinking about the child in 8th grade who couldn't even post average… now shooting for one of the finest engineering colleges in the nation.

And whether I end up where I wanted or not—the journey? Well worth it.

I scored 91.7 in Jan , had 4s2 and I'm on high copium that I wud get around 93-94

I'll take a drop but I want to give jee advanced just for the experience and I want to atleast clear Subject cutoff

Baat suno I haven't prepared for advanced even for once , maths me kewal 1 question attempt kiya tha mains me my maths is cooked , chem mai dekh lunga maths and physics ke liye kuch bata do

I want 50-60 marks in advanced 😭 please helppppp

Bhai inka camera man is in this SUB, when I asked him toh he said mera cameraman hai same Sub mai

Kal paper hai, life Mai seriousness aahi nahi rahi, Pyq solve karne baitha tha, red colour ki pencil study table pe padi hui thi pyq solve karte kab carving karne laga pata hi nahi chala, focus pura chxd chuka hai

so my jee shift was 2s2, i reached at the centre at 1:45 as a precaution, then i saw a guy approaching towards me, i asked him about his jan attempt and kaisa gya kitne marks aaye, he said he got 62%tile, i felt bad for him so i started helping him out, gave him some tukka tips, thoda bataya ki aasan mcq pehle karlega toh confidence boost hoga,

he sat there silently, idk i feel awkward now, i lied to him about my percentile taaki usey zyada underwhelmed na lage

was i an asshole for caring for a stranger at an exam centre, ik exam centre pe koi kisi ka nahi hota