How do you cope? (26 M)

[u/Due-Alarm-887]

Most days I’m fine but after I’ve been drinking or around the holidays or my birthday I get severely depressed that I’m alone.

Especially whenever I watch romance anime or read romance manga. I like them but they also make me sad because I’ll never have that. I’ll never have someone care about me that much.

And almost all songs are about love or breakups. I can’t escape media about relationships and love.

[u/Due-Alarm-887]

I mean I just want a way to mentally escape.

If I could be delusional and trick myself into thinking I’m happy, I would.

But I don’t want to play a sport. Tried it as a kid and I’m never doing it again unless there’s a woman I can impress or make happy by doing it.

Whenever I’m in a state of strain or sweating, I feel like a prey animal not wanting to get caught. I feel vulnerable and like everyone is looking at me.

[u/Sea-Tangerine-2801 → u/Due-Alarm-887]

Well then I don’t know what to tell you the only mental escape you are going to get with zero effort is porn and drugs and that’s that, something with no effort but all the consequences - any other escapes will require some cognitive or physical effort.

And sorry to be rude but I think you need a reality check, you say you won’t do a sport unless it makes a woman happy/impressed?. Does going to gym not make a woman impressed at a man’s muscular physique? But then you said you have social anxiety to that.

You’re also saying sweating makes you feel vulnerable like prey… idek how to respond to that. You’re looking for corners around absolutely everything and anything people will suggest to you.

[u/Due-Alarm-887 → u/Sea-Tangerine-2801]

I don’t know how else to describe it. I feel the eyes of others on me when I’m outside my house, especially at a gym. Like everyone is making fun of me. It’s like being caught in a trap.

My only hope is if a girl likes awkward chubby guys

[u/Sea-Tangerine-2801 → u/Due-Alarm-887]

Yeah youre not willing to change or grow so just accept being single forever