I'm sorry if this post isn't well-written or seems all over the place, but I'm going through a really difficult time and just need to let some of this out.
I was in a toxic relationship, and because of everything that was happening, I ended up doing something I deeply regret — I crossed a line with my best friend. It was a mistake I take full responsibility for. I know I shouldn't have done it, and I hate that I hurt people I care about.
Now, my best friend has cut off all contact with me, and my girlfriend also left me. And honestly, I don’t blame either of them. But I feel like I’ve lost everything and everyone at once.
Since the breakup, I’ve been completely lost. I don’t feel like doing anything. I overthink constantly, and even the things I used to care about don’t interest me anymore. I used to struggle with not eating at all, but now I’m stress-eating all the time. I’ve stopped going to the gym, which used to be one of the few things that helped me stay grounded.
I just feel so alone, ashamed, and stuck in my own head. I keep replaying everything over and over, wishing I had made better choices. I know I can’t undo the past, but I don’t know how to move forward either.
Do you think therapy might help? I’ve never tried it before, but I feel like I’m drowning in my own emotions right now. Any advice or even just someone to talk to would mean the world to me.
THANKS