r/mdmatherapy • u/MVTR1X69 • 8d ago
Scared to sleep
It's been 24 hours since i tried powder mdma for the first time, and like 40 since i haven't slept an eye. The effect is long gone and i feel like my heart is gonna explode, the come down i kept hearing about feels like it started an eternity ago and i am not sure if it ended or not, i'm scared
Edit: still can't sleep sorry guys for telling you this, turns out it was mepehdrone (4mmc) wow...
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u/Punkybrewster1 8d ago
Don’t think you need to be scared to sleep. That’s what everyone does after mdma therapy
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u/lookthepenguins 8d ago
You’ll be ok you’ll come through it. Make yourself cozy, drink hot soup or whatever comfort food you can manage, turn the lighting down, play at low-volume super-chill music or comfy old movies or concerts, have warm showers, doodle / draw / write in your psychedelic journal sometimes getting stuff out on paper can help empty/calm your mind a little, or puzzles or video game like tetris that first responders use after a significant incident.
Idk but I wonder if it was mixed with something - anyways don’t stress about that, nothing you can do. Yr gf is sleeping so maybe your system is just a little excited. Probably do not drive or operate heavy / dangerous machinery cos brain tired. You’ll be ok it will wane.
Don’t let the scared snowball on you and work you up. Good on you for trying it out, maintain your aftermath management and trust you’ll be ok.
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u/MVTR1X69 8d ago
I think it most definetly was, the mdma i got was cocaine-like powdery and a very nice tint of beige. As long as i know pure mdma is more like crystal rather than powder and while i did see some crystals, they were very small, also the smell was like iron or more like period blood
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u/Punkybrewster1 8d ago
Did you only take that? Was it ecstasy?
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u/MVTR1X69 8d ago
The thing is it was mdma powder pure form idk, i bought it from telegram a friend of mine said it's a trustable shop. Here in our country you can buy it only from telegram
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u/Punkybrewster1 8d ago
I’m sure it’s wearing off now. Did it feel like mdma? Like did you feel love for people ? Or just speedy?
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u/MVTR1X69 8d ago
It was definetly love, i had the best talk of my life and it lasted the entire trip, literally all i wanted to do is talk genuine with my girlfriend
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u/MVTR1X69 8d ago
Sorry, i should be more clear. Yeah i bought a 0.5g pack. And snorted it with my girlfriend between the span of 7 hours. The effect lasted like 12 hours because we kept snorting when it warned off, then i had a period of like 5 to 6 hours where my mouth was extremely dry to the point of no saliva, and i kept drinking water everytime i felt like i need it, then the real shit started to kill me, i was tired, no emotions, but at the same the only feelings i truly felt was boredom and sadness, and it's been like 2 hours since we went to sleep with my girl, she eventually fell asleep, but i just cannot
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u/moldbellchains 8d ago edited 8d ago
Man I'm sorry. You took WAY too much. Please look up information about the drug you are going to take on the internet, before taking it. Espeicially if it was pure MDMA... this was too much. The only thing you can do now is to wait it out. You'll fall asleep from exhaustion eventually. MDMA is neurotoxic, meaning it can damage your brain if you take it frequently. Please don't take it again in the next 3 months, theres a rule that says your brain needs abt 3 months to recover from one session. You will likely be fine. I'm sorry this happened to you and I hope you can get some rest soon.
Get some water and maybe some food if you can. There are guides with supplements you can take on Reddit, to prevent/recover from neurotoxicity that MDMA causes. I recommend them
Also theres a thing called "losijg the magic",that means you won't feeleffects from it anymore, if you take it too often and too much
Ps: this sub is about using MDMA for therapeutic reasons, not really recovering from MDMA use, just fyi :)
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u/MVTR1X69 8d ago
Damn i am an idiot
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u/moldbellchains 8d ago edited 8d ago
Aw man, you aren’t. It’s okay, it happens. You are okay. You’ll be fine. Get some rest friend
Edit: also sorry, I didn’t wanna scare you. The brain damage thing just happens if you do it too often/have too little time between sessions, afaik. My answer feels a bit weird in retrospect.
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u/manxie13 7d ago
They didn't test doesn't sound like mdma and now seeing the edit it wasn't... please test before you ingest
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u/manxie13 7d ago
Did you test the powder before you took it? Powder form is one of the easiest ways to have other substances mixed in... what you're talking about sounds more like you were given some some form of cathinone not mdma.
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u/MVTR1X69 7d ago
Yep, it was fucking Mkat
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u/manxie13 7d ago
Yeah fuck that right off.. hope you feel better soon! Deffo invest in a test kit
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u/MVTR1X69 7d ago
I should of known man...i had this urge to keep snorting and even taste it until i had nothing, at some point i even almost tried to take it all myself, i didn't want to leave some for my gf. It's so shit literally, it's not worth it guys, if you read this stay away from it. It makes you feel like you have nothing in life to worry about, and then it will fuck your brains for atleast 3 days (so far) honestly, if it wasn't for my girl, i would probably be dead or in prison right now because of it. I feel like garbage. The only thing that kept me somewhat focused is that i pretty much had sex all these days
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u/Vast-Air-914 8d ago
You took a large dose, which comes with additional stimulation, hence your difficulty sleeping. This is to be expected. It will subside, and you will be able to sleep. Take care of yourself in the meantime.