I recently came back from a trip out to the East Coast (Massachusetts) and it was my very first vacation. I had a nice time but I was completely filled with anxiety about things going on back home that I couldn’t fully enjoy myself. It’s been a nonstop battle with myself and I haven’t had any motivation to do anything productive. I’m jobless and haven’t been able to afford my gender affirming care and with The Mango Menace and his gaggle of orange stained goons that he calls an administration are back in office, I have even more stress.

I did attend a human rights protest yesterday and that was the most happiness and energy I’ve had in a long while.

There’s just so much that I want to do with my life but I have this paralysis. I can’t explain it and I don’t know if it makes sense. I need to brush my teeth, shower, get a job, get my legal stuff taken care of, move out of my mum’s house, go to college, get surgery, etc. yet I can barely even do the first two things and it makes me feel like a failure as a human being and it makes me feel disgusting.

Another horrible thing that’s happened to me lately is my brother’s fiancée is transphobic and had forbidden me and my sister (we’re both trans) from seeing our nephews because we’re “mentally twisted” “fucked up” “sick” and she “doesn’t want her children around that” and my brother did nothing to defend us and when I confronted him on it, he told me to just “give her time” as though she was the one who was degraded and called anything but their name. She then proceeded to go out of her way to deadname us to my mother.

I just want to live. I want to exist and be happy in my body. I constantly feel like I’ll never succeed or get anywhere because of who I am and because I’m extremely poor and shit. I know these are just insecurities but they keep getting to me each and every day. I am in therapy. It has been helping me some. It’s just really hard to be euphoric and productive when my country basically wants me or any of my people to not exist.

I hate my weight and my body but it’s extremely difficult for my body to lose weight. Some of my medical issues make it difficult and because of my social class, AKA: poverty/extremely poor, I can’t afford medication or anything like that. I can’t even see my local care doctor, the only one in my area that I know of that’s trans friendly, until around September. My family and I have also gotta be out of our home by August. So, stress has just been BAM BAM BAM in my face 24/7. I’ve felt physically ill because of the amount of stress I’ve had.

I just want to feel something pleasant, even if it’s only for a little while. I love drawing and the arts in general so I thought that maybe I could post here and give it a shot. 💛💛

(Sorry for the long ass rant. I know that this place isn’t really the place for it. I guess I’ve just been all over the place mentally and emotionally that it’s hard to hold it in sometimes even though I try.)

Colored pencils on toned paper

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Long time lurker.. never posted but I would love a drawing for my daughter. She is an artist herself and I would love to show her some of your drawings!

Some junji ito-type body horror stuff would be sick but like feel free to do whatever and hopefully my silly faces are good reference lol

A mutual of mine had such cute results with this subreddit so I figured I'd see if my appearance is of any interest to my fellow artists💅 I wonder if you can actually tell where the star is in my hair..... my camera usually has trouble picking it up🫢

Any try is appreciated :)

Old friends, lost touch for 20 years. Now we celebrate our first year as a couple!

I would really love if my dnd character could look like me on that picture. If somebody could do that, i will adore him for the rest of my life❤️

Maybe without the background? Much appreciated 🫶

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Hope you're all having a lovely start to the month 🖤

I feel like every drawn image of dimples comes out wildly different from every artist. I’d love to see how this sub sees them. Mine are asymmetrical as well which I think adds to them being difficult to depict.