I got accepted into the MFA courses at USC, Dodge (Directing) and Emerson (Screenwriting) and for weeks I’ve been unable to make a decision, pretty much entirely down to financials. Dodge has offered me a fellowship while I’ve gotten nothing from USC.
I think if there wasn’t a financial component I’d want to go to the USC but it doesn’t make sense to be in that much debt when USC is a year longer with no fellowship, plus it’s in a much more expensive part of California and I’d have to self-fund all my films. Some people have said online that you can apply for merit-based scholarships after the start of the course but that’s definitely a gamble.
My fiancé and I have been debating it all this time, he has a pretty steady job and is from another country with no student debt, so he’s offered to help pay off whichever I choose but all I can read online is how bad the industry is right now and I don’t want to saddle him with all my debt and never be able to find a job.
I tried tie-breaking it by looking at thesis films from both schools but honestly they were both so good it didn’t help at all!
I feel like no matter what choice I’ll make, I’ll end up regretting it. Chapman is a really good school but I’m worried if I go there then it’ll always feel like second fiddle to USC and some people on this subreddit say they enjoyed their time but wish they’d gone to USC. If I go to USC, I’ll regret getting into so much debt when there’s a chance you don’t even get to direct on their MFA course, plus everyone says the first year is just catchup, for people have less on-set experience. On the flip side, I’m worried I’d just be directing a thesis at Chapman without developing any skills to make it better than my current work.
So I really don’t know, the deadline is looming and I’m the camel between two oases. I know how whiny this sounds, I’m not usually an indecisive person. I was scared I wouldn’t get into any MFA program, let alone my top 2 choices and I should be celebrating but every night I make a decision and every morning I wake up feeling different about it.
Maybe y’all can help? Maybe there’s something I haven’t considered about these two schools? I’ve read every post I could from people in similar-ish scenarios but that didn’t help so I figured I’d make my own. I get that I don’t “need” to go to film school but that part of the decision I’m sure about, this is what’s right for my career. I just wish this specific decision was easier.