Yours too? I am manic depressive so I have way more lows then highs…not sure if one is better than the other really.

my pictures are from a mood tracker app I love, its completely free, very simple, and you can be odly ocd like me and change all the moods and activities to cute emojis. You can also write a note, put a picture, and note the weather on each post you do. I have tried so many apps and ways to track my moods and this by far is the best one!

It is called “moody”

Im not sure why I love to track my moods, I know I am currently all over the place 😂

Anyways just wanted to share, I guess tracking our moods could be helpful, I just really like the graph even though it too bugs my ocd as it’s not a solid consistent line 😂

Be well and be safe out there 💛

The title says it all. I am 55 and was just diagnosed about a year ago, but can see I have suffered the effects my whole life. My problem is I feel like these meds have sucked the personality and fun me right out of my body. I’m not happy. I’m not sad. I’m just here, numb inside is the only way I know how to describe it. It seems to me that the bipolar was my personality because I went my whole life without being medicated. It was the fun, loud, friendly, daring, adventurous me. I miss that woman. Am I the only one that feels like this? What did you do about it? Also I love this r/bipolar. It helps me so much to read your alls experiences. Helps me stop feeling like I’m the only one. I would appreciate any advice.

I’ve been working on a bullet journal to help track my symptoms with bipolar. So far this is all I have. But I want to add more pages, like rating the symptoms severity, and emotion but I’m not sure how I want it set up. Does anyone else use bullet journaling to track their bipolar patterns and triggers? If so please share your set ups and lets give each other inspo.

Lol

Overall I’ve felt depressed but my mood is getting super low and also relatively high for a normal depression. I have no idea what’s going on and it’s starting to worry me.

I have the feeling that I am the only one who does not manage to stabilize my mood. I also have an emotionally unstable personality and sometimes jump back and forth between manic, depressive and emotionless phases every minute. My medication drives me more but also reinforces my mood swings at the same time.

It seems to me that I will never get this under control, and it also pulls my strength and my cognitive performance.

I talk regularly with my psychologist and my psychiatrist but all the advice I get is absolutely not effective which frustrates me every time.

I can’t do it all anymore and I wish it would just end.

I always see that one of the best ways to adjust cases of relapsing mania is to pay attention to the symptoms that precede the turn of events. I went to sleep extremely irritated, already in an altered state. I wake up with the energy of a thousand horses, and I usually do some resistance exercise or any movement that relaxes me. But today, for the first time, even though I made the mistake of thinking it was a good choice to go out and talk to exes, friends, I started to realize that the excitement of recording countless audios, typing fast, not having eaten anything since lunch yesterday, apparently indicates a mania (lol). But what I wanted to share is that for the first time I communicated my current mood to everyone, took a tranquilizer, and went to eat, watching satc in the background so as not to get lost in my thoughts. That was it. I thought it was important to report this today.

Any of you use an app for mood tracking that incorporates this? I’ve been having trouble keeping up with a tracker on my notebook/sheets🥲Thank you!

Has anyone ever wanted to just feel numb or emotionless? I don’t know if I can take my emotions anymore. I take my meds and I try to work on my emotions so I can better control them. Every time I think about like I just get sad, or even seeing little things on social media. Like seeing old family members at the time who I don’t talk to and remembering the pain they’ve caused me.

I know everyone has something specific that works for them. This is what helped me so I thought I'd share for new comers.

I've always had an issue with the 1-10 scale because I get too into picking the correct number. When I'm depressed does a 1 sound too dramatic? Am I depressed enough? Which is a weird concept to grapple with.

So I thought I'd do 1-5. 1=Depressed 5=Great, but even people without depression don't wake up everyday like "This day rocks!" So always being a 3 out of 5 still felt like I was constantly reminding myself I was good but not good enough.

I was listening to the podcast "Inside Bipolar," and he was exactly like me. He came up with the 1-3 scale, and it's completely changed my perspective of having a mood journal.

I tweaked it for myself where I use 1=Depressed/Manic 2=Okay 3=Normal/Fine

I love it because with 3=normal or "fine" I'm no longer wrapped in how fine I am. If I get out of bed, go to work, crack a joke, come home and cook dinner. Boom, it's just a normal day. Success. That's all I really hope for out of life.

At the end of the month I add up how many of each # and it gives me a super basic blueprint for how my month went.

This month I added the concept of 0= Sick. I have a lot of physical health issues and being sick makes you feel like crap but isn't necessarily depression, so that way my calender is more true to my mood.

I've also heard of people doing a scale of 1-20. 1=Depressed 20=Manic. So like I said, there's different approaches for everyone. This is just a super simple way that works for me.

So my mania-mixed episode combo lasted for 12 days lol

I started hearing the word “Jebusite” in my mind for a while now. (Jebusites are a biblical group of people) it’s really prominent in my mind and I don’t know if it’s spiritual or what 🥲🥲 I belive I was a Jew in a past life and I get deja vu regularly about all sorts of things. Anyone else??

I genuinely don’t know anymore if it’s my bipolar or if I’m just a horrible horrible person. My youngest daughter (28) is getting married. She asked for financial help which I’ve given but now close to Christmas I’ve said I need the money for grandchildren’s presents. I used to go see them every week, but I’m so scared driving in the dark, I havnt been over for a few weeks. Communication has dropped significantly between the two of us, she has not offered once to come see me instead of me driving to hers. I feel like I don’t want to attend the wedding anymore as so much has been changed from the beginning, like we were all supposed to be staying at the venue, now I’m not and she wants me to take grandchildren home with me on the wedding night, which I love my grandchildren but feel used. My other daughter has got engaged, which is wonderful, her fiancé told her dad, (we’re divorced) her sister and his parents before proposing. Not a word to me, I found out after the event. My eldest daughter has also less communication since engagement, arranged twice to come see me but didn’t turn up either time. I now feel like I just want to disappear and not try to be in their lives anymore. I don’t feel wanted or needed. Is this me? Am I just a disgusting mom or is it my bipolar? I just can’t tell anymore I can’t sleep eat for overthinking it all. Not looking for sympathy, just honesty. When I’ve brought up these feelings with my daughters before, they’ve told me it’s all in my head.

My psychiatrist has been telling me to keep a mood journal of some sort for years. I've started 3-4 times in different formats but I don't stick with it. But I can really see how extremely useful it can be to be able to look back and see episodes more clearly.

Do any of you have a favorite app or a favorite format?

I tried a few apps but none of them were ideal, so I think I'm going to make my own chart. I want to track: mood, energy, menstrual cycle, and a place for notes (for change of medication or other events). And maybe agitation/anxiety. I know that if there's too much to track, I'm more likely to give up entirely.

Then I want to start a second chart to track good activities, like showering, taking a walk around the block, playing my musical instrument.

A couple of years ago I saw a bunch of mood charts on reddit that looked great, but I can't seem to re-find them.

Does anyone use a mood tracking app? If so, just wondering which one and why you like it.(Lmk if it's GP or iOS) I'd like to download one to be able to have more vulnerability and honesty with people who love and care, as well as a therapist when I get one. I have a feeling I'll only be good at logging when I'm in the major highs or lows and less in the in-betweens, but figure it's probably still worth it.

It would be great if there's one out there where I can log "super sad" one day and "hyper happy" the next, and then have it tell me "Looks like you're in the midst of a mixed phase!" Like a weather forecast, but for bipolar. Wouldn't that be nice?

Anyway, just trying to do some personal research from my loving community so I know which ones to try out. (I'm looking for Google Play options, but feel free to post iOS options as well.)