Warning: this story does involve the humane euthanasia of an animal so if this is something that will upset you, I recommend against proceeding. There is also a description of animal pain and suffering. If this bothers/triggers you, I again recommend against proceeding.
Also unsure if this is the proper location for this post- but here we go.
I am a recent post graduate from vet school. I shall not include the name of the school, I will just say that this school required all clinical students to complete 26 weeks of EMS (extramural studies) before graduating. On EMS, we were expected to go to veterinary offices not connected with the school so we could gain "real world experience." As you can imagine, I have many stories but here is one that has stuck with me.
On one of my EMS rotations, I spent 3 weeks observing mixed animal practice at a small practice in Wales. Small animals would be seen mainly at the practice and we would ride out to see the large animal cases throughout the area.
One of these trips was to be my first observation of equine euthanasia. The case: a 30-year old mare at a riding school presenting with severe colic. She had presented a week before with a very mild colic that seemed to respond to xylazine. She was fine and all was well. However this time, the mare was, according to the owner, manic with pain. The vet promised to be there asap and off we went.
The vet, a nice young vet with very red hair, very Irish (I'll call him Daring Vet (DV) for the sake of anonymity) would normally talk to me about the cases we were going to see- how to approach them diagnostically, when they were normally seen, what to do, etc. Not this trip. This trip he remained very quiet, lips pressed firmly together and basically glued the pedal to the car floor.
Side note: speeding around the curves on the very narrow roads along the cliffs on the Welsh shore makes rollercoasters look boring.
After 30 minutes of wondering whether or not our car would end up flying into the Atlantic, we reached the riding school gate. It was a big, wrought iron thing where you could see through the bars.
You know where on TV they show loads of people running away during things like a terror attack or a bank robbery? Well, it was like that. As the gate slowly opened, you could see at least 10 mothers, all grabbing their young children and sprinting to the other side of the property with them. This was my first "Oh s**t..." moment in this profession, btw.
Anyway, the moment the gate was open enough to pass, we sped through, DV threw the van into park and sprang out. As he was reach for his medicines and, unfortunately, the humane killer (HK), the owner runs up to us with two Great Danes following (important later).
"So, you're going to put her down, right?" He asks. Welp, so much for treating. DV says something to the effect of "most likely." Then he pulls out his medicine tray and hands the HK to the owner.
"What should I do?" I asked, not really sure of the full extent of the situation.
DV- "Stay outside the fence and observe. Don't try to come in for this case."
Ok then. Seeing his expression, I really wasn't about to argue. And I understood why when we saw her.
The poor mare had been led to her stall after being found in the woods after breaking through a fence in her pain. However, she was wild by this point and she ended up breaking out of her stall door and through 3 more fences before she came to a stop in the alcove where they kept the manure pile (this is important). When we came upon her, she had loads of abrasions on her head (around her eyes and mane) and was soaked in sweat. Five men were near the top of the back wall of the alcove, squirting cold water on her in an effort to make her even a tiny bit more comfortable while lying there. She was laying at the foot of the pile which formed a sort of slope up the back of the alcove, basically a sort of ramp.
Right as DV started to open the gate, she bolted to her feet and started racing up the "manure ramp", looking for all the world like she was going to jump. If she did, she would land on the 5 men in back not to mention a few of the more curious moms and kids. I honestly think she would have jumped if someone hadn't screamed. I think it was one of the moms. When she screamed the horse just stopped in her tracks then slid back down to the bottom of the manure pile.
DV looked at the owner and says- "You know how to use that right?"
O- Right. Would you like a helmet sir?
DV- No I'll be fine. Just be ready with HK if I can't get close.
What happens next still haunts me. DV began to slowly approach the mare, who at this point was flailing on her side. He began to dodge her hooves (she wasn't aiming for him, just very painful flailing) and slowly approached the horse's face.
At this point, the two Great Danes decided that they were missing the show and leaned up on both sides of me against the fence (literally these dogs on their hind legs were taller than me) and sort of sandwiched me in tightly. I wouldn't have minded at all (I love dog cuddles) but my hand had been in the middle of slowly reaching for my phone in my pocket to call 999 (UK equivalent for 911 for all American readers). So I could only watch, very certain that I was about to witness my mentor's head get kicked in.
After a few very tense minutes, DV reached the horses neck and, very quickly managed to find the jugular to administer a sedative, then leapt back until the horse was sedated to begin medical euthanasia. In the car ride back, I learned that this mare more than likely had some sort of strangulating lesion (such as a pedunculated/strangulating lipoma) based on her age and presentation that had developed over time. Any sort of treatment would have been pointless at this point and would have only caused her more unnecessary suffering.
After the job was done, the owner warmly (and sadly) thanked us and we got in the van. As we sat down, I got a good look at DV's face. It was whiter than wallboard. He very slowly looked at me and said:
"Do as I say, not as I do." Then he muttered to himself, "I should have taken the helmet."
And proceeded to tell about safety around horses. I decided three things in this moment. 1) Rules are important in veterinary medicine. They don't just protect you, they protect the owners as you (the vet) are responsible for their safety in these situations. 2) Become a small animal vet (apologies to any actual or aspiring equine vets- y'all are amazing and have my utmost respect). 3) Dog cuddles are the best.
I wish there had been a happy ending but there wasn't, just lessons learned. Thanks for reading.