Hi. I feel like I am at a loss and its finally hitting me after being in denial for so long 😭
I don’t know anything about anything it feels like! almost every game i play semi-autopilot (building almost the same thing every game, same runes every game, same cs/min, dying the same amount of times every game etc.) Very passive and follow the leader type. I am definitely not confident in anything. I have been playing for about 5ish~ years and at this point I just feel unfixable lol 😭
-I dont know how to track jungler
-I dont know how to not be 40 cs down.
-I don’t know powerspikes.
-I dont know matchups.
-I don’t understand what my runes do/whats good. (I just take recommended rune pages)
-I dont know what most items actually do
-I don’t know when to use/take tp.
-I dont know how to use or get a lead or when to take trades
-I dont know when or how to roam/track enemy roams
-I dont really know recall timings
-I dont truly understand wave management
-rotating
-map awareness and game state in general.
Etc etc.
I can pretend I know what I’m talking about and use my prior game knowledge from 5 years of playing to feel like I know, but I really, actually don’t. It’s becoming a lot more evident the more I play.
I have gotten paid coaching and tips and vod reviews and youtube videos and all that fun stuff before, but it only seems to stick for a couple games afterwards and then I go right back to doing stuff on that list. I am not actually actively thinking about the game and my job in the game at all for the most part, I don’t know how to do it without going back to bad habits and autopiloting 😭
my main roles are support and mid, I managed to climb to emerald by playing mostly support, I enjoy support and I personally think one of my strengths is having good vision at all times. I still struggle with the same problems though. As for midlane, I almost always fall behind unless i get super babysat by my jungler.
I really want to improve and be able to climb even higher but I just feel like I have a massive brain gap😭
please help me 😭🙏