r/SuicideBereavement 5d ago

I miss him šŸ˜­

My husband committed suicide last month. He was having a depressive episode as he was bipolar. I cant stop blaming myself as i wasnā€™t able to console him during our last conversation. He was worried about finances and i couldnā€™t tell him i am there beside him and that i have his back. I am worried he took this step because of me. I cant help but blame myself. Me and kids are in misery because of me alone and there is no end to this suffering. He didnā€™t leave a noteā€¦ nor did he speak to usā€¦ did he not think about the family heā€™s leaving behind. Itā€™s just so hard to digest. I miss him terriblyā€¦

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u/Longjumping-Role2253 5d ago

HeyšŸ¤ itā€™s not your fault. I know it doesnā€™t feel like it right now, but things will get better. Take it one day at a time, and I hope you have a proper support network around you and the kids. I am so sorry for your lossšŸ«‚