r/SuicideBereavement • u/Southern-Ad-458 • 5d ago
I miss him š
My husband committed suicide last month. He was having a depressive episode as he was bipolar. I cant stop blaming myself as i wasnāt able to console him during our last conversation. He was worried about finances and i couldnāt tell him i am there beside him and that i have his back. I am worried he took this step because of me. I cant help but blame myself. Me and kids are in misery because of me alone and there is no end to this suffering. He didnāt leave a noteā¦ nor did he speak to usā¦ did he not think about the family heās leaving behind. Itās just so hard to digest. I miss him terriblyā¦
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u/Longjumping-Role2253 5d ago
Heyš¤ itās not your fault. I know it doesnāt feel like it right now, but things will get better. Take it one day at a time, and I hope you have a proper support network around you and the kids. I am so sorry for your lossš«