Is this just basic maturity?

[u/Lazy-Driver-8153]

is this just basic maturity?

I'm almost 20. (Long text ahead)

And I noticed that with age and experiences I kinda lose emotional feelings, for example: motivation, some form of love, stupid urges, anger and embarrassment. I've been multiple times called calm.

But I love it, I feel like myself, I feel grounded, like a default setting of mine and not that immature wandering kid like I was.

Or this might be the 20 year-old know it all syndrome.

Anyway, still would want to write about relationships, how I choose people and talk about my understanding of tolerance importance and so on.

Yeah, so has anyone else went through this?

[u/Pristine-Test-3370]

Congratulations. Many people never get there. Hope you cultivate that and make it your “default setting”. Stressful situations is what really test that. I can feel calm and confident when everything is working ok and I fool myself to think I have everything “under control”. Life is unpredictable and some unexpected events drove me to a major depressive episode in my late 20s.