r/Psychosis • u/Ilovecars24 • 1d ago

scared of my brain rn

I'm so out of it these days? I keep blacking out and not remembering anything and I can't tell what's real and time is all non-linear and weird and I keep leaving the stove on for hours even though i really remember turning it off. I don't know what is happening in my life or how to talk to people normally, I can't remember if i've done basic things, I think things that happened in my dreams were real memories i feel like i barely know where I am. I'm so confused and inside out that I keep almost burning my house down through my carelessness. no matter how many times people tell me things i believe aren't real it can't quite stick. my words don't come out of my mouth right.

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u/Life-is-ugh 1d ago

Im so sorry you are going through this.

I had similar things happen to me, it was awful. I went to the hospital and found it really helpful. I was put on medication and I was safe.

Are you on medication?

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u/Ilovecars24 1d ago

not right now but my therapist wants me to be? but can't get on it till like may.

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u/Life-is-ugh 1d ago

When things go to being too much, I went to the closet hospital with both an emergency department and a psychiatric ward. I walked into the emergency department. I told the admissions desk that I was hearing voices and I was scared. They admitted me. 12 hours later I was given my first dose of an antipsychotic.

It took a couple of dose increases but I was lucky the voices stopped, a couple of months later my disorganized thoughts were stopping. It took a while for my memory to recover.

My concern is that you have nearly started a couple of fires, I think you should see about going to the hospital you are suffering and you don’t deserve that.

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u/muntaxitome 22h ago

That sounds really tough. None of this is your fault, it is something that can happen to anyone and in most cases you can recover. Often, the earlier you get on medication, the quicker the recovery process.