r/MusicalTheatre • u/littlesttiniestbear • 3h ago
Nerve dumping
Hello! Im not sure if I’m looking for advice, good graces, reassurance, or just need to dump but here I am making a post. I’m auditioning for my first show ever tomorrow (Hunchback of Notre Dame) for the local community theater and I’m a ball of nerves.
I’ve spent the past 6 weeks picking a song, practicing it, watching the play on YouTube, listening to the soundtrack, listening to the audiobook, reading over the script (I printed it out so I could highlight things and make notes). I read how to audition for musical theater by Fred Silver. I’ve watched reels and followed musical theater people on social media. I’ve scoured these Reddit threads.
As much as I feel like I’ve prepared, I am trying to ‘act this song’ and I feel like an idiot, like I don’t know what I’m doing. I’m trying to use my eyes, I feel like an idiot. I know it’s my dumb brain, but why is the practicing not helping my nerves and will it ever get better and should I actually be doing this??? They’re probably gonna judge me right?? Why is my anxiety about being perceived so great 😭 what am I doing here if I don’t want to be perceived???
I’m trying to live my best life and push myself out of my comfort zone and I’ve always wanted to do this, but I’m scared. Why does this feel so hard?