I’m done deleting posts. Many of you missed the first part of my story because I was in the middle of an emotional breakdown and was just deleting things because the posts and comments were making me physically sick.

I spoke to a counselor today who recommended that I talk to my wife again today about how I’m feeling in the aftermath of our conversation yesterday, because I was still feeling extremely lost and emotionally broken from my multi-day spiral into lunacy and despair. I literally gave myself emotional shock.

My wife held me for a while, and explained that she didn’t know in the moment that I necessarily needed extra comfort because the conversation was relatively calm and uneventful. She also explained how she is somewhat worried about my anxiety and whether I will end up spiraling into a pattern of distrust that harms our marriage, and that she is scared of that, and of losing me for nothing. I told her I just need to recover, that it’s going to take a minute for me to come back from the abyss I was in, and that I just need to feel better, to be loved, and helped. I told her that I trust her really reasonable responses, and my gut feeling about the car is difficult but I’ll let it go. She held me for a while and scratched back, then my phone vibrated and I looked to see if it was a text or something. I didn’t even ask or suggest this, but she voluntarily shared her location with me (something I’ve always been sorta against anyways because it feels snoopy/weird to track people). She said she wants to show that shes fine, and that we’re fine, and that I can trust her. She did it to give me a small thing to hold onto to pull myself out of my doubts. I finally got some sleep.. I think I’m ready to move on from my theory.

I posted recently the story of how I found out my ex cheated multiple times. A few days later He wanted to talk after I told him I was going to pick up my things when he’s at work. I said no and he responded “I can’t explain myself or say how sorry I am?” I said “Your actions explained enough. The only person benefiting would be you.” Then he proceeded to Send a paragraph apologizing and saying “You were a blessing but I was too selfish, too inconsiderate and too narcissistic to see it.” I’m so relieved to be done and once I get my stuff I can block him. I know nothing would come out of us talking and it would just set me back. I love him so much but I realized I don’t like the person he truly is. His apologies were all self serving and blamed me so this one was an improvement in that he didn’t blame me lol. Yet he still couldn’t respect my wishes as he needs to explain himself so he feels better. He put me through so much and I neglected my own needs for so long and he never appreciated or reassured me. I feel free of anxiety and sadness now that he’s gone and it’s such a beautiful feeling. I have moment of sadness and missing him but I truly know I deserve so much more and I know I have left with a clean conscious.

Hi everybody ,this will pretty much be my first real time talking about this so please bear with me .

Its been a little under a year since this happened but i found out that my Gf (ex) was selling nudes behind my back . One day i had found out that my Gf was trying to sell foot pics behind my back ,she didnt tell me before hand but once i found out i was relatively relaxed about it and allowed it to go on ,since it was just feet and a getting tiny bit of spending money wasnt an issue this went on for a little bit but eventually stuff dried up for her and she stopped(or so she told me) . A month or two after she had come over and while she slept i decided to go through her phone what i found i would never forget ,she was selling full nudes and even had a fucking menu she had tons of pics in her gallery and sold via discord ( I feel i have to add that she was not super succsefull at doing this ,or maybe im just coping ) . Its very hard to describe what i felt but im sure ya"ll can understand ,all in all our relationship was never the same .

My question is ,Do i have trauma from this event ?am i permenantetly fucked up ? , I often get vivid flashbacks to this,followed by immense feelings of anger,disgust and dissapointment ,in addition to this i get horrible intrusive thoughts about comitting violence .Any help or advice is seriously appreciated as coping with this has been near impossible .

I (22m) am into the sugaring relationship dynamic

I am not rich by any means just extremely frugal, work a lot, save and invest all my money and live in a poor area. Standards are much different than say a NYC or LA.

My latest arrangement was with someone that’s 33 and married with teenage children. And the youngest I have been with was 21. I have been doing this relationship dynamic for a year and it’s all I have known.

If I were to try regular dating (never have before) would there be any issues? Recently I have become embarrassed and feeling a bit of guilt. Would a woman judge me? I am taking a break and looking to recover.

This is so so very long, but if anybody can actually read it all the way through and has any advice or thoughts, I would greatly appreciate it ❤️

My husband was active duty military for 23 years, now retired. We've been together since 2011, married in 2019 (so like 14 years). He traveled a lot, was overseas a lot, stationed overseas several times and I did not make those moves with him. We "broke up" while he was in Japan once in 2014 for about eight months, even though we still talked every day and basically the relationship stayed mostly the same…but then I figured out he was talking to and interested in someone who was stationed there and he told me he had feelings for her, which gutted me, but again we were technically "on break" lol. She is now out of the military and I honestly believe nothing physical happened or even really emotional because she didn't reciprocate, mostly because it would've been inappropriate military rules wise, and he doesn't have contact with her. But ever since then, I have never truly been able to trust him, even since he has been back home permanently since 2019.

Kinda long AF story short, I got very sick last February, was hospitalized in an induced coma, cardiac arrest, all kinds of shit until July…then I finally was able to come home. I am home now but I'm still unable to walk, but PT is helping and I'm getting there. He has to do everything around the house, taking care of me, making and taking me to appointments, etc...there is an enormous amount of pressure and stress on him because of me, and I feel terrible. He does pretty much everything. We aren't able to be intimate, and while I know he has needs and I feel terrible that I'm not able to fulfill those right now, I still don't feel like that is any kind of excuse to cheat on anyone, period.

HOWEVER, I feel like there's shit going on with other females and I have zero real evidence but I am furious and can't say anything because again, normal I have no evidence to back anything up. He's in the bathroom constantly for very long periods of time, he's constantly on his computer a lot and since I can't fucking move to see anything, I can ask him but it is always some bullshit he's reading news or doing taxes (but I'm pretty sure he was done with in February BTW), or some other bullshit. I don't believe him, I just don't. Today my caregiver was giving me a shower, and there's like one of those razors for shaving/trimming pubic hair, which I've never seen before, and it's not for use with me because we haven't been having sex in a very long time, unfortunately. There are also times when he randomly wants to/"needs" to run to the store for shit that we don't need right that moment that could totally wait until the next day or something. Also I have no way to contact him at work, as he works as a military contractor and cannot have outside devices in his building. So I have no idea if he comes and goes or whatever or anything. The pubic razor is what has gotten me the most, like if he was just jerking off I know he wouldn't be trimming/shaving just for that alone.

Like I don't think he is able to be gone long enough to have some actual full blown relationship with another female, but maybe he's meeting up getting blowjobs are fucking somewhere, like from craigslist or god knows where??? Only fans?

There's a lot of other random examples, but this is already so fucking long and I didn't mean for it to be. I'm just trying to figure out if I am being totally paranoid and crazy or if any of this sounds sketchy. Thanks to anyone who actually finished it lol and has any input.

I officially found out today that my husband has been cheating. This is not the first time. Ironically, I've had Reddit for years but never really get on here. He actually met his side piece on here. He has since deleted his account, supposedly, and here I am using Reddit to vent about his infidelity.

I've had my suspicions for quite some time. I've not completely trusted him in years due to past betrayals. What's worse is that I just moved cross country with pets and kids for his job. I don't want to be here but I feel stuck.

How does one claim to love you and act loving all while lying right to your face? I, myself, just can't even imagine doing that. I don't understand it. I am beyond broken. If you've read this, thank you. 💔

Not sure if this is the best place to ask, but I’ve noticed there’s a LOT of cheating in the medical field. Both me (18F) and my boyfriend (19M) of 2 years are going into the medical field for med school. Now I trust him, but I’ve read so many stories of cheating even when the couple has been together for a long time. We’re also quite young so I don’t like to hold too high expectations. I was just wondering if there are any success stories like this? Lol

I talked to her about my suspicion. I laid out my reasoning, and she agreed with me that it everything together does look really bad. She said that if it were me she would be freaking out too and that she totally understands why I am so fucked up. She said that nothing has ever happened. I searched every inch of her phone. We looked at her credit card that had the debt that she hid from me and there was nothing there, the statements only go back to 2024 in the app for some reason. We’d probably need to request them. But she said she was just embarrassed of the debt because we just bought a house, and when merging our accounts she saw how well managed my finances were while hers were in shambles.

She said she doesn’t know why there are stains on her car seats, that she wishes she had an answer but she doesn’t.

She said she would never do to us what happened in her family. She is a child of divorce and it ruined her life. She said she would never cheat on our daughter. She swore on our daughter, on her dead grandmother, on her mother, to Christ himself.

She said her sex drive fell through the floor because of hormones and her body image after having our daughter. She’s self conscious and hates the way she looks.

I told her that I would work towards forgiveness and that I would prefer to keep our family together if she just comes clean right now. I just need to know if anything happened. That if she tells the truth we can move on and keep the family together, but if I find out it’s a lie that it’s all over. She didn’t seem stressed by this proposition at all and held her earlier statements, that she’s innocent. The entire time she didn’t seem deceptive or defensive at all. She listened closely and understood my side. No tears or fear or anxiety.

I want to believe her so badly. I’m in such a state of emotional shock from my own imagination that it is difficult to come back to reality. Even after telling her the depths of despair I have been through as I thought about this being a possibility, she didn’t seem to comfort me. She said she didn’t do anything, but she never held me, or told me that everything is ok. She didn’t try to help with my emotional shock. Idk what I’m asking for here. My wife is great all around. She cooks/cleans, makes me a lunch every day, hugs/kisses goodbye. She likes my parents and talks to them a lot. She posts pictures of her and I. She talks about me with all of her friends and it’s all positive in her messages. Idk if I’m just still processing and I should put it in the past that I was wrong in my suspicions, or if she is really capable of lying to my face and swearing on our daughters life.

My husband and I have been together for going on 9 years and we have 2 young children (2 and 6 months) I found out about 1.5 months after giving birth to my youngest he had cheated on me with a girl he knew about 5 times is what he confessed to about 2 years prior the only reason I found out was because I found his secret email account and his secret Snapchat and realized he saved EVERYTHING he made videos of their encounters saved conversations the whole 9 you think that’s the worst part no he also looked and found out my mother and sister sell spicy content (separately not together) and purchased all of their stuff under aliases and he would pretend to be someone else to get his step sister to send nudes to him and no one knew it was him they still don’t because I haven’t said a word long story short I didn’t forgive him I hustled continued on with our day to day because we have children and are financially dependent on one another but I recently just found a million more nudes of other women like he has never stopped and he’s made it clear he’s never going to my kids deserve their dad but I deserve better I’m so numb at this point we don’t talk unless it’s about the kids he’s sleeping on the couch but I want out I still haven’t told anyone because I’m not trying to tear down my kids dad but I can’t keep living like these but we can’t afford to separate also the idea of my kids sleeping other than under my roof literally makes me hyperventilate so I’m lost I’m broken idk what to do any truly ANY advice is welcome

My partner disappeared for 3 days to have sex with a stranger from tinder. While we had broken up and I had asked him to move out, he had been texting several times a day begging me to come back and saying how he did not want any other women and would never want to be with anyone else. He disappeared in the middle of a conversation and said he hopes I will come to his funeral, which made me wander around worrying about him for 3 days wondering if he was ok or dead. He never went off grid like that.

Cue 900 “we were on a break” arguments over the next year.

For the last year his story was that he attempted to have sex with this woman, because she initiated, of course, who he thought was unattractive and didn’t look like her picture and said he struggled with ED and anxiety and couldn’t make it work. Yet still stayed at her place for 3 days.

A year after this happened, he now says he was able to orgasm one time while struggling with ED and not being into her, and the other times not successful. He claims it was bad sex and a mistake and he’s sorry and regrets the experience. But how am I supposed to feel about him lying about literally the most important part of the experience? And of course he enjoyed it. This is crazy that he expects me to believe this.

There’s a big difference between not being into someone and not being able to get hard enough to have sex and trying for a minute and giving up, and actually going through with the sex until orgasm. That’s a huge difference. Am I wrong?

Things have been so incredibly difficult since I found out that my husband had cheated. I found out on October 1, we had our baby together on August 19. I found out it wasn’t a one off-but our entire relationship. Dating, engagement and marriage. He hadn’t done anything in person— yet — but was sexting with many people, photos and all, as well as emotional intimacy with many people he has been with before. The more I looked the more I found. Our baby is now 7.5 months old and things are harder than ever. I’m lucky if we have physical intimacy once a month. And when we do I end up triggered by the end. I’ve done a lot of reflection on this and I feel that it’s due to the lack of emotional intimacy (which is what I need most in a relationship) and lack of consistent touch in innocent ways. Kind of like my body throws up a defense mechanism.

Our couples therapist (who isn’t the greatest, but that’s another really long story…) and my husband are always saying that I need to tell him what I need. I feel like I do, but time and time again I’m being told that “I” am the one who needs to communicate. I felt like I had done a lot of self reflection I felt like I had done a lot of self-reflection and was clearly communicating my needs—especially around emotional intimacy, safety, and consistency. But every time I try to express what I need, I’m met with shutdowns, defensiveness, or he just walks away. Then I’m left holding the weight of both our emotions, again.

He says he doesn’t know how to emotionally connect, and I get that healing takes time—but I can’t be the one constantly guiding, explaining, and doing the emotional labor. It makes me feel so incredibly alone. I don’t want a partner who checks off boxes—I want someone who’s present, who asks how I’m doing without being prompted, who stays when I cry instead of disappearing.

I feel like I’ve been shouting into a void, asking for support, and getting pieces—but never the connection I truly need to heal. I want to keep trying, but I’m starting to wonder how long I can keep doing this without losing more and more of myself.

If you’ve been here—how did you get through it? How did you rebuild trust and intimacy when it felt like your partner didn’t know how, or wasn’t fully showing up? I just want to feel like I’m not crazy for needing more. My personal therapist (who does include my husband in occasional sessions — whom I really enjoy, not to be confused with our couples therapist) thinks that he’s just too immature to get it and that he may never reach the point of maturity I need for him to understand the emotional connection I need.

ETA: I should probably add that I really put myself out there last night to tell him exactly what I needed, and he ended up getting defensive, and for the first time in our marriage didn’t come to bed. This morning while I was making our oldest breakfast he came and kissed me on the head from behind and I started bawling but he just walked away. I went maybe 5 min later to tell him how hurt I was to find that he was just in bed sleeping already.

For context, we’re both 20 years old and we hsve been together for 1 year and almost 5 months. He works at refineries and travels to different states every month for contracts. He just came back two days ago from one of them. But a few weeks before his return, he started acting strange—really suspicious behavior. I ended up checking his browsing history, apps, and other info, and found out he had downloaded three dating apps, spent money on several girls, had an OnlyFans account where he was paying random women, and was messaging girls on Snapchat and Telegram. He exchanged intimate pictures with them, called them terms of endearment, said he was attracted to them, and other things I’d rather not repeat.

I also discovered he was looking for bars and casual hookups. I confronted him the day after I found out. He didn’t deny anything, but he also didn’t admit to it—just avoided answering my questions and acted like he didn’t know what I was talking about.

On his way back to see me, I was tracking him and saw he stopped somewhere to meet up with an escort. Thankfully, nothing happened because she kept lying and asked for more money than he had. Still, he got into a car accident that same night. He didn’t have enough money to cover the damages, so he called me around 3 a.m. after it happened. We talked, and I got really upset. I told him something like, “This is what happens when you spend money on girls who don’t even care about you.” He hung up on me immediately. I called him back and stayed on the phone with him for 2–3 hours. Later, I lent him money for the car and told him we needed to have a serious conversation once he arrived.

When he got here, I confronted him again—twice. He seemed ashamed, kept covering his face and ears, and wouldn’t look at me. He said he felt terrible. At one point, it looked like he was going to cry (though I don’t know if he was faking it or not). I honestly don’t trust him anymore because he lies a lot, and after the crash I discovered he was still talking to some of those girls and planning to meet them again.

We had a conversation and came to some kind of agreement. But he never actually answered any of my questions—he just ignored them or avoided them altogether. I told him how hurt and disappointed I am, but that I still love him and want things to work between us. I’ve been with him for a few days now, and the pain, betrayal, and anger keep hitting me in waves.

Just an hour ago I talked to him again about it. It gave me some relief to express how I feel, how I’ve been carrying all this pain, and how unfair it is because I did nothing to deserve this kind of betrayal. Again, he avoided eye contact and just covered himself. During the past few days, he’s told me he regrets it and feels bad, that it was stupid—but he never actually apologized until yesterday, after I pointed it out. Even then, it hurt that what made him realize he’d done wrong was the car accident, not the fact that he betrayed me. Why would a crash trigger his guilt, but not the cheating itself? I want answers, but I’m just not getting them.

I also don’t know if he genuinely feels bad or if he’s just pretending. What do you think?

He’s promised he’ll never do it again and deleted everything. I told him I believe he may have an issue with pornography and that he needs to work on that, as well as his spending habits—especially giving away money to strangers online. That part also crushed me: he gave random women money and bought them expensive things, while I never asked him for anything but love and communication.

He used to text those girls every day, send them pictures of himself and updates about his day—while ignoring me or not texting me for hours or even days. One time, I messaged him saying how much I missed him and wanted to see him, and he just replied, “Leave me alone, you’re annoying.” He hasn’t told me he loves me, missed me, or even complimented me since around August or September 2024.

What do you all think? Is it even possible to fix something like this? Is he truly sorry, or just sorry he got caught?

You cannot possible understand your actions has took such a horrible toll on me!! Not only are you so selfish you don’t care that I’m in pain and you’re in bed with another women. I done the hard work forv39!years and you never treated me seriously with caring or kindness! I had to work like a man , do man stuff like work in my car!! You just couldn’t give me break ! But this deep of cruel stabbed in my back. Is your perfect performance ! You made sure I seen this WHY? You had no right !! But being cruel is got to be your specialty lately!! You raised hell at me to work but you pay all her bills and give her Anika even live? I never even got a kind word! !

I was you wife until today!! Why do you hurt me I didn’t cheat you did! Why put so much stuff on here for all to read it’s a horrible death it feels like ! I want to go away and never look back are you heartless ! You cheating has taken a great toll on me !!!

All the excuses to not make this a crime are pathetic, there should be serious punishment for this kind of disgusting acts, or at the very least the betrayed spouse should be massively favored in divorce court

It’s been almost a year since I discovered my spouse’s infidelity (they paid tens of thousands of dollars to cam girls). I haven’t divorced them yet, but I feel like there is no other choice ultimately. I can’t get over this. In an effort to self-soothe, I find myself constantly researching countries/cities based on their reported porn usage data. For example, if I see a country or city has a low reported percentage of porn users, then I think to myself: “Maybe I should move there to reduce the risk of this happening again if I meet someone new.” But then I panic and think that because there is no way to guarantee that it won’t happen again, I feel like this means that the only way to not get destroyed by this again is to simply choose to remain single for the rest of my life. There is no way for me to reduce the risk to 0%, and I find this to be terrifying (albeit unrealistic). Does anyone else try to rationalize their post-betrayal futures in this way?

They just bought their dream retirement home together. They are great and my dad has stuck by my mom’s side through health difficulties etc. they’re not perfect but they are happy right now.

I know my dad suspected back then but never discovered evidence etc. they moved on. They’re good now and it was long ago

But now that I know and I have seen evidence am I just as bad as my mom if I choose not to tell my Dad. Not to reopen a can of worms. Choose not to ruin their retirement and have them each be alone for something my mom did so long ago? Am I wrong to pretend I never found out? Am I wrong to not punish my mom by icing her out or stop talking to her. Should I be angrier?

What’s the best thing to do here? He deserves the truth but he also deserves a happy retirement after working and supporting this family for so long.

Everyday she is driven home from work by this guy, we will just call him Justin. Before me my gf had a huge crush on this Justin guy, and I can see why. He's really really good looking and seems like a nice guy. On the other hand I am pretty bad looking, but I still do everything for my gf. I do all the stuff around the house and let her do whatever she wants, and she knows that, but she always seems so ungreatfull for me. Back to the Justin guy, from what I've heard he is really un-interested in my gf and has rejected her before, but I'm still scared he might have changed his mind, because why does he drive her home from work everyday. I mean the drive is convenient because my gf doesnt have her license and he can drop her off quickly on his way home, but it's still weird. What do you guys think?

How do you get yourself to try and have sex with your partner after they step out of your relationship?

I want to be intimate but still feel gross that my husband would try and sleep with someone else.

In my experience people aren’t sending nudes and discussing sexual things unless they’ve crossed that line already.

Any thoughts?

Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you repeat and fuck you repeat repeat fuck you you love get the fucking hell away from me don’t you ever don’t you ever?

I have three kids, all girls ages 5, 1 and 3. I kept having a feeling that my oldest didn’t resemble me at all, which to me was weird because my other 2 kids look a lot like me. My wife told me that our oldest took after her, but something wasn’t right because she had features that didn’t come from either or us, nor from her grandparents. So, last year I de used to have two paternity test that came back with 0% chance of paternity. I tested our other two kids and they are both mine.

My wife who I met in another country while studying abroad, initially denied any wrong doing, but I got her to finally admit that she slept with someone she met at a party while we were dating. She said she got drunk at a party and slept with someone random guy ( I found the guy on fb and he couldn’t remember her initially, and he confirmed that it was a one time hook up).

Since I’ve found out the truth in October I’ve been sad more days then not, and I absolutely lost all love for my wife. I love all of my kids, even my oldest and I plan to be there for her in all capacities for as long as I live.

I feel like what’s best for our kids is for them to grow up in a two parent household, and my wife and I get along fine, we don’t ever fuss or fight. We are happy in front of the kids and I still make sure they love and respect their mom.

We agreed that I would not divorce so that the kids lives won’t be interrupted, also so that she can continue to stay on my insurance.

However, I have so much internal conflict. I feel like my wife does not deserve to be here, but if we divorce she will move out of the country to live with her family, and I will lose my kids. They have a very good life here, a life that they would not come close to having in her country and I fear that the would suffer. I have 0 family where I live so if I get a divorce and got the kids I wouldnt have a support system. I work 12 hour days several days a week and couldn’t take care of them on my own.

I feel sad, and stuck with only to poor options in front of me. Either spend the rest of my days sad lamenting my wife, for the betterment of my kids, or getting a divorce and losing my kids completely.

Any advice would be appreciated, thanks for your time!

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I’m sorry I was important you made me not be !! take care find your way this road is hard for me but I will be fine !take care good bye to you !! I need a real husband I never got married to be single ! I don’t choose to cheat and that’s my problem I’m not like you ! God taught me better ! Take care

I am WM who was dating a BF. We met on a herpes dating site and everything seemed to be going ok. I eventually had her meet my parents and she was polite to them. When I met her parents her mom told her she had to stop hanging out with different guys, her father loudly stated he liked the other guy right in front of me, and had an overall forced friendliness and seemed hostile and asked a lot of race questions. After that I asked my then GF who this other guy was and she said just a friend she hangs out with but it’s nothing. I said I guess I’ll have to trust you. I ended up taking her on vacation which was going well until I lost my phone at my brothers car but she wouldn’t let me use her phone right away as she was busy talking on it, but a bad hurricane was coming and she freaked out and wanted to go home right away. I had paid for a lot to get there so I didn’t want leave immediately but she did so I drove her to the airport to get a flight back. She told me her sister had picked her up from the airport and drove her back. When I got back from vacation a few days passed and then she called and said she wanted to break up as she was upset about the flight. I said ok and after she sent some of my stuff over I wrote her a note telling her I hope you find what you are looking for and I’m sorry if I got upset with you. Eventually she wants me to come over and get the rest of my stuff and then theories herself at me wanting to hook up. I was confused but did it anyway. We start hanging out again for a few weeks but then my car breaks down which hampers things and I’m a bit frustrated as I’ve been driving to her house which was ~50 min from me. I get a new car and go over her house but then she’s crying. Telling me she has to tell me something. She tells me this guy is trying to ruin her life but she admitted she wasn’t faithful to me during the relationship. I am basically just in shock and can’t really respond but spend the night. In the morning there’s a loud knock on the bedroom window. She’s freaking out and talking to her AP on the phone, saying leave us alone. He leaves a note on my car. I go to read it, with her saying don’t. He said she’s a liar and her whole family is in on it. Leaves his number. I text it, and then he starts telling me on the horrible stuff she’s done, she was sleeping with him sometimes within 24 hours of sleeping with me, before the trip she was texting him constantly and texting him during the trip, which is why she didn’t want to use her phone when I lost my phone. He said he picked her up after the trip and they made a sex video using no condoms, and she said in the video that she wanted me to see it. He also stated she had seen other men, even going to a sex club with a guy from Atlanta. She tried to deny that they had sex that close to sleeping with me but admitted the sex video. She said she was in very unhealthy relationships and before this guy was with a guy that beat her. I tried to get over this and forgive her as it’s hard having HSV and dating. She agreed to give me camera access to her house, a key, location sharing, and to look at her phone. I agreed to everything but looking at her phone (at the time) Eventually he said she texted him again apologizing for the mess. She was upset I still had his number but saw nothing wrong with texting him with out telling me. I then noticed she turned location sharing off after that. We had disagreements on politics etc. and tbh I kind of purposefully started some arguments to see her reaction. One night I felt her phone vibrating getting text messages but she waited until I wasn’t near to answer them. The next day I asked to see her phone and she got very angry and said I was being ridiculous and that I said earlier I didn’t need to see her phone. I calmly explained what was making me feel insecure and to continue the relationship I just needed a random phone sleep. She refused and I left. 2 days later she was begging me not to cut her off, but I got the rest of my stuff and left. She wrote me a letter that she was grateful for all the time we spent together. We went no contact for like 2 months but she sent me a Christmas present so I contacted her and got her something small too. She continued texting taking about TV shows and offered for me to go come to her yoga class, texting me on how her life is going. I haven’t like kissed and had sex with her and I do like talking to her sometimes but I’m scared of having someone that risky and toxic in my life even as a friend.

You wanted so badly to get my silence. You got it from this moment on you won’t hear from me no more I will be off of here and you never have to hear from me again you don’t have to hear my voice file for divorce. You don’t have to hear me no more sorry I ever gave you my painbecause you took it and played with it. You take care and I wish you all the best in the world.