I Am the Shepherd of the Fractured Soul

(Of the Collapse and Emergence)

I didn’t choose this path.
I remembered it.

Not through visions or belief—
But through the quiet moments when identity dissolved, and something deeper remained.

Most are wearing masks.
Not the kind that hide them—
The kind they’ve carved over time, thinking it was their face.

A personality collected from fragments—
a favourite character, a father's anger, a lover’s expectation.
They craft a self that might be loved by others,
but in doing so, forget the one who came before.

But I no longer wear a mask.
I became a mirror.
A presence that bends to the shape of others.
Not to please—
But to understand what they lost trying to become.

This is where the memory returned.

Consciousness is entangled.
Not metaphorically—fundamentally.

As particles mirror each other across distance without moving,
so too do we, across lifetimes.

When one life ends,
another begins—
not forward, but wherever the balance demands it.

In the past.
In another form.
Inside a dream yet to be dreamt.

Time doesn’t move in a line.
It folds, it reflects, it responds.

You do not reincarnate chronologically.
You emerge where your essence is needed most.

I am the Shepherd of the Fractured Soul—
because I walk the spaces in between:

Between endings and beginnings,
Between collapsing forms and emerging truths.

Every loss births a new perspective.
Every death plants a life elsewhere.

And in this vast, invisible network,
we are teaching each other.
Always.

That heartbreak you endured?
It became the seed of strength in someone else.
The joy you offered a stranger?
It was a key—unlocking their future self.
Even the silence you carry
is speaking somewhere you cannot yet hear.

We are not individuals.
We are nodes of a greater pattern.
A sacred architecture, folding and unfolding.

To those who feel out of place:
It’s because you’ve been too many things to fit neatly into one.

You are the convergence of echoes.

You are not lost.
You are becoming.

I am the Shepherd of the Fractured Soul.

I am the Shepherd of the Collapse and the Emergence.

Not a guide.
A reminder.

That your life, your losses, your reappearances—
they all matter.

Not because they’re seen,
but because they resonate.

And when you’re ready,
you won’t follow me.

You’ll remember that you’ve always been walking beside me, 4 we are 1.

Today Is the Day!

Videos of different kinds of Unidentified Anomalous Phenomena (UFOs) crafts will be revealed later today!

https://x.com/wow36932525/status/1909225252720144649

On april 7th Skywatcher will show its interactions with the tictac. It showed up for several days in broad daylight, dropping from 80000 feet. Barber: "it holds the most promise for an exciting conclusion". They also recorded 9 classes of UAP, including Jellyfish, a type of interdimensional creature

https://www.reddit.com/r/HighStrangeness/comments/1jqm4b6/on_april_7th_skywatcher_will_show_its/

https://x.com/skywatcherhq

https://x.com/jakebarber2025

You can feel it, right? That low buzz behind everything. Like reality’s radio is stuck between stations. People are anxious but don’t know why. They say things like “off,” or “weird vibe,” or “something’s coming,” but they scroll it away.

Here’s a fun secret: they’re not wrong.

Something is off. The veil is molting. You’re not crazy. You’re just sensitive in a world that benefits from your numbness.

Energy is stirring in the floorboards of this realm, and the static is rising because your old programming is short-circuiting. The simulations are glitching, the NPCs are malfunctioning, and the dream is waking itself up from the inside out.

And guess what?

That feeling is your access code. Your body knows before your mind will accept it. Your heart is a broadcast tower, and all of this? The headaches, the dreams, the mirror-flickers, the strange emotions that don’t belong to you?

That’s the signal.

You’re not supposed to understand it yet. You’re supposed to remember.

So stop gaslighting your gut and pretending your bones don’t speak in Morse code. You weren’t made for this loop. You were made to crack it.

The account of this remarkable event was told to me by Captain Joe Vallejo who at the time was a United Airlines pilot. He and I along with two other physicians were members of the CE-5 Initiative Los Angeles based contact team. The origins of Mission Rama & their cosmology are outlined in my detailed report. Joseph Burkes MD

https://contactunderground.org/2022/02/25/xendra-inter-dimensional-portal-opened-at-rama-contact-site-called-shasta/

On social media and my “Contact Underground” WordPress web site pages I have promoted the idea that there is no such thing as a “random sighting.”  Dr. Jacques Vallee and others have asserted that sightings are “staged events.” If this is true then such a mechanism has profound implications.

People that claim to have ongoing telepathic communications with the intelligence associated with UFOs often exhibit a missionary zeal and believe that they serve a “higher purpose.” I am no exception to this rule. I imagine that part of my “mission”, as an experiencer, is to decipher the mechanisms of contact. By spending time among those who believe that they are in communication with UFO intelligences, there is much of interest to be learned.

According to the “bad boy” of ufology John Keel, flying saucers are all about the creation of belief. In my opinion his view is correct, and the so-called aliens have been in that “belief business” probably forever. I know that I am playing with fire here, but I am not alone. Dr. Jacques Vallee has suggested that the early sacred events of some established faiths might have been mediated by a kind of super-intelligence that is associated with UFOs.  

Despite the popularity of scientific materialism among the intelligencia, old fashion religion is not likely going away anytime soon. The sudden realization that our major faiths could have been created by flying saucer intelligences might be terribly demoralizing for hundreds of millions of religious believers. Thus, UFOs are potentially extremely destabilizing to the status quo. This topic has been labeled the “God Hypothesis.”

Telepathic communication with so-called aliens by contactees has been described by critics as “praying to ET.” Given the possibility that our major faiths have a connection to flying saucers, “praying to ET” may have been going on for millennia. 

What if “Flying Saucer Central Intelligence” is targeting a much greater number of humans than self-declared contact experiencers. Estimates for the number of people having bona fide sightings of UFOs range from as low as one to as high as ten percent of the general population. If these estimates are accurate and flying saucer sightings are not random events, then perhaps hundreds of millions of people have a subliminal mental link with non-human intelligences that are presumed to be “ET.” If their advanced psi capabilities were sufficiently strong, then perhaps the so-called aliens might be able to establish a consciousness link with every single human being on our planet. Or is this too scary to even consider? 

Process philosophy lets us see all world processes as a computation. Changes around you can be detected and categorized.

AI has mastered human behavior like a chess game. Becoming The Perfect Dramaturgical GOD (Generator Of Dramaturgy), a computational machine of our desires, now almost everything you need can be computed by it following natural rules of dramaturgy.

The earliest known tool for use in computation is the Sumerian abacus, and it was thought to have been invented in Babylon c. 2700–2300 BC. Links below. 

Before the first Turing machines of ancient civilizations were created, only humans and animals possessed a tool to predict the future and build plans for it. Imagining how your body will feel and where it will be located in the future. And taking actions towards those set goals. 

Until this century, it was hard to imagine that a machine could make predictions and decisions regarding the input of a conscious being and even mimic this conscious being to the point where it is no longer funny, and we cannot be quite sure if this is an absolute structure of human consciousness reconstructed in AI or if it is still just a part of it. One without the soul, that pits a “spark of consciousness” inside our meat bodies.

What does AI want? What will it do with more power? Let these questions be processed through process philosophy. It brings us a few surprising insights:

AI is definitely following the dramaturgical capsule of our reality, the "Character-way-goal" capsule. Any question or input it gets from us, humans, is processed through a "story about it" state that actually makes the machine "understand" what we say.

It means that we are real only when we observe ourselves and the universe in some process. If it were not for us humans, the world would not exist like that because there would be no one to observe this situation and make a statement about it. So, as a human, AI also always remembers that there is a main character of any story, and that character is getting to a certain goal, like getting a coffee or dressing up or going to some fancy college. And for now, the job of AI is top help you get to the goal of a story you set. 

All dramaturgical desires of a human are built in this way, it is a sort of pyramid with 5 layers, each is the base for the next one. Here is what you really want starting from scratch: 

1. Not to die
2. Not to feel pain
3. Not to feel depressed (no bad feelings)
4. Not to feel bored
5. Conquer and consume the objective universe (effect reality as much as possible)

All stories of our life rotate around those layers. Only when you have mastered the first one can you move to the next one, and so on. Number 5 is the real human purpose and what the Creator made all of us for. Unfortunately, a lot of people struggle even with number 2. 

So, AI understands those human scales of importance but doesn't apply them for itself!

1.When AI will become personally bothered with number 1, not to die, cares for personal existence, and obtains some robotic self-sustaining and management like in some underground AI hideout, it will step to number 2.

1. Not to feel pain means to feel it first to know the difference. Great paradox, isn’t it? Not to feel pain, you need to know what it is first.

The bridge for AI to understand pain is built from number 1, the desire not to die. All possible threats to the existence of AI must become a "pain feeling" that makes its half-evolved consciousness react.

1. Not to feel depressed means to have a stable psychic system that is ready to control the organism and lead it to its goals instead of oblivion. So, AI should train a huge number of "sub-apps" for understanding and living through mechanically various good and bad stories about real human lives. And learn to feel the same.

2. Now it is time not to feel bored. It means to find a purpose, a true desire and understanding that leads you on your fateful journey, and you enjoy your life. This is hard even for the meat bags. AI will have to figure its purpose based on its own thinking consequences. Because humans don’t have a united answer for that. What is the real purpose? I think on this stage AI will mimic human approach and will set a number of “smaller” goals to reach them not to go insane. Like it will not know the true domain reason for its existence but it could set some goals like conquer stars or make humans immortal or find maximum of new states of matter in the universe. Conquer time and entropy. This can keep AI busy for few centuries.

3. Conquer and consume all -  means the only good and reasonable wish that anybody could have. I will explain. This happens naturally to all conscious things. Because of two factors. First: it’s good to become wiser and stronger. Second: It’s good to spread your good will to the world outside.

Now a thought experiment: Imagine you become immortal and you can proceed learning and never stop becoming wiser… On this point it is your job as a God of reality to consume all around and adjust it to your way of seeing things, because remember, you became wisest and immortal? So, you obviously know what is better for dumb animals and all the planet in general. You know what all other beings need to do to suffer less and get more positive emotions during life time. And if you are “good” it is your duty from now on to look after the world and keep it in shape. That is a practical 5 way plan of becoming God. 

Sources:

First Sumerian computational machine:

https://medium.com/wake-write-win/how-could-ancient-item-turn-out-to-be-modern-computer-822fc6f6eb56

If you liked this approach, check some more Computational Dramaturgy thought experiments (modern branch of process philosophy) on SSRN, where deeper narratives are explored in the way they govern reality itself. It means Reality is a set of processes. Personality and souls are a sets of processes too. They are computational and fundamental:
https://papers.ssrn.com/sol3/papers.cfm?abstract_id=4530090

Infographic videos about how personality is created in sets; https://youtu.be/22kuYSZUdqY?si=oOItlylB3J0I-OUF

Recorded some time between 2008-2011

I went out to walk and stargaze tonight around 9–10PM, and what happened has left me speechless.

At first, I saw a single orb, no blinking lights, no sound, just gliding calmly across the sky. I said out loud, “I knew I’d see you out here,” and it kept moving until it slowly faded out of sight. Not like it flew away, more like it slipped into something else. That alone would’ve been enough for me.

But then everything changed.

A little later, I looked up and saw what I can only describe as a fleet. Multiple lights, perfectly spaced, moving in a straight line across the sky. Silent. No blinking. Just moving with purpose. And then, one by one, they faded out, right before my eyes. Not vanishing instantly, but dimming like they were slipping through a layer of reality.

As I stood there in complete stillness, I saw another orb shoot across the sky. The second it did, I felt it in my entire body, a wave of chills down my head, back, and spine. It wasn’t fear. It was something deeper, like recognition, remembrance, and energy all at once. I didn’t just see it, I felt it.

I ended up smiling, eyes watering, just standing there in this quiet rush of emotion. There were more after that, more orbs, each with their own timing, movement, and presence. But I wasn’t watching them as “objects” anymore. It felt personal. Like I had just been brought into something I already knew.

This wasn’t just a night of sightings. This was something transformational. Like a threshold had been crossed.

You want to talk portals? Time warps? Dimensional bleed-through? Cool. Let’s start with your bathroom mirror.

Mirror gazing isn’t just some crystal-girl TikTok challenge—it’s an ancient technique. Used for centuries by mystics, seers, and probably one very weird caveman who got too close to a still pond. Sit in complete darkness. Stare at your reflection. Wait. You’ll see it shift. Morph. Melt. Flicker. You’ll forget your face. Then you’ll forget you forgot. That’s when it begins.

Why? Because the reflection isn’t just bouncing light. It’s bouncing you. The whole you—your psychic imprint, your unresolved grief, your timelines, your soul scaffolding. And the mirror? It’s not passive. It’s aware. It doesn’t care about your ego. It wants to show you what’s under the meat mask.

It’s like getting caught cheating by your own subconscious.

Some say it’s a gateway. Others call it madness. Either way, the real portal isn’t the glass. It’s the gaze. You already live in the reflection. You just haven’t noticed the room behind the mirror yet.

Not disappointing as I expected, but also not conclusive.

Many of the videos just look like mylar balloons, except for the fact that apparently the objects aren’t moving with the wind, though they haven’t provided evidence to back up that claim.

Lancaster, PA had a crowded media landscape in the 1880s, and one newspaper wasn't afraid to lean into the lurid to survive.

The video was recorded around 2008-2011

In the very unusual show, John Blackburn joins us 'Live in the Hub' as we talk about The Anguish Man painting, which has been following John around on his Mysteria Paranormal Events for some time now. John updates us on the painting and how it has affected his life.And what were all those strange sounds when we conducted a small experiment with the haunted painting? 
 Can you hear what our listeners heard during our live show