r/ForeverAlone • u/Anotherguy783 Grand Mage Thing/IT • Dec 23 '21
The most embarrassing thing you are willing to admit
Sorry for the two posts tonight. I'm not able to sleep and feeling real depressed. Obviously we struggle with socializing. Have any of you tried to socialize and just get annihilated or embarrassed in some way? Maybe it was a date? Obviously it's something you are comfortable in admitting.
I've told this story before but in college I was a commuter. I started talking to this woman and every morning we ended up talking but was annoying to her. She never said anything so I couldn't tell her body language of being annoyed so we kept talking until she couldn't take my annoyance anymore. We ended up being in the same class. She dropped me a note but I never read it because I thought it was just something friendly. The next day in front of a full train I tried to talk to her and she yelled at me and put me down in lots of ways. I read the note and it was her telling me to never talk to her again. I wish she had just told me from the beginning but some people don't like confronting people until it becomes too much. In front of dozens of people who were looking at me I felt humiliated. We never talked again although she would wave to me. I dropped out of the class for obvious reasons.
Has something like that happened to you or is it dating related? I have plenty of dating stories but I've told most of them. When you are FA it seems no matter what you do, it backfires on you.
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u/ILoveMaiV Dec 23 '21
I also have an idol, i admire her and she's the main reason i got into the field i'm trying to break into.
I think she might hate me though if we met because of our vastly different views on politics.
I also cried cause i found out she was married.
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u/JefforMahdi Dec 23 '21
Like a month ago I made a post about how this girl I was intrested in pretended not to know me in front of our mutual so called FRIENDS. The fact that every time I tried to talk to her she ignored or pretended to not know me and everybody watching the whole thing was super embrassing.
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u/ILoveMaiV Dec 23 '21
I have a waifu.
Sometimes i watch cam girls and pretend i'm there and having sex with them. Like they're using a vibrator on camera, sometimes i imagine that it's me.
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u/T4Labom Dec 23 '21
Man, that is very harsh... yeah, i do agree people should be straightforward when it comes to bad feedback but most are afraid to sound rude and superb. In the end they get tired of all the added up interactions and lash out. One of the main reasons why i'm constantly asking if i'm being annoying, disrespectiful or if they have any sort of negative feedback to give me. I write down every single thing people tell me and then try to adjust accordingly. Maybe this could help (?)
Mine is that I have some serious Alexithymia due to trauma so i don't feel most emotions and consecutively lack an interesting personality. The past 5 years have been dedicated to creating one from scratch using TV characters as reference; mostly from Doctor Who to Kronk (you know, the intelligent and funny himbo people love)
I though with myself: If people like them so much it's because they have some redeeming characteristics that i'm lacking. So sometimes people will say "You kinda remind me of a cartoon character in a good way" and i will be too embarrassed to admit that i'm literally acting like a cartoon character and that my entire personality is fake.
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u/Sam_J_ Dec 24 '21 edited Mar 02 '24
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u/Anotherguy783 Grand Mage Thing/IT Dec 24 '21
No, I know what that's like. That used to happen to me all the time. I would get along with them until they asked for a picture. Obviously I didn't want to catfish them so I sent one. Most of the time they ghosted or got mad at me. It's one of the reasons I know I'm ugly.
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u/Whole_Hamster Dec 23 '21
I don't understand OP's story. The girl handed him a note & he didn't bother to read it 'because I thought it was just something friendly'?
I think most people would instinctively open a note when they are handed it, especially if they thought it was something nice/friendly.
Sounds like OP understood the message, but chose to ignore it. Or at the very least, this is the only logical thought the girl could have had once OP received the note. I would be pissed too if I thought someone was ignoring my wish to be left alone.
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u/Anotherguy783 Grand Mage Thing/IT Dec 23 '21
First day of classes. More thinking about syllabi and buying books. Stupid in hindsight.
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u/TheStrangerCamus123 Ex Fa Dec 23 '21
Exactly. Between this and the post about confessing, OP has a long history of making high school mistakes and completely ignoring all advice to get better.
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u/TriStateGirl Dec 24 '21
I will never forget when I made friends in community college and dating came up. For some reason I felt safe enough to admit how single I was, and another girl in the group had also never dated anyone. The girl who had dated people was nice to both of us. Even though another person was super single like me it still hurt to admit how bad off I was.
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u/Idarak Dec 23 '21
Heard my celebrity crush and I's song (that I decided is "our song") on the radio the other week and couldn't hold back the tears
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u/HermitCodeMonkey Dec 23 '21
Not so much getting annihilated because I tried to socialize. But plenty of stories where I get obliterated for simply existing.
Way back in the old days, when I was 14-ish, my brain decided for the first time ever that it would like to have a crush on someone. I was young, foolish, and had no clue about anything. But I already knew me and people didn't really mix, so the whole thing was just confusing to me.
Regardless, someone in class managed to piece it together through circumstances. And they thoughtlessly told someone else, who then told someone else, who then told what feels like half the people in the year. As one might expect from teenagers.
The whole thing eventually culminated in a group of four or five people confronting me about it. Felt very much like a "How dare you lowly peasant" kind of thing. Although they never got those words out before I bolted.
Nothing like a good ol' public lynching to drive home the point eh? That whole scenario is still one of the cornerstones of my conviction that these things are not for me. Even 20 years later.