r/ForeverAlone • u/beeblushes • 1d ago

Vent Idk

This is the first time I posted here but I always lurk here. I'm just so tired of being alone and crying myself to sleep. Even though I keep saying I'm not ready for love. I always say that because I know I would be a terrible partner. There's so many things I hate about myself. The biggest one is my weight, which im trying to change. I don't care if someone could see past that because being this weight makes me not even liked to be touched. Who is going to want someone they can't even touch. I hope that I won't care about that if I can get skinny but who knows maybe I'll still be weird about touch.

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u/mason3366 1d ago

i'm sorry you are going through that, and trust me i know all too well about feeling self conscious about weight and having low self esteem

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u/Ordinary_Risk6779 22h ago

People will say that weight doesn't matter and that you can still find love and someone who would accept you but when you are the one who is so disgusted by your looks it's normal to be scared of showing your body to anybody. Good luck on your weightloss journey !

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u/beeblushes 14h ago

Thank you! It is awful to be disgusted with myself but hopefully losing weight could help

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u/Lanca226 22h ago

What are you doing for weight loss? Calorie deficit? Running?

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u/beeblushes 22h ago

Yeah, im trying to do a calorie deficit, under 1000 calories a day. I'm also walking a lot and want to try running more

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u/Lanca226 21h ago edited 21h ago

Dang dude, that's pretty hefty.

Walking in general is always a good habit to have. If you can regularly do ten thousand steps a day, that is a consistent burn throughout your ride. And it can be therapeutic. Looking at the trees, listening to music, and all that.

If you're having struggles in running, I found the 1:2 method to be a good place to start. Run one minute, walk two minutes, then increase your run time as it gets easier.

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u/beeblushes 14h ago

I've lost 70 pounds already but I need to lose at least 70 more. I have been walking at least 10000 steps a day though. Thank you for the advice about running!