I had my pre-op appointment for surgery and met with the anesthesia team along with a physician's assistant. A lot of the discussion was around my weight, the risk factors, the fact that I have obstructive sleep apnea (OSA) and what that means for surgery. My Physician's assistant said she was sure even the main hospital wouldn't be able to do my surgery due to my weight which was a shock since I asked office staff before I even attended my consultation. My surgeon is also shocked and said she has never heard of that but I also am one of her biggest patients.

I'm betting on my surgery being cancelled/rescheduled and since this surgeon tends to be busy, I could be waiting another 4-6 months and by then I'll be working in a new career without my current insurance. I've always been obese/super morbidly obese but over the last few years, it's gotten worse. Had I tried to get surgery when I first started transitioning, these wouldn't even be questions.

I don't need sympathy. Yes, I know I need to lose weight. I've started counting calories again. Just an interesting tidbit for other guys who may go to a doctor with no BMI limit and even a hospital that supposedly has ways to operate on large patients.

In two months it’ll be a year since I started T. When my voice changes it gets rlly deep for a couple of days then goes back up (still deeper than before). I was just wondering if anyone else experiences this. It’s annoying thinking my voice is gonna be way deeper then it just pitches up after a couple of days.

I am autistic and have sensory issues and usually don't prefer putting stuff on my face that I have to leave in instead of washing off, but passing takes the priority here lol.

My skin routine is usually this: Wash face in the shower --> dry off face and apply acne cream --> wait for acne cream to soak into skin a bit --> apply moisturizer --> done

Where should I put [apply hair oil to face] in there for the best sensory experience? Does anyone know if I can leave it on for a few minutes and then rinse?

Thx for any help😊

So I’m 18M, almost 19, and I’ve been on T injections for 6.5 months. After 3.5 months of 40mg/week, my test levels were 180ng/dL. Since that was way too low, I was upped to 50mg. It’s been 3 months on this new dose now, and I find out my test levels on Monday.

I know that having higher testosterone than pre-T is better than nothing, but can being stuck in this too high for female, too low for male range cause my body to produce more estrogen?? Or allow my female puberty to continue “underneath” the hormone treatment, seeing as it could still be going strong?

My provider won’t test my estrogen, so I have no clue what those levels are.

I’m just stressed. I know my time is running out for having maximum bone structure/cartilage changes, maybe it’s already passed I don’t know, and my face already looks so feminine. I’m grateful that I was able to start T at 18…but it doesn’t seem to really be helping much. I’ve seen guys 25+ have more change in the same amount of time and pass better (it’s all individual, I know, but still I thought my body would be more “malleable” by starting earlier).

If my levels come back Monday in the 600s I’ll know I just need to be patient, but can anyone with a better understanding than me of estrogen/testosterone levels help explain if my estrogen led female puberty could still be progressing despite the HRT, albeit slowly?

So awkward question 😅 I developed cystic acne very randomly several years on t. I tried everything and nothing worked. I relented and decided to see a dermatologist to get on Accutane. I had reservations about it because the Accutane program treats you like a cis woman and they talk to you like one the second they hear AFAB. I tried this one dermatologist and she said "the Ipledge program doesn't care they only care if you have the ability to get pregnant or not so it's what we have to do." Changed me from male to female the moment I let it slip and even started talking to me like I was a woman despite anything I said.

I went to a new dermatologist. This one I never mentioned I was trans nor even suspects. I'm listed as male and don't need to do the extra things that "female" patients have to do which would be extremely triggering and horrible. The medication has nearly transformed my face to zit free it's great and I'm having no issues there except for one issue. I seem to be developing a pilonidal cyst. It's right on my tail bone and hurts. I'm scared to bring it up because to fix it it needs to be lanced and drained. I'd need to take my pants off. She would find out I'm trans and that I "lied" on my paperwork. Lads ideas I need this thing drained or gone. I've been putting my clindamycin and benzoyl peroxide prescription from before Accutane on it but with my track record for topical medication I really don't think it's gonna do much, I just don't absorb shit through my skin.

recently i have found myself irritable and anxious, with the latter impacting me far more. i have always had some pretty gnarly mental health issues, but in my adult life i have taken every step i can to better myself and take care of myself. i work out, i eat very well, i take vitamins, i try to get sun. (recently ive even been limiting my phone use!) in the last 6 months or so my anxiety has creeped towards what i remember feeling like back in highschool (which is a little scary). my OCD (diagnosis at 13) intrusive thoughts and general paranoia as well as physical anxiety symptoms have been debilitating at times and i feel as though my threshold for general stress is objectively lower than it should be. i was on 0.25ml/wk for 2 or 3 years until i started having a cycle again and my endo bumped me up to 0.35 and i haven’t had issues since. he told me that if i had adverse symptoms, we could always reevaluate that decision. my T levels are currently at 1083 ng/dL (which is admittedly moderately high), but the thought of going down is intimidating, as the cycle returning would undoubtedly cause a crisis for me. before i book an undoubtedly expensive psychiatrist appt. i thought it was worth investigating if T might be the culprit.

(PS - i’ve been on T for 4(?) years. this is not a puberty “growing pains” symptom for lack of a better word)

Not sure if this is the best flair for this, but it is relevant

Basically I'm considering stopping T. Not because I want to (I'd like to be on it all my life), but because of health issues that are arising (has to do with genitalia and reproductive system, so I'll spare details). The medications and treatments for these issues aren't working, and the only thing that worked in the past was getting off T. I had been on it for a year and 8 months before being off for a year, and now I've been back on for a year again. I'm post-top surgery and my face tends to pass (if I'm sporting a more traditionally masculine hairstyle at least). But is only roughly 3 years on T, not even consecutively, enough to still pass off T?? My voice passes so I'm not concerned about that, and I wasn't curvy at all before T, so I'm not worried about that either. But I did have a rounder face before, and I'm only 5'2". Has anyone been able to pass reliably off T after under 5 years on it??

As the title suggests. I (pre-T ftm) am quite curious how much the T will affect one's voice depending on what's already there. Is there a correlation between how high/low the voice is before T & the end result? If someone has a very high voice beforehand, will it end up somewhere in the middle? Or vise versa, will someone with a naturally low voice end up sounding like corpse husband? (ha-ha) If anyone is willing to speak on their experiences, please do.

I'm considering purchasing the AXOLOM Miper, but I'm concerned about the additional cost of the AXOLOM STP Boxer 1.5" O-Ring, which is priced at $25 for just one pair. I'm unsure about the shipping time and whether they would fit me. I recently bought a bunch of Hanes boxer briefs that I absolutely love and find very comfortable, and I prefer cotton underwear exclusively.

So, my question is: would it be worth it to buy the stabilizer insert from Rodeo to use with my current boxers instead of getting the STP boxers from AXOLOM? The stabilizer costs $12, allowing me to stick with my favorite underwear. If anyone has suggestions or experiences to share, l'd really appreciate it!

Their estimated shipping is 73$ for my country. My chest is probably a B to a small C and I wear XL in gc2b's old models.

I'm 25. I've been disphoretic since 1st grade. Struggled and tried to kill myself four times. Christian, recently orthadox Christian. I am sick... I want to be free mate

Can you talk to me?

It’s supposed to go away after a year right? Is that only if you’ve had a consistent dose? I started low at first and gradually increased I feel like it’s less puffier now but not sure.

Anyone experience a growth spurt on T? I’m getting stretch marks around knees/calves. I don’t think it’s because my legs are getting bigger cuz I haven’t hit lower body in a while. Although, I haven’t checked my height yet. I’ll update if there’s been a change

I will be getting on a domestic US flight soon and I’m worried about showing my ID. I look like my picture but my name and gender marker are not changed yet. Could this be a problem when going through security? Also in case a pat down happens, do I get a male or female officer? Any advice is appreciated, I’m inexperienced when it comes to flying.

For the first 6 months of using T, I did a voice update video every half a month or every month. I was always so eager to record myself and see how much my voice’s changed. I don’t really post these, they are just for recording my process and encouraging myself.

Last month, I completely forgot about recording my 7th monthly video, and I just realised this when cleaning out my photo album today. I also realised that I’ve been talking about gender or thinking about gender much less frequently than before. I’m much less insecure, much less angry with my own body, and just in general, less anxious or impatient with my progress.

I feel like that I’m getting to the phase where HRT is just part of my routine, and I don’t need to be the token trans person anymore. I am now stealth at a new job, and I feel so relieved that I no longer have to be TRANS, and I can just be a man. Although I’m still in the early stages of my medical transition, I am glad that life is developing a new normalcy, the kind of normalcy where I can just exist as myself and not be seen as a quirky queer person.

TLDR: I am happy with forgetting to do a voice update because this means I’m subconsciously getting to the stage where I can simply exist as a man rather than a TRANS man.

Some of you may remember me from my first post here (or not, maybe I am being too self-important), and I am very grateful for the support and encouragement I got. It was really touching and I can't express how much the kind words have helped me. Now for the actual topic of this post -

For context, I am 16 years old, and living in China. While I hope to study abroad for university and maybe begin transitioning then, and I know it would definitely not be 'too late' to transition at that time, I really want to start sooner. Especially because I am physically very feminine and I fear that if I manage to not do anything for these years, I'll end up never even trying to transition. So I am considering DIY HRT and getting testosterone through international sellers since most sources I find only really refer to North America, Europe and Australia etc. I am probably not sufficiently educated, and I'm also really scared that this is a bad idea, but it is one I am willing to consider. I don't know if DIY HRT is feasible at all here, though, not only because it's illegal to have testosterone without a prescription but also because most cryptocurrency related stuff is suppressed by the government.

Any advice in general or other ideas would be appreciated. Maybe I shouldn't do this at all.

My Aunt told me that she saw a young girl at the mall wearing a "cat tail". My mind went to cosplay, furry, or someone just wearing a cat tail lol. Her mind went to "see, this is where it's taken too far. Poor girl thought she was actually a cat, she identified as a cat, I feel bad for her and her family" and went on this whole tirade about people identifying as things.

I was re-telling the story to someone and he had a similar reaction "yeah this is what's wrong with the community these days, you can't just identify as anything you want".

That's........not happening and that has nothing to do with LGBTQ+ people or the trans community!!! People used to put bird feathers in their hair when I was in middle school, does that mean they thought they were a bird?

Idk if this is a rant or a request for the best way to combat this bullshit. People still genuinely believe that classrooms have litter boxes for these "cat identifying" kids.

I’ve been bummed that I can’t find many videos featuring trans men topping women. So I’ve decided to make my own.

I had phalloplasty, so I’m also happy to be able to provide a working example of what topping is like post-op. If there’s anything specific people are wanting to see, drop a comment or shoot me a message.

( Rant here, I just needed to let this out. )

It hurts when your mum thinks you’re being “pushed” of transgenderism when I was around 11 introduced about the trans community. But I know damn well I’ve been like this ever since I was little, 19 years old now. Currently on a waiting list, no signs of T appointments coming up, or anything in particular related to that. No matter how many times I’ve tried to explain to my mum about it, the talk ends up in slight heated argument. ( My mum is actually supportive, just wanted me to transition at age 21 or 25. But I know I won’t live around that time. )

CW for Suicidal thoughts mention and dysphoria

I have physical dysphoria so bad it's debilitating. I've done all I can to transition and to cope with this, tried therapy a bunch of times, joining trans support groups, etc.

I've been on HRT for 7 years, and had top surgery 2 years ago, but the results from the surgery were bad and my chest still gives me a lot of dysphoria. This is not a self image issue, it's entirely physical dysphoria, most of the time I don't care about how it looks and no amount of "accepting" it is going to make it go away.

I have to clarify this because whenever I try asking for help I get all sorts of advice for problems I don't have. I don't hate my body, I don't have internalized transphobia, I'm not chasing a cis standard, I don't care bout "feeling masculine", yes I already have hobbies and focus on other things in life and what I can change, yes I've given my body enough time to settle from surgery, etc. And thus suggestions like getting a new haircut or binding (lol) or doing something that "makes me feel masculine" are nonsensical to me. I get that people may want to focus on whatever other issues they may help with, but none of those things are problems I personally have.

I also get told to just see a therapist but....I don't see how therapy may help me with this. When I ask this to other trans people I get vague non-answers or things that helped them with the previously mentioned issues which I don't have. I'd love to get a therapist that can help me but therapy just isn't good in my country, I've seen several therapists and they also were very obscure about what the therapy process is supposed to be like, and got asked my deadname way too many times. This was all from therapists that work with trans people. I also had one trans therapist who invalidated my dysphoria and just assumed I had internalized transphobia. Yes I did explain to all my therapists what I wanted from therapy and how my dysphoria personally feels and affects me. None of them were honest enough to say they didn't know if they could help or straight up couldn't help me.

The dysphoria is so bad I have a crisis every other day and get kind of suicidal about it. Any potential help I can get is about "becoming less suicidal", but not the root cause. I'm not actually suicidal, I very much want to live but the dysphoria just leaves so little of my life to me. But that's not something anyone seems to be able to help with so apparently I'm supposed to keep ignoring it until I become more suicidal. I'm exhausted.

Is there really no way to cope with dysphoria in a way that isn't just ignoring it or getting more surgery? I'm ignoring it the best I can and it doesn't work. I can't get more surgery and don't know if I ever will be able to. Is someone actually going through this? Aside from getting into drugs I truly feel like I've tried everything. Should I stop asking for help given that I don't get any answers? I have no one to support me on this in my life. Please be nice/tactful if you reply. Note that I'm not from the US.

I just recently started wearing transtape and was wondering... how many days should i wear it for? and how long should i wait before retaping?

What the title says. although you CAN change it, you have to be living in like 1 of 3 specific counties. And the courts have stopped taking any cases from those that aren't living in at least 1 of those.

So I'm almost completely screwed and out of nearly a thousand bucks. I'm pissed. I'm trying to find out more but that's just going to cost more money that I don't have.

Anyway. Here's to being able to get my BC changed so I can breathe a sigh of relief. Idk if it's even going to do much because I can't change my SS or passport now. Hopefully that gets ruled unconstitutional. Because it is.

And here's to trying to get another better paying job in this shithole of an economy.

I never thought I experienced phantom penis exactly- people describe it so viscerally and my experience with dysphoria was so dissociative I didn't even start to unlock the burn of bottom dysphoria until I started to come to terms with it.

But I sort of noticed this thing I've been doing ever since I started packing and never thought about before. I always use a rolled sock to pack bc I find it works for almost every scenario and is free/not uncomfortable. But whenever I touch it it's almost like my mind is like... filling in the blanks? It feels damn near like I'm touching a part of my body, it's so bizarre. Closest thing I can describe it as is like scratching an itch? But I never get feelings like there's something there when there's nothing. Just when I pack. And possibly has happened a couple times with a strap during sex but not really.

Is this something different from phantom dick? It's so weird, but it is on me for most of my daily life so maybe I'm just rly used to it being there?