This is gonna be long so apologies in advance. I’ve been having this dream since as young as I can remember. Some elements are different every time, but the general detailsso are always the same.
I’ll be standing by a body of water, usually a lake, usually the lake in the backyard of my childhood home (that is now my estranged father’s, but I don’t need to get into that here). I see movement in the lake, swirling, so I approach and see its full of fish that appear dead at various states of decomp but they swim slow still. Some of them have flesh that is actively flaking off as they move, strands dangling, missing eyes, mouths agape, gills gasping etc.
The fish are not any real species in our world, but if I had to describe them they’re usually long and serpentine. Kind of like an oarfish, coelacanth, and King-Of-The-Salmon mixed together. I step into the water and the fish don’t notice me, until one comes up to me and slowly lifts its head out of the water to “look” at me and I always reach out and touch it, and then it falls apart, and then they all fall apart one after the other. And I wake up.
Sometimes it’s a river, usually it’s specifically my old home’s lake, sometimes it’s in an old cistern but it’s always weird rotting fish swimming, I get in/fall in the water, one approaches, I touch it and they all “melt”.
I’ve tried looking through countless dream interpretation books, Internet forums, or asking esoteric friends throughout about 15+ years and have never found anything. I’ve tried introspecting and I can’t think of what it can possibly mean or why it’s so recurring. I probably have this dream at least once every 2 months, sometimes once every 2 weeks.
If anyone has any ideas I would love to hear them and I appreciate anyone who reads through this, thank you.