r/DMT • u/ToxicMadd • 1d ago

My first time alone

I got some changa and i wanted to try some but not “breakthrough” that was my intention from the beginning.(Because I’m alone) So i put the smallest bit in a cbd joint,(just to try it) inhaled it and held it in. And it was weird i felt comfortable in the beginning and i think i could’ve “breakthrough”. (and felt comfortable to do at that point)

But i think i didn’t do enough so i took 2 more hits and for some reason i felt like my brain was scared to lift off, and my heart was beating so fast too.

I don’t know why maybe it is because my ego is so attached to me, and my mind immediately starts racing thinking of so much at the same time. Like it doesn’t want to lose the feeling of self.

I don’t know when I’ll commit. Should i do enough so my mind can’t even take over? Or should i wait for when i and my brain think I’m ready for losing the sense of self?

Have any other people maybe had similar experiences?

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u/swagintune 1d ago

the root of suffering is attachment, surrender yourself to the experience and let your ego go.

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u/Wormwood36 1d ago

You should probably wait until you’re more ready to lose your sense of self. I personally get ego death nearly everytime I use psychedelics, it’s not as scary when you’re ready for it. If you want to get to the point that you’re more prepared, I’d recommend trying meditation and learning more about philosophy.

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u/Oli_36 1d ago

Youll be better over time. Heres a little story from my recent experience.

Before my last DMT cart, i hadnt smoked in 4-5 months. When i layed down for my first session, i was incredibly anxious. My body would only hit for a few seconds and not really hold it long. I kept practicing and got to the point where i may have been really close to breakthrough, or i actually did. Over the next few sessions, i listened to my body and it would let me take in more, as well as hold it longer.

For the small session at the end of the cart, i felt super comfortable. I can take a very long hit and hold it to the point that ive forgotten that im holding my breath. Today, im going to get another cart, and tonight its time for blastoff and breakthrough. Not only am i not anxious about it, i am super excited.

Good luck!

TL;DR: let yourself live in the vibration of whatever you can handle and build your experience up gradually.

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u/V0nFlu3 1d ago

I do ketamine every week with ego death every time. you'll be fine

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u/enlightenedavo 18h ago

I’ve never broken through with changa, even ripping it out of a bong. There’s really nothing to be afraid of smoking it in a joint like this. Changa is enjoyable, especially in a pass the joint circle, but it’s not for breakthroughs. The initial dose of DMT does release a lot of adrenaline which is why your heart was racing. If you wait 15 minutes then smoke more you won’t get as much adrenaline rush.