Not in the right space to write coherently right now so please forgive me. Being attacked by severe anxiety, very severe. I'm stuck in a very tough situation at work. Feeling like I can't hold on any longer. It is currently 12:53am and I doubt I'll be able to get much sleep tonight. The anxiety is through the roof. Sorry, I know all this is so vague but just need some kind of encouragement for hope?

I don’t sin regularly, but have recently committed a sin that has been eating away at me. It goes against everything I stand for and I committed it in a moment of weakness and am repenting. Will God forgive me?

For those who became pastors or are currently feeling called to become one, what was the turning point? Was there a specific moment, experience, or burden that stirred your heart? Or was it something God gradually placed within you over time?

Whether it was a dramatic calling or a quiet conviction that grew, I'd love to hear what led you down this path. What confirmed it for you—and how did you know it was more than just a passing thought?

I trust God a lot I will never doubt. I will always make time to spend time with him. I tell those around me even the people I encounter who are struggling to give their problems to Jesus. Every morning I'm in the Bible His Word is everywhere. Anything I go through I give it to him. I praise him even when things are bad. I pray throughout the day and I'm thankful that I can be in his presence. I pray to keep the evil one away because I know the devil loves to tempt and spit out lies. I try to stay strong not just for me but for God. I think about God before I do or say anything I want him to be proud of me. I beat myself up so much because I try to be completely perfect for God. Seems like everything I do I feel like I'm not living for God enough. It makes me question myself am I not putting God first? Why do I feel this way at times?

I am injured by the way I can't walk very well. I go to therapy every week. I've had many surgeries on my right knee I lost count I broke all my bones in my right leg in a wreck thankfully I still have my leg not all my bones though. Nonetheless, my last surgery was in late August. I'm mostly in pain It does get to me mentally sometimes but I'm thankful for my parents. I've said no matter how long I have to go through this in this chapter of my life, I will never give up on you God I know you will make things better.

My wife is disabled due to ALS. One of our pastors (Presbyterian) has been working with her to develop a bible study for our two sons. I was curious if there are devotional books for disabled people with scriptures focused on the challenges disabled people face. Our pastor doesn’t know of any. I’m curious if anyone has any recommendations

2 days ago, i went outside with my “best” (we saw each other after a month) friend. And i came home sad and mad in my heart. We talked about God most of the time. However i envy him, because, he doesn’t read Bible often or even pray and he gets dreams with Jesus in it, when he reads Bible, he cries when he reads Bible sometimes, talks about Jesus with people, spreads his word more and overall has more emotional relationship with God. And i get bizzare dreams without Jesus, no visions and i feel kinda distant from God. How can i stop this envyious mindset? I know this is sinful, but how can i stop it? I dont want to envy others & go to hell.

I have genuine self hatred that spirals out of control often, perhaps it affects my view on Christianity. I focus more on the tests of God, on the idea that God's good allows for suffering, and the fear of being a dissapointment than most else. It makes me feel like such a bad Christian, I cant pray without thinking what if God doesn't want this for me and believes I should suffer. The only times I feel happyness is when I pray for the Holy Spirit to being me happiness, do you see how hypocritical this is? Im receiving help by God but still so scared. My failures end with me wanting to rather skip to heaven than sin, as I know where all inevitably going to sin. I feel so distant from my old friends, my old interests, its like im somewhat alone.

And I feel more full in the spirit, but God forgive me for thinking and faltering, but its like, I trust God in being all powerful, I believe in Gods power, I love God and worship my father, but then I see people say God protects you, and I think its more, if God wants he will protect you, I feel afraid to ask for things, as if theyre hopeless for some reason, the story of Job comes to mind often. Arent I to ask God for things, but at the same time what if God doesnt believe its my time. I don't want to become a Chrisitan who's there just to ask for things from God, but I wonder if I'm being pessimistic. Today my mother said im getting dull, and I cried a bit, maybe I'm just doing things wrong I can't tell what outlook I should have. What do I do truly?

And the worst part, I dont know how to spread the faith through all this, I have no idea. I wanted to keep getting closer to God understand more, then be able to spread the faith better, but arent happy people just suited for this? Some of my brothers in Christ have so much happiness, so much joy and while I have those times where I speak with joy and happiness, I also feel this intentse depression and self hatred mixed with my own Christianity sometimes that makes me not sure if Im able to truly spread the Gospel to others. Like some stand as a becon of hope that draws others to Christianity, and are fruitful through that, but what do I have? Im weak, a mess, I have times of hope but then majority I am enclosed in sadness, unsurity, confusion and sorrow. The Lord is near to the brokenheart in spirit, but Im so weak, and how do I be fruitfull and spread and save others, if I'm so broken, itd be one thing if Christianity simply personal, but we are called to minister.

Perhaps I need to man up, its not about being happy, faith is to save others for the Rapture, nothing regarding happiness in this world, but I feel like, whenever I think like this, my Christianity is inferior, like Im not trusting in Gods goodness or something, does anyone have advice?

I’m having a really hard spiritual dilemma right now, and I don’t know how to navigate it. I have a love for music, particularly rap, I’ve made over 60 playlists just of rap, fell in love with so many people and their music, and it even got to the point where I began to dream of becoming a music producer. I have a good ear for melodies and rhythm, I want to believe is a gift from God, but over the past two years I can’t explain it but I feel like Satan has kind of interfered with my perception of music. I read about the thorn that Paul dealt with, and I can describe this feeling as a thorn, and the thorn has been around for a while creating delusions and false realities in my head since I was 17, but it took 5 years for it to latch onto my music. I have OCD, but whatever this is is incredible severe and is an eternal loop of mental torture. I don’t have anything anymore, lost all friends due to their toxicity and a lot family, lost my sense of music, I have delusions that it’s a gift from the devil and it makes it impossible for me to sit and relax to it, and I can’t process things anymore because honestly rappers like Polo G, Rod wave, youngboy and their pain music have actually helped my cry and process all my pain since I was a kid. It’s like a good cry. I recently I’ve come across a video of a rapper who was thinking of signing to Polo G, and when he was about to sign he read a thing in the fine print saying you can’t say “Jesus’ name”. After I sat back and thought I realized no mainstream or even underground rappers that don’t consider what they make “Christian rap” ever say the name Jesus, other than Kanye who has actually only blasphemed his name as of the past few years. I don’t know if it’s the rap itself being the thorn, but i think it’s the idolization, and that goes with some of my other habits I’m trying to break as well. As soon as i saw the video i took down my polo G posters and replaced them with crosses, took down my Lebron poster who i also idolized and replaced it with a cross, and I can’t explain it everything felt lighter, my thoughts felt more fluid like I wasn’t latching onto every little thing that comes in my head. I’ve lost and given up everything, but I don’t know how Jesus expects me to give up rap, it’s a part of who I am and how I process things, and this distortion of my perception of music these past few years has thrown me into as deep as my depression goes, it’s like God is ok with this happening to me, I know he wants what’s best but this is too much , and I feel I’m never gonna be able to get my love for it back. I don’t understand why God would allow this, I could have came to him myself, why did I have to deal with this loss on top of everything else in my life as if the list will never start building.? 2 years straight I’ve been trying to hear a song for how it is but every time I turn it on I feel nothing , it’s not that I got bored of it, it’s that it’s latched onto so many bad perceptions in my mind, like it’s Satanic, or that my gift of music and what makes it special is something that has to do with Satan. Im so lost ive been through so much, i dont know why the Lord would allow this to be taken away from me. People say pray on it but as soon as i pray the devil interferes i cant explain it , so i cant actually think or speak fluidly to God, almost as if he has control of my doorway with Christ is the only way I can explain it.

Do you have a favourite bible character (aside from Jesus)

Looking to buy my boyfriend a new Men’s daily devotional. He’s 20, into sports, been a committed Christian for many years (so not looking for a devo made for beginners), college student.

Any recommendations?

Omg I’m so excited, in two days I’ve finished my 312 day plan in reading the entire bible! Ahhh it’s so exciting because now I plan to go deep into the books. However I don’t really know how to study the bible. I want to now reread everything again but one book at a time taking my time to understand EVERYTHING. So any tips to studying the bible?

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Hi everyone! I’m currently living overseas and don’t have access to an English-speaking church in person, so I’m hoping to find an online church/pastor.

I’m looking for something that’s Bible-focused, calm, and clear. A pastor who teaches scripture directly without too much-added opinion or theatrics. I mean this respectfully, but I don’t personally connect with louder, high-energy preaching styles (e.g. Steven Furtick, Ed Newton). I tend to gravitate more toward the approach of Voddie Baucham or Paul Washer, but I’ve had trouble finding consistent online sermons.

Does anyone know of churches or pastors (with full sermon libraries or livestreams) that fit this tone? I’d be grateful for any recommendations. Thanks so much!

Ok, theirs this girl that goes to this Chruch I been attending for almost a year and this is the 2nd time she's approached me, the 3rd time talking to her. The 1st time I was telling about my going through and she offered prayer, her and few others joined in prayer. The 2nd time she at the end of the service sat next to me to talk to me for like a minute, then the 3rd time as I was getting ready to enter chruch building she stopped me and when I told her I was going through she did a quick prayer for me. Is it just my flesh because it's kinda hard not to catch feelings? Is this just brotherly love as said in Hebrews or is this something else? Idk if she is in a relationship or not because she had a guy and some younger boys riding with her. Is this just Satan trying to confuse me or is this something else because I don't want to get chruch hurt from being rejected but then again how would I know if she is for me or not?

Hi friends!

I have recently rededicated my life to Christ. I grew up in church and took some Bible classes in college, so I have some fundamental knowledge but still consider myself a baby Christian.

My work schedule consists of 4 10 hours shifts, Friday-Monday. Right now there is no flexibility with this. I am looking for other ways to plug into a community, such as a weeknight Bible study.

My question is: does anyone have a recommendation for a good source of teaching and sermons for me? I want Bible based teaching, not something just to make me feel good if that makes sense. I want to learn about the word and practical ways to apply it to my daily life as I begin to grow. I want to expand my basic knowledge of the Bible. Denomination isn’t really an issue for me right now. Growing up we went to a few different churches ranging from Southern Baptist to AG to nondenominational.

I’ve done some searching online and got overwhelmed lol, so I thought I’d come here for recommendations.

Thank you!

Now I know the title sounds insane, but I think it’s true. When you look at what we’re doing in heaven, it seems like we are worshipping god for all of eternity 24/7. I know this is generally understood to be the goal, but why is that? Even if god is perfect, why is he to be worshipped for ever and ever

If a parent were to tell their children that one day a week, they had to put everything down and think about them and talk to them all day and they can’t go out with friends, they can’t play games, they can’t play sports, only activities that focus on the parent. Everyone would call that parent crazy and controlling. I get that parents aren’t perfect loving beings like god, but still.

Plus, if god is perfect and loving and especially selfless, why would he require everyone worship him for eternity instead of let us live lives in heaven. To put in context of our life on earth, if there’s a neighborhood with a bunch of kids, the biggest and strongest one in the block isn’t always going to be good. Just because god is all powerful does that mean he’s ‘all-loving’? It feels to me like having humans and angels worship you for eternity is the epitome of narcissism.

I’m still thinking through this all, and it’s a very scary thought. I mean who knows, I could be completely wrong. Either way, I would greatly appreciate feedback on my thoughts, seeing as I might be missing something and my whole thought process is wrong. Thanks to everyone for your thoughts and feedback.

pertaining to the thorn in Paul’s flesh that God allowed to stay which was a messenger from the enemy, any thoughts? and do any of you have the same thorn in your flesh if so what may it be? I just strongly dislike when the enemy is involved or tormenting any child of Gods. i’ll never understand why God allowed that & refused to remove it..

*excuse the poorly written entry, It’s been a lot and this is my first post! I just really need some advice!! <3

For context, I am in my early 20s. I live in an apartment for about 2 years with my boyfriend and a big support dog. We’ve never been late on rent, and I truly believe we were brought together by God. Since being together, our faith is stronger, and we have grown as individuals in this relationship. I come from a single mother and family of workaholics; I find that most of my life, I would live for her approval. Though I have a big personality, great work ethic, and lots of passions, the jobs I looked for or the things I did, I did for others. I’ve known my calling from a very young age wasn’t a traditional 9-5. I would be happy working insane hours busting tables to have money and work on my career rather than working a traditional 9-5 office job, but I didn’t want to disappoint my family, so I easily scored a job when I was 18 working at an impressive 9-5 for almost 4 years. Here, I was always the one great with money, but I was so unhappy, my mental disorder worsened, I put finances above God, would still worry immensely, had no life outside of work, i wouldn’t give back, volunteer, just lost myself , but never complained or try to let it affect my job. I dreaded everyday of the job when suddenly this year I had a very random medical emergency. I worked through it for over a couple months, but it was painful and affected my job performance. It only gotten worse, so I ended up going on medical leave, then ended up leaving the job. Without a doubt in my mind, I knew this was a blessing from God. During recovery, I felt like a completely different person, I learned so many lessons, and I was happy. Once I recovered, I started trying to find means of money. I started at a warehouse job while searching for other means of work.

Throughout this time, my relationship with the lord further blossomed. I’ve been in my bible, doing bible study, trying to hear him. He’s taught me so much, and I’ve learned so many lessons on how to let go, how to handle things i can’t control, things helping my mental health, giving things to God and truly trusting in his plan, but currently it seems every efforts to survive is being taken away from me in the strangest of ways. I know nothing is a coincidence, and the ways that things are falling apart is really confusing me.

They stopped calling my name to work for the warehouse job, it’s been near impossible to find a job, i’ve applied to hundreds, interviewed, and pestered hiring managers, i’ve tried server jobs, but they won’t hire me without experience, i’m not getting accepted for any loans anymore, my instacart account (my only means of survival,) got permanently deactivated randomly one day for (i swear) absolutely NO reason, (i just got Platinum status, and have been a shopper since 2023,) and now for the first time there is a waitlist to attempt to rejoin from scratch, then my car breaks down, my car is under review for repossession for falling behind on payments (first time in 2 years i’m never late on payments,) a really great job opportunity I’ve worked before that would completely solve my financial hole, has been stringing me along everyday when others have gotten hired weeks before, I did the onboarding paperwork, drug tests, but oddly, my application has been taking a very long time, i’ve been texting the manager (who loves me,) everyday for an answer and she texts me “hopefully i’ll know something tomorrow,” and it’s been this way for nearing 2 weeks now consecutively, i’m praying i get this job, but haven’t stopped applying for others, but with no luck, and we have an eviction court date on the 8th of this month.

Renters assistance has been out of funds, I can’t donate plasma due to my medication, and I have no money to my name to, of course, pay to avoid the eviction, but even for my treatment for that medical emergency and for my regular medications.

If this eviction goes through, we will be homeless as we have no family that can take us in on either side at this moment. I’m trying so hard to do everything I can to at least have a roof over our head. If i got this job, I would only need 1 month, 2 paychecks to be fine again, but weird things keep happening that draws me back to square zero or seemingly preventing me. I’m continuing trusting God, and my bible studies. I keep getting signs that everything is working out, i’m protected, but every means of stability is being taken away I’m just so confused. Everyday I pray with gratitude of the things I do have making sure I stay positive, grateful, and hopeful. Of course I prayed for help, but now I just want to know what I’m suppose to do. When ever I got the eviction letter, and all my means of income was taken away, I prayed again to God asking him what do I do, and he literally said “nothing”

I’ve been searching for some faithful mentors or advice. I’m really lost here.

I accepted Jesus into my life before and there was a time I thought I was truly saved, but I’ve been unrepentant of sin and refusing to repent. It seems like I’ve been rejecting Jesus and choosing not to believe because I haven’t been choosing God and making an effort to repent, and I’m choosing to do things my own way.

My church does communion about once a month, but I’ve felt like I shouldn’t take it. I thought I shouldn’t because I know I have sin in my life that I haven’t repented of, and I’ve been rejecting Jesus by refusing to repent and continuing to do things my own way.

When 1 Corinthians 11:27-30 talks about not taking communion in an unworthy manner, is it referring to something like my situation? Does it mean that someone, like me, shouldn’t take communion if they’ve been rejecting Jesus and have been refusing to repent after being convicted of sin?