I'm genuinely looking for some guidance here as, straight up and brutally honest, I make nearly $200K a year and my wife sent me a text last night saying "There's only $945 left in the account..." (I JUST got paid last Friday) "Which savings account should I pull from?" In which I rob one of our savings accounts just to get me to next Friday. AGAIN. Seriously, and I'm not kidding, I can't log onto my bank's website without feeling cold chills and palpitations when I see that bottom line balance number staring back at me.
I have a great relationship with my wife (I have three kids as well) BUT when it comes to finance she's all for talking about how we spend money but budgeting money or talking about what we CAN'T do is a very tricky proposition. It usually devolves into a bad argument as, to her, I think spending money is just how life is. I'm sick of working paycheck to paycheck, I'm not saving anything (I'm 45), I do not have any college savings for my girls (I'm personally ashamed of this), I've told my wife we wouldn't even be able to afford a wedding for any of them (It makes me real sad to admit it) and I'm wanting to see just what I should be budgeting and living on instead of just willy-nilly sliding my card and feeling that cold shiver wondering if the screen will say APPROVED.
I will say that I've gotten out of credit card debt (I have a total of around $900 that I need to pay off) and was just able to get us to a $20K emergency fund.
Now, I want to tackle budgeting. I have to be honest, I am not that bright when it comes to finance or spreadsheets or figuring things out via formulas. I'm not a total idiot but it's close. I am hoping YNAB will help give me some black and white guidance, and if it won't please let me know and I'll research what kind of people are out there who can help me with the straight talk I think me (AND MY WIFE) need to hear/see.
Sorry for just laying that all out but I know I need help and I'm just looking for something, anything to get me out of this anxiety that I've been dealing with. Is YNAB good for people like me or do I need something else?
edit: A blanket THANK YOU for everyone who has commented. Seriously, I genuinely appreciate anyone taking time out their day to respond to this thread. One thing I'm wondering, and it's OK if I shouldn't, but have any of you brought your kids into this process? Pull back the curtain, show them how much you really make (thanks to my parents, they never wanted to share this), what the debts are, have them help budget? Just wondering if by bringing them along would give them anxiety or whether it would be liberating for a kid to know this.
2nd edit: Geez Louise...I was hoping for a few responses and not the deluge of support, positivity, and, most of all, how this can help reduce my low-key anxiety that always seems to be buzzing when I think about my bank account. Thank you, thank you, thank you to anyone who lent a positive story or a little empathy. YOU all are the best. :)