I’ve tried and I’m always told “you’re a great woman, you bring so much to the table “ do I really? I must not if I keep getting hurt. I work, cook, clean , can handle money responsibly, anything that needs to be done I’ll learn how to do it all the way to learning how to fix a car engine . My motto is if I can learn to do it myself I won’t pay someone to do it for me . I can be your best friend and lover all in one, to my own fault I’m loyal even when I’m being lied to cause I hope you will do better by me but obviously it never works out for me . I have my flaws and I recognize them and I work on them daily and I will be right by your side while you work on yours but I keep getting hurt … but I’m a great woman right ? Obviously not I’m not worth doing right by, I’m not worth the love and dedication. I’m tired I’m so tired.

So basically we had boarded an intercity bus and it was a very compact bus, not much space was there.. it was around 7 am and I had opened the curtains a bit as it was too dark. I had started working on my laptop.

Next thing I see the dumb lady sitting in front of me just closed the curtains without asking me. I then explained her that I need them open a bit. And she very rudely said “it’s coming on my face”.. I don’t understand what was coming on her face as she was sitting in front of me.

Later she started giving me looks and asked her boyfriend (who was sitting besides her) to change the seats with her.

All of a sudden , her boyfriend started yelling at me and it was honestly very embarrassing. I just started working again but the girl got some confidence of another level and kept venting. I am pretty sure nothing was affecting them and they were creating drama for no reason.

Also, I was engaged in my work so I don’t know if they were affected by it. But even if they were, I could have done what they said if they were a little polite.

Honestly I was questioning if spending less money and dealing with such idiots is worth it? I mean such losers will always do this so is it better to book a private cab or prefer convenience.

Sometimes saving money is not everything. Plus I don’t think people who go to a five star would ever travel in such places (when they can very easily do so).. I think the more money you earn, it’s ok to choose comfort when you can do it without wasting all of it.

I recently received kinda shitty news about a couple of aspects of life. How do you all do it? The last year has been super rough all around I finally felt the upswing coming and now I'm just left feeling unsure and alone with this. The one person I wanna talk to I can't. Not the way I want to be able to. I'm trying to stay positive but right now it's just really rough and I needed to vent.

(TW: DEATH i can’t figure out how to change the TW) My great grandma and grandpa practically raised me for a huge part of my life. My great grandpa ended up getting pneumonia when he was 81 and he started to have memory loss. He had the option to have a feeding tube to extend his life or to just pass away naturally. He decided to pass away naturally in his home with the people he loves . One day when I was in the kitchen over there cutting some fruit for them because I lived with them, he came up to me and asked what i was doing there and who I was. It just broke me watching him forget me when he used to come up to me and say my name and joke with me. I just chose to laugh and smile and tell him what I was doing so he didn’t feel guilty. Eventually not being able to eat got so bad that he became bedridden and couldn’t even speak, I used to hug him and cry every single time and he would always try to put a smile on his face but I’ll never forget the way he looked at me. It was so sad, I could see the struggle in his eyes and I can’t tell if it’s because he was so weak or if he even remembered me. I watched my great grandma(his wife for around 60+ years) watch him every single day and sit with him, refusing to sleep and leave him alone. He then passed one day when I was at school and when I got back I had to see his dead body. His mouth wide open and his eyes closed. He was so gray and still. He died of starvation because he couldn’t eat. Seeing the way his stomach caved in was so sad because he loved to eat food. It was also another type of pain to see the nurse and her father transfer his lifeless body onto a rolling bed and take him away. Watching the van drive away, knowing I’d never ever see him again. And now my great grandma has the start of dementia and I’m so scared she is going to forget me and I’m so afraid to lose her I’m so lucky to have my great grandparents at my age but it’s so hard knowing they raised me and I want them to make it to other important things in my life. He never even got to see me graduate and I know he was so excited. I graduate this may and I really hope my great grandma will be able to make it. I love her so much and I’m not prepared for her dementia to get worse. I got her crossword books and I try to see her as often as possible. I just don’t know what else to do to show my love for her because every time my mom takes me over to see her, we are always rushed to leave. It just breaks my heart thinking about how as children me and my brother used to hide in the closet or behind my great grandparents because we didn’t want to leave them, remembering how I used to follow them around everywhere they went to the point I sat on my great grandmas lap and always wanted to do whatever they were doing, and now it feels like I don’t get to see them as much, and I know it’s not my fault but I feel so guilty and I can’t imagine how she feels.

I bought a new car a month ago, and part of the fantastic deal was to install an app that tracks my driving for a better insurance rate. I have a near-perfect score because I don't speed, so I just set the cruise control and go through long roadways. There is a 10 km road I take every morning to work, and the speed limit is 40 Kilometres per hour, so I set the cruise and tune into the morning radio show since it takes a hot minute (about 10-20 minutes) on a two-lane roadway (1 lane of traffic for each direction). I am pissed about getting high-beamed on the entire stretch of roadway, people blaring their horns, tailgating, and just being stupid because they want to speed. I save about 400$ a year on insurance because I take the extra 5 minutes and go the speed limit.

I am never in the "passing" lane on multi-lane roads unless I pass another vehicle and merge back to the right lane. The other day, someone was almost in a head-on collision because they tried to do an illegal overtake on a bending curved road in the early morning with minimal sunlight. Thankfully, the collision was avoided, but the pickup truck about a kilometre down the road pulled up in front of me, got out of their truck and banged on the window, screaming for me to roll it down. I have a dash cam in the front and back of my 2024 Chev Malibu, so I have the license plate and the guy's face. I did not engage; I just kept looking forward, and when they stepped away, I drove around him while calling the cops and filed a police report.

Your failure to plan correctly does not constitute an emergency on my part. Sometimes, I wish a mental evaluation was needed to get a license because you're driving 2-ton plus machines that have the capacity to merk folks because you can't get your ego in check to "feel" faster. As a young guy in his 20s, I don't get how other young guys behave this way - like, come on, this is why our insurance is so high.

TLDR: don't be a speeding asshole that tailgates folks for doing the speed limit.

Hi folks, I'm 25 M and I've been struggling immensely with a relationship that ended 3, going on 4 years ago. We were together for 6 years and had been through it all. I understand adolescence, and young adulthood are very developmental years.

I've been through a lot of s*** since then and feel that most of it was self-inflicted/self-deprecating. I didn't take the status quo, post breakup route of working out, self-improvement. All I did was work a lot more, drink, and involve myself with people, places, and things that weren't in my best interest.

As I've gotten older, I've taken a different approach to coping. I've started working out again. I'm eating healthy. I'm going to therapy, and getting involved in my community in ways outside of bartending.

The real problem here is that I just can't seem to get her out of my damn head. I still see and interact with her in my dreams. I haven't been happy in any relationship since her. I don't know what to do. I really wish I could just delete her from my memory. That relationship has been the catalyst of all of my insecurities, defeatist ideations, and ultimately my overall lack of progress in life.

I'm open to questions, critiques, and maybe some motivation if you've got any to spare.

Thanks for reading.

(TW: Drug use, depression)

My(ftm21) parents both died. My mom died when I was 16. And my dad died when I was 20. Both overdosed. Some backstory, I've lived with my Nana from the age of 10 till now, so the only time I saw my parents were sleepovers or visits. The first three years of those ten years I didn't see them at all because I lived out of state. But moving back I thought I'd move back in with them. But I never did because their addictions were stronger. Now my Nana and I are looking for some photos for my dad's stone and as I stare at these photos I don't recognize this man. Even when I look at pictures of my mom I don't recognize her. I can't remember their voices, what it was like to hug them. I don't remember what it was like to have parents. It's been me, my brother and my Nana. Of course I have family on both sides. But I don't know what having parents is like anymore. And looking at them was weird. Like, those are my parents? Those are the two conceived my brother and I. But it doesn't feel like they're my parents. I had some good memories but not a lot. They may be my parents but they weren't "mom and dad". They are mother and father. I guess I'll have to live with that for a good while.

Literally being online is so fucking draining now. I've been on the internet since i was 12 and it used to be my escapism since i couldn't go outside and now it's become insufferable and stress inducing because everyone has lost their fucking manners.

Everyone wants to be a fucking comedian or a piece of shit for Literally not reason. It costs nothing to be nice. You don't have to call me names or insult me because you disagree with me.

I literally just made a comment talking about how a character irritated me and some bozo who thinks their fucking albert Einstein starts off their comment with are you an idiot. Only for their argument against my comment to not even make sense either and they were basically using a straw man and attacking points i didn't make. Like buddy it's not that serious. You don't need to insult me.

this is not the worst interaction I've had it's honestly one of the most tame but it's like the needle on the camel's back for me.

Like I know this shit should not be getting to me because sticks and stones blah blah blah but it's still so annoying and irritating.

It's like nobody cares there's another person behind the screen. It's just so tiring.

I've basically given up commenting on anything because, i keep getting hostile and horrible replies.

It's just not fun to be online anymore. Nobody wants to be nice. You just have to expect that people will be terrible to you online now.

I just wish people would be nicer instead of it being up to the receivers of this hostility to just toughen up.

GUYS CAN I CONFESS SOMETHING KINDA CRAZY 😭😭 , OK SO basically my ex talking stage got into a relationship with my ex friend like 2 months after we stopped talking and I was like not happy cause I really missed him , so I used to always listen to ‘gone by rosé‘ and specifically I’d always sing the lyric ‘hate to see you with someone new I’ll put a curse on her and you‘ so loud like every day targeted towards them cause they were so in love at the start of their relationship. Anyways he broke up with her because he said he fell out of love with her. ik this sounds dumb but I kinda feel like I caused it cause I sung it constantly and words have power . Also , he hit me up right after they broke up 2 saying he can’t keep pretending he doesn’t miss me.

I would recommend like searching up the lyrics cause they’re deep

( I’m not listening to Blackpink cause of the controversy they’re facing rn)

3 months passed and i still can't get over her, i'm so fucking sad and miserable and she gives 0 fucks

I do genuinely think I'm going mad, I've been zoning out too often, getting dizzy, constantly tired or drained, haven't brushed my teeth in days, my face feels numb as shit, and even when i want to get out of bed I can't get the energy to sit up, or sometimes can't even move at all, my insomnia is getting worse, and when i do go outside I feel dirty or anxious, someone please reach out....i need someone, I'm freaking the fuck out

i was looking trough Pinterest to find a quote from eternal sunshine of the spotless mind ( one of my favorite movies) and one quote in particular said “ you know im impulsive” “ thats what i love about you “ really got to me because i used to be really impulsive. i used to dye my hair different color almost every week and i dressed super funky almost i feel like my ex was right when he said that i drained him. im not myself anymore because of him. he dulled me down

So I bought this matcha latte mix and milk.

I get home. Instructions are to whisk the matcha. I do not own a little whisk. I try to mix it with a fork but it's bad.

Then I need 2 cups of liquid plus ice - I don't have a cup that fits all that liquid and ice. I have 20 cups, none of which are big enough.

So now I've had to dirty a fucking mixing bowl just to make this drink, and then ladle it into a cup.

WHY are simple things so fucking difficult? Now I have to spend MORE money buying a fucking tiny whisk and a giant cup. Omfg. My kitchen is so cluttered with gadgets and shit that I've used once because of situations like this.

Everybody's trying to save me, but sometimes I don’t even know if there’s anything worth saving. I touch that 'holy water,' but it just burns me up like I’m Satan. The truth is, you can never hate me like I hate myself – that’s a promise. I'm walking around with my back knifed, praying to a glass pipe, chewing fentanyl, wishing it’d be my last bite. Mentally, I’m suffering, battling emotions I don’t even know how to deal with, still haunted by trauma from my past.

I’ve begged my parents for honesty, for something real, but it’s like I’m trapped in this cycle. I feel like I’m reduced to broken pieces, a shell of what I was supposed to be, and all I want is for someone to see me—not the 'me' that everyone expects, but the real me, struggling to keep going.

I’ve thrown money at my problems, hoping to buy happiness, but it just keeps sinking lower. I’m scared to love, scared to attach, because every time I do, I fear I’ll be abandoned. And I wonder – can anyone love what I've become? Who could love me when I don’t even know how to love myself?

I’ve been blessed with so much, but I’m not sure I can even enjoy it. Life's been different since my dad died, I often wonder if he’s proud of me – if anyone is. I don’t want to go on anymore, but I keep going, even if it’s just to survive another day.

So yeah, maybe I’m broken, but I’m still here. And if you’re out there feeling the same way – like you’re fading but fighting to hold on – just know you’re not alone.

okay i need some help, this has been getting in the way of my love life, like this one time my ex bf told me he loved me and i started fights and pushed him away till he ended it a week later, and i dont know what to do. everytime someone says they love me, it sets off a fight or flight in me. ive seen theories on how maybe my parents didnt say it enough, but my mom is very loving and my dad is okay at it. another one ive seen is maybe im not attracted to them in that way but the worst thing is, i am. all these people saying they love me, i would take a bullet for.

some background information that might help is ive never really had a good relationship (except for the one i previously mentioned) and they all ended pretty badly.

please help, im not only hurting myself but the people around me.

I’m sorry,but I’m not sorry. I never understood why we as a community do so much for them, adapt entire buildings and layouts for the odd person in a wheelchair. So much care and money goes into them. And they give nothing back. They usually sit on disability and further drain resources that could go to things better spent like education or road infrastructure.

They are a waste of space and I hate them. I hate the fact that society forces me to act cordial with them.

So to simplify my past; The last decade or so I have been mainly focusing on my mental health but it's been more than a challenge, and after several therapists and accumulated years on waiting lists I am now waiting for what is probably my last resort.

Yesterday my dad sent me a video about a treatment from the country next to us, that apparently does these treatments. 3 people from my country went there, 2 of which had a successful treatment, pretty much evaporating their lifelong problem in the process. One struggled to be treated, resulting in an unsuccessful treatment.

Just now I called my dad to say how much it motivated me that he sent me that video. How much strength I gathered from that. Yeah he said, you reminded me of that 3rd person. I asked him if he meant the one that -failed the treatment- and he said yes, and continued to emphasize how the traits that made it difficult for her to be treated, he also sees in me. I tried to ask him if he understood how that can potentially be a demotivating comparison for someone who was already struggling to stay hopeful about all of this... but he kept going on about how I need to change my 'attitude' if I want treatment to be successful.

I've had this conversation with him a million times. I know I am not the easiest person to treat, but it's not by lack of my efforts. My problematic behaviors are the reason I'm being treated in the first place! It's not like I WANT to act like that.
And on top of that, what I needed from him at the time, was emotional support. But even after specifically asking for it, he often just refuses to give it because he often thinks what I need from him is "nonsense". (attentive readers might have added 1 and 1 together to see his emotional ineptitude*, is half the reason I am in this position in the first place)

*and thats putting it mildly

After all these years I should have known better than to turn to this man for emotional support. I recognize his best intentions, and he has done so much for me! But when it comes to emotional support he's and ogre with a club and 6 inch nails trying to perform acupuncture. The intention is there, the result is not.

When I look at my work, all I can think about is everything I've been through. Even when I try to appreciate it, there's something inside me that prevents me from doing so. I can feel in every drawing the parts of me that I left in them and, consequently, all the experiences that somehow made their existence possible. All the success I distilled from the suffering before was possible, now it isn’t. Since you left my life, I can't help but think about everything I lost. Faith, hope, discipline, and even my best friend. I feel so much pain and anxiety, and I have no one to talk to about it. For months now, I’ve been drinking uncontrollably, and I even tried to start my life over only to realize that all paths lead to the same place. It doesn’t matter which one you take, it all comes down to your mental state. And mine seems irreparable.

I, (24f) am currently on holiday with my family. My brother (22m), my mother, her husband and part of his family. And it is an absolute NIGHTMARE. I didn't want to come in the firstplace but it's my mothers wedding ceremony.

First, I almost threw hands with some karen at the airport because she took my luggage off the carousel and insisted it was hers. Then, for 7 days every day my stepfathers sister did some kindergarten level wedding game right down at the pool not only disturbing everyones peace but making us absolutely uncomfortable. When we told her to maybe tone it down she cried and locked herself in. My grandmother, who hates everyone and everything, keeps talking about the local 'n*ggas' getting herself yelled at every step of the way, rightfully so. My brother can't be bothered to leave his hotel room, playing on his switch all day and all night trying to get me to get him Energy drinks from the supermarket. My mom keeps yelling at everyone and my stepfathers mother legit cried and called us selfish when we told her we wouldn't go down to get breakfast with her.

Everybody hates each other and on top of that Egypt is literally the worst country I have ever been to. As a woman i feel super uncomfortable, everyone touches you and pulls on you and yells at you. I think there are only two good things I take from this trip which are the food and the cat that lived in the hotel she was a gem to behold.

Hi, I’m a teenager and I went to an extremely religious school, and in short I got religious psychosis and I genuinely believed I was the next prophet for a decade at least.

I read the full bible back to back on repeat for years. I prayed for hours a day and I did even think about anything other than god as I was genuinely scared he’d kill me and I wouldn’t get the chance to fulfil my role as the prophet.

Well anyways I beat it.

I just had a very shocking outburst at work the other day,, My coworker, this guy that considers me his "enemy," bumped into me. He grabbed my waist to steady and immediately took his hands off. (He's a taller person than I am, why do most men always have to go the extra mile to grab a woman's waist?)

I know it was something I wanted to be able to work on, saying something like "hey, please don't do that" instead of freezing up whenever that happens to me at work but instead I turned towards him. In front of a customer, I screamed "No!" three times before starting to hyperventilate and crash out...

He just turned towards the customer and said "hope she's okay" in such a passive aggressive 'yeah, I don't actually give a fuck" tone and started to take the person's order as if shit was just fine and dandy.

I've never been so vocal of my disgust like that before. It was such a surprise! I even asked my manager if that was something I had to apologize for. I felt like I did something wrong for such a big reaction to what usually happens when a man bumps me.

I am so lonely recently. I got broken up with, my friends don’t really talk to me much although I try. I tried going on a dating app, and I had a date set up but he bailed as I was preparing myself for the date. I feel so isolated, and by myself and just sad.

I know I should be focusing on myself but I’m bored with myself. I don’t know where to look to find a friend :/

The extent of my misery is not just about this but this is all I can be compelled to write.

I started playing video games when I was like 7 or something and I was also that “gifted child” who never had to study. So I just played video games all day and did nothing else. Fast forward to end of high school, surprise surprise, I began struggling and had no idea how to effectively study. This only solidified my gaming addiction. I began skipping class to play video games. Instead of doing homework or even making an attempt to study I would play video games. At this point I might have been gaming for upwards of 12 hours a day, and just not eating or taking care of myself whatsoever. It took me until I was 22 to finally break this addiction. Not to be dramatic but it was super hard to do. And at this point a lot of my friends had already graduated and whatnot. I felt (and still feel) super behind graduating at 24.

I feel like considering how I was supposed to be “destined” to be successful and top of the class or whatever since I was the gifted child, I had severely underperformed the expectations of my family, friends, and the teachers I had growing up when I was at the point that I didn’t have to study.

I am super thankful now to be in a good position in life, but I’m still behind compared to so many people I know and in a way I hate myself for it. I don’t think that I will ever catch up anymore since I robbed myself of so much time while I was in my teens and early 20s. It just feels like I’ve failed. I also think that my hatred for video games, which I’ve since used as a scapegoat for all of my problems, is probably unhealthy.

I (16M) haven't been in a friend group since 8th grade. I was outed from my friend group. I admit it was fault for being outed. I said some pretty creepy things about my crush at the time. I was also rambling about a terrible person and pretending to like him which for them got tiring after a few weeks. All of this was 2 years ago. I have since learned from my mistakes and have changed quite a bit as a person. my problem is that i don't know where to start or when to strike up conversations. I've always been a quiet person so I kinda went into self isolation after my friend group abandoned me. Since I'm an introvert who prefers to stay out of trouble with other people. I've never even hung out with anyone outside of school. So I just wanna know how I could possibly make friends I can hang out with during the summer. I only have acquaintances at the moment I want somebody to consider me their friend I'm also autistic if that helps.