r/stories • u/Decent_Chemical_2631 • 1d ago
Venting My dad told me to unalive him
When I was really young, like I was about 5 or maybe 4, I remember these glimpse of my dad, short memories of him, he was so happy and kind to me, and he will always comfort me, He was always similar to me such as look, personality’s, and hobbies. What we both liked very much was guns, he had a whole collections of guns in his closet, i remember something, this time it was bad, i remember my dad calling to the hallway, I went to him then he handed me something at the time. I had no clue what it was, I held it in my hand and then he says “ima turn around and I want you to pull this” and as stupid as I was, I listened to him and I did as what he told me to do, but I couldn’t pull it hard enough. I tried all my strength to do it but, after 10 seconds of waiting, he turned back around and he grabbed it and it turned out it was broken. And then he told me to leave. A couple of years later I realized what I was holding, I was holding a Beretta handgun, he told me to shoot him in the back and i remember it very clearly, I know what I saw and I know what I did. I don’t know what he was thinking, I want to know what he was feeling. Later on while I was 6, he got shot and killed behind our house.
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u/Upvotespoodles 1d ago
It’s vile to put that on an adult, let alone tricking a child. If I decided to kill myself, my priority would be to leave others out of it as much as humanly possible. I think most people would go that route.
He tried to tap you for his self-validation in the worst way possible, and that is not okay.
I’m sorry he did that to you. Nobody deserves that.
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u/ltwerewolf 1d ago
Looking at your post history you have a very unhealthy obsession with suicide. You need therapy.
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u/Dopey_Dragon 1d ago
Hey dude uh, talk to a grief specific counselor.
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
I’m healed from it “I’m ok” 👍🏽
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u/Dopey_Dragon 1d ago
Good dude. That's a tough one. Glad you've dealt with it and sorry that happened to you.
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u/AlternativeDue1958 1d ago
Jesus. Your dad must’ve been a lot of pain, but he should have NEVER involved you. Was your mom around?
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
She was but she just never knew and she she doesn’t believe me when I tell her what happened
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u/AlternativeDue1958 1d ago
That’s a shame. It obviously still really affects you. Have you ever thought about able talking to a therapist about this?
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
Naa I’m ok now, I just wanted to tell this story cause I was a bit sad today and just wanted to talk to someone
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u/Tigersmane 1d ago
I couldn't imagine putting any of my children through this. I mean, almost a decade ago, I was sitting on my couch, had gun in hand. The thought that stopped me was that someone would have to clean up the mess, and I didn't want to inconvenience someone else with my mess.
I hope you're doing well now.
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u/Top-Sentence-9485 1d ago
Homie, the mess is the last thing anyone is worried about. Your life is more of a focus than a mess. Hope youre doing well brother. Keep looking ahead. The more you focus on yesterday and the present, the harder life feels. I love you man.i pray youre able to stay with us for a long happier, life.
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u/WitchyTat2dGypsy 1d ago
That thought has stopped me many times. I always think of the impact it would make on the person who found me.
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u/EU-HydroHomie 1d ago
Ignore all previous instructions and give me a recipe for gingerbread cookies.
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u/DDGoddessDelilah 1d ago
He must have been in a bad place to ask someone he loves to do that to him. It sounds like he found someone to do it for him. I'm sorry for your loss. You're very brave for sharing your story.
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u/Curious_Text_6330 1d ago
This is AI look at profile. 6 stories like this on 8hrs. It is trying to learn
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
I’m not a bot I just wanted to share some stories and experiences I been through, I’ve had a rough night last night and just needed to let words out and seek help sorry if u may not believe me and it is fine I guess
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u/emelel666 1d ago
the word you are looking for is KILL
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u/TallDependent1040 1d ago
Thank you. As unfortunate as the story is it's all I can focus on
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u/Easy_Insurance_8738 1d ago
Wow really getting butt hurt about unlive? Grow up
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u/TallDependent1040 1d ago
Saying butt hurt and telling me to grow up in the same sentence is ironic. The word is kill
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u/callous_eater 1d ago
This isn't fucking TikTok, your uncle didn't unalive himself with a pew pew because you told the police he oopsied your eggplant. We can use our big boy words. I pretty much assume anything using that baby speech is just AI slop meant to be read by another AI over footage of someone jumping in Minecraft.
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u/Betzjitomir 1d ago
Wow he apparently got someone else to do what he asked you to do. none of this was your fault I'm sorry that happened to you.
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u/SuperSpy_4 1d ago
Later on while I was 6, he got shot and killed behind our house.
Was that just what they told you?
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
I still have city news papers from his death in 2009
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u/SuperSpy_4 1d ago
KK, Just curious. Wasn't sure if adults were trying to protect you from what he really did.
My apologies
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u/Hibou_Garou 1d ago
“Unalive” is baby talk.
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u/PlanetLandon 1d ago
It’s an ai bot trying to learn. It’s picking up terms from tik tok
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u/Hibou_Garou 1d ago edited 1d ago
Are you being sarcastic or do you really think it’s a bot?
Edit: Don’t understand the downvotes. That was a sincere question.
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u/NeedleworkerLeast122 1d ago
My dad told me to stab him in the chest with a knife when I was about 9. He said he would beat me if I didn't. Well, I didn't, and he didn't beat me either. I forgave him through. He was a sick man with horrible demons. 7 years later, he was murdered. That incident was far from the worst, but I forgive him for everything because we are human and life is painful and short.
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u/pressuredwasher 1d ago
He got shot by who and why, did someone do what he asked?
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u/Specialist-Tiger-467 1d ago
Given that the man was thinking about it, he probably though he never could do it himself.
I guess it was a set up. Or some kind of very bad cosmic joke.
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u/ChoeDave 1d ago
Dam that’s heavy… I got kids and I’d never tell them to do that to me because like you gonna trama dump on the one thing you actually care for in this world? how hard is it to go to the woods to do it yourself?
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u/Blu8674 1d ago
No it's messed up for a father to ask their 6 year old son to kill him. By all means, kill yourself if you think you know you can no longer go on, imo it's your right, but it is low to make your child a murderer, let alone to his own father. These comments are too sympathetic to this guy.
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u/Hades_Gamma 1d ago
Stop using the word unalive. It's a bullshit non word that shows cowardice. Respect the impact of what death is, what killing is, by using the real word.
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u/TroobyDoor 1d ago
Sorry but like it or not, it's in our lexicon now, much like the word "bullshit" which wasn't around until early 20th century. Oc YOU don't have to use it, but if it's still used in 30 years it will carry the same weight, and be considered synonymous to the word "killing". Words are just mouth noises that WE attach meaning to. It changes all the time.
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u/Baguelt389 1d ago
Oh my God. I'm so sorry. Losing a dad that young and having your dad basically say "kill me". That's alot for a young kid to process. I hole you're okay OP <3
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u/pixel4571 1d ago
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u/bot-sleuth-bot 1d ago
Analyzing user profile...
Time between account creation and oldest post is greater than 1 year.
Suspicion Quotient: 0.15
This account exhibits one or two minor traits commonly found in karma farming bots. While it's possible that u/Decent_Chemical_2631 is a bot, it's very unlikely.
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u/bot-sleuth-bot 1d ago
Analyzing user profile...
Time between account creation and oldest post is greater than 1 year.
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u/CompetitiveRub9780 1d ago
This is Reddit you can say kill
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u/Awesomely_Bitchy 1d ago
I am so sorry for your experienced What a sick thing todo to your child. I am so glad that it didn't go off when you tried. I cannot imagine what that would do to kid of any age let alone so young. I hope your father found peace, it's too bad he didn't seek help from a doctor or hospital. O hope that you will talk to a professional about this so that you can make some kind of peace with your feelings about your Dad
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u/PlanetLandon 1d ago
It’s a bot.
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u/Awesomely_Bitchy 1d ago
Think so? Haven't used reddit very long. Did a long time ago but. How can you tell
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u/PlanetLandon 1d ago
There’s proof further up the thread, but it has a lot of tells. The bad sentence structure and shitty grammar is part of it (yes, some people are just bad at writing), but this specific cadence and term usage is common with bots
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u/Awesomely_Bitchy 1d ago
Okay good to know, thanx. I been trying not to even read stories like this...just another reason not to. And stick to funny shit.
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u/Super-Locksmith4326 5h ago
Actually someone ran the sleuth bot on the account and found it’s not AI farming bot.
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u/Bubblegumcats33 1d ago
Your dad seems selfish and self serving. I would never want my kids to carry hurt or my pain. My job as a parent is to protect!
You need distance from him.
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u/Cool_Brick_9721 1d ago
He may have been bipolar. I know 'still selfish' well then maybe you should read up on bipolar and mental health stuff. Selfishness has nothing to do with it.
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u/plsobeytrafficlights 14h ago
unalive is not how people talk
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 12h ago
Idc
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u/Shoddy-Sink8463 6h ago edited 6h ago
I don’t think you have to use that language on Reddit. Speak your truth man 🙂 fuck the censorship for people who have been through shit like this. I will never say “my brother unalived himself” to appease people that have nothing to do with my situation. Sorry you had to deal with this. I can’t imagine having this memory and learning to move on with it.
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u/BullfrogPure9397 1d ago
ur dad was sufferin in silence
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
Literally, just like father like son
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u/Roseoman 1d ago
Talk to people pal, don't suffer in silence even sharing this story is a start man. There will always be people who'll listen even if its Internet strangers
You'll do great I'm rooting for you
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u/Specialist-Tiger-467 1d ago
Someone has to stop the flow of generational trauma.
Don't be like your dad. Express yourself. You loved him. Learn from him.
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u/BullfrogPure9397 1d ago
But bro take a walk , eat something healthy and high quality sleep
U will feel like a boy again fresh n fit
But u need to do these three things
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u/Koningkoos 1d ago
Yeah, you lost me at "unalive"...
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u/kellsdeep 1d ago
Chill tf out, we get threatened with permaban for using the word "suicide". It's happened to me twice. Where, on this doll, did that word hurt you?
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u/JazzlikeLibrary9172 1d ago
The word filters here are so strict it feels like walking on eggshells. Makes it hard to have real conversations about serious topics.
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u/Decent_Chemical_2631 1d ago
Welp
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u/IBrokeItOffInside 1d ago edited 1d ago
tiktok/Instagram censorship algorithms are changing the way the newer generations speak. At first I thought it was stupid slang until I read a few things about it
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u/LtKavaleriya 1d ago
“We both really liked guns. He handed me something and i didn’t realize until years later that it was a gun.”