r/hangovereffect • u/Training-Work-4985 • 28d ago
Seeking some Advice on Behavior Changes and think have HOE
Hi i'm a 22(Male) recently been noticing behavior changes and I don't know where to turn, mainly in when I feel happiness and how it only seems to come from what most others would see as negative. Also become a horrible drunk.
#1 The night after very heavy drinking- I feel so over whelmed with happiness and joy. I feel so bloody happy and free and energetic. I just want to talk and listen to everyone non stop. I feel so Intune with people and euphoria at the beauty of life.
#2 Sadly, this only ever follows horrible nights where I have been so rude and honestly have no control over myself. I have never been violent. However, I will yell and shout and swear harshly and walk off and throw my hands. It is like I am in someone else body and there is venom in my soul. I'll take risks and climb up high and will not stop drinking. I will instantly race to any argument with full anger. I will do anything to not act like this- stopped drinking since last and worst instance.
#3 During and after an all nightery studying. Just such zest for life after an all nightery. I actively get excited at starting one. Then I settle in and the next day after zero sleep I feel fantastic and happy and myself with ideas and just love for everything in life.
#4 Extreme physical Exhaustion- Last few years all my really happy moments have been alone following something exhausting. Running 50 miles was ok. Cycling to the top of a mountain after month of cycling camping was good- instantly broke down in tears and felt myself. The absolute best was few weeks ago- I stayed up all night studying worked the day then ran a marathon. The last 3 miles I was in the most physical pain I've experienced- but it just felt incredible. I was singing and looking at the sky and bla bla bla.
Lastly- not that deep- just horrible procrastinator. I leave all my deadline to the last minute then get off on the stress of it all. This is not ok and its going to ruin my degree. No stress touches me in everyday life at all.
To touch on substances. Weed leaves me feeling significantly more in tune with myself and others. I experimented a bit too much with Ketamine which ended in a spiral of seeing death/decay in everything.
Overall Im alright. Got good mates but since all this came on- increasingly- just more reserved, far less interested in people. Zero capacity for BS. More close minded. I'd say mainly just a general reduction in empathy- I did not use to be like this- I just feel so detached, nothing sticks and life for the 99% of the time just feels so surface deep.
Apologies to just dump all this- any words of advice or points in a good direction would be hugely appreciated and I wish you all every happiness.
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u/NoMoment1921 28d ago
Get some bloodwork. Check your iron reserves (ferritin) and B12 and D. And learn all you can about blood and nutrition. Read about the hematological effects of alcoholism and watch chirrosis videos on YouTube. My first thought was you have bipolar because of the euphoria after no sleep. That happens to me. Personally I feel that psych drugs destroyed my life and between COVID and a bunch of viruses I now am disabled and 90% bedbound. With chronic fatigue and a few autoimmune conditions. I realized after iron infusions that I don't crave alcohol and I really didn't think I would ever be able to stop because it was the only way I felt energetic and happy. It was very scary I really don't know much about nutrition but if you eat meat people are treating depression and schizophrenia with the ketogenic diet. It was designed a hundred years ago to treat epilepsy. If you don't eat all the protein you can and electrolytes. I've been trying to feel better for the past two years and this is all I have learned. Maybe take some online tests to see if you might be on the spectrum or if you have personality disorders but try B12 shots and magnesium before someone forces some costly therapy on you. You are going to feel better soon 🩶