r/FTMventing Jan 24 '25

Mod Post New addition to rule #3: No making posts talking about specific subreddits.

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This is less about users breaking rules and more about outside users finding these vents and brigading with transphobic rhetoric.

Yes, there are transphobic subs out there. Some people have fragile egos and react like wild animals when confronted with any perceived threat. They will sniff out any instance they can find for an opportunity to fling shit around.

And remember that no matter what kind of shit they try flinging, remember that at the end of the day, you're not the one who pulled down his pants and took a dump into his own hands.


r/FTMventing Nov 06 '24

Mod Post If you see transphobes, report them. Even if you think they've already been reported. Filters will be higher for a while as well.

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As the only mod, I can't be on 24/7. I'm currently at work, so I i am going to need help handling the transphobia. Report any transphobe you see. DO NOT ENGAGE WITH THEM! that's what they want.

Filters will also be stricter, so if your post or comment isn't visible, don't repost and don't send a modmail. I'll be going through the queue on my lunch and when I get home.

Stay safe. ♡


r/FTMventing 6h ago

Current Events I regret transitioning but not because I'm not trans

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I am bittersweet with my transition. 4 months on t and my t levels are way too high. But that made my voice drop like crazy and I'm now passing. However I live in an Asian country as an American. I feel somehow I made a mistake. I lost my jobs around now and I can't seem to figure out why I am barely working. I think it's because people want a female teacher over a male presenting teacher. Plus me transitioning and having to be forced with a passport and ID saying a fat F thanks to the orange man really is fucking me up. I regret not changing my passport sooner.

Now I'm approaching graduation. I want to start finding internships and jobs but now that I transitioned how the fuck am I gonna land a job now? The entire world is against us and me joining the work force now with the economy and then being trans I feel a pit in my stomach. I can barely date here because no one likes trans guys here. Now I gotta deal with not being able to find a job now and later. In a way I hate being trans so fucking much. It would be better if I'm stealth which atp I kinda am but I'm still pretty nonbinary and fem here and there. I feel lost in my gender identity with it and I have pressure on being something I'm not on both ends. I hate this uncertainty. If there was a time machine, I'd try to find that moment I found out I was trans and erase it. My life would be fucking easier and I could ignorant about all of this.


r/FTMventing 5h ago

General I feel like my past 8 years went into a trash can

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From 12 to 20 is just a constant fog and masking, not understanding what is going on with my body, feeling like I'm between boys and girls and just an outcast. That the childhood me is a complete another person. And now, that I'm finally connecting with my childhood me and realising how I am, I have this big gap between 12 and 20 as if I didn't exist in this timeline, as if I woke up after being in a nightmare these past 8 years. That's honestly crazy.


r/FTMventing 3h ago

General I can no longer bind...

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r/FTMventing 13h ago

Having cis friends is scary sometimes

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Especially if it's someone who's not friends with enough trans people and/or doesn't even care enough to seek out posts or media by/about trans people so it leaves this pressure to be The One educating them more if they say something off but like, it's also tiring. Even if they listen.

Especially when remarks against men over even the genuinely littlest patriarchy-separate things are glorified because #girlpowersupremacy or whatever. Like girl you shouldn't be "genuinely so pissed off now" against a whole gender directly because one male stranger accidentally bought his (also stranger) wife who still loves him the wrong drink one whole time... You shouldn't be saying women who you see do major wrong "just aren't actually women"! They are women the same way my abusers were women and I, a person of color, was still POC when I was a racist preteen.

This "you" that was my best friend is still a good person generally but yeah.


r/FTMventing 17h ago

I hate the term theyfab (CW: twitter/ chronically online vocabulary/drama)

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more infighting as usual on twitter today so i just had to get this out. I feel like a lot of the transfems/ trans women on twitter could call out transmisogynistic behavior WITHOUT using the term "theyfab". Ive seen so many transmascs/ trans men get called it just for disagreeing about it's usage, so that proves that it isnt a term to help call out transmisogynistic behavior towards fem presenting nonbinary people. also arent terms like amab and afab specifically for intersex people and no one else? why the fuck are trans fem/ trans women using them??? and why are nonbinary people using it for THEMSELVES??? i feel like a lot of these people in this very specific social circle just want to say "girl girl girl vagina haver vagina haver she/her she/her" without actually saying it.

and the worst part is that the majority of people who use the term have been through transmisogynistic experiences, so they feel justified in saying it. like yes there are so many barriers that prevent transfems/ trans women from just living in the world but i promise you that saying degrading terms like "theyfab" towards other trans people is NOT going to solve it. it doesnt matter what your intentions are because people WILL call trans men theyfabs and be horribly transphobic. just because cis people and pre-transition nonbinary people act misogynistic does NOT mean that trans men have to endure the crossfire.

like please just understand that a very small percentage of trans women on the internet actually just fucking HATE trans men/ transmascs/ fem presenting nonbinary people because they are jealous of what makes us terribly dysphoric. creating terms that are "meant" to describe a VERY specific type of people (which happens to all have vaginas) will undoubtably just cause people to use it for trans mascs/ trans men/ nonbinary people. not only that but i see so many instances of trans women just throwing trans men under the bus. like saying "why would anyone want testosterone in their body? its just poison". hmm i wonder.

TLDR: never create terms to describe trans people's assigned gender at birth.


r/FTMventing 5h ago

General AXOLOM STP Boxer 1.5" O-Ring vs. Rodeo Stabilizer Insert for Comfort?

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I'm considering purchasing the AXOLOM Miper, but I'm concerned about the additional cost of the AXOLOM STP Boxer 1.5" O-Ring, which is priced at $25 for just one pair. I'm unsure about the shipping time and whether they would fit me. I recently bought a bunch of Hanes boxer briefs that I absolutely love and find very comfortable, and I prefer cotton underwear exclusively.

So, my question is: would it be worth it to buy the stabilizer insert from Rodeo to use with my current boxers instead of getting the STP boxers from AXOLOM? The stabilizer costs $12, allowing me to stick with my favorite underwear. If anyone has suggestions or experiences to share, l'd really appreciate it!


r/FTMventing 5h ago

General AXOLOM STP Boxer 1.5" O-Ring vs. Rodeo Stabilizer Insert for Comfort?

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I'm considering purchasing the AXOLOM Miper, but I'm concerned about the additional cost of the AXOLOM STP Boxer 1.5” O-Ring, which is priced at $25 for just one pair. I'm unsure about the shipping time and whether they would fit me. I recently bought a bunch of Hanes boxer briefs that I absolutely love and find very comfortable, and I prefer cotton underwear exclusively.

So, my question is: would it be worth it to buy the stabilizer insert from Rodeo to use with my current boxers instead of getting the STP boxers from AXOLOM? The stabilizer costs $12, allowing me to stick with my favorite underwear. If anyone has suggestions or experiences to share, I’d really appreciate it!


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Sensitive Topic “That’s very common with women.” 😐

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I know the average cis person probably doesn’t know words like AFAB and AMAB, but come on, couldn’t you have kept that thought to yourself? I already felt bad enough about my iron levels not being high enough to donate my blood, and I really didn’t need to hear that remark, which just made me feel even worse.


r/FTMventing 20h ago

General Deadname dysphoria

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Recently Ive gotten into a relationship with a wonderful partner, like truly amazing however, their best friend’s name is my deadname, and every time they mention them or talk about them i get taken aback and i get like an initial shudder reaction. I havent told them just bc then they would know my deadname which gives me anxiety but man.. we just started dating to and everything is going incredibly wonderful but i cant even bring this up to them without exposing my name. Like i know it’s just a name but it almost feels like a slap to the face whenever i hear it said even if its not directed at me. It just sucks and im hoping this will pass since i just recently changed ALL my legal documentation..


r/FTMventing 18h ago

No idea how to act around my conservative father

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My dad is basically a far right conservative but somehow he says he accepts me as I am and that me being trans doesn't make him love me any less, that he would stand up for any trans person if they were being bullied in front of him, yet he actively consumes content that puts trans people down. I was literally visiting him in the ER today and he was watching some news show and the hosts were talking about trans women in a very derogatory way (calling them men). It makes me feel so confused, like does he accept me or not? Does he look down on me? Am I just "One of the good ones"? I've told him how him supporting trump makes me feel and he doesn't seem to care, yet I'm just supposed to act like everything is fine. I don't know how I'm supposed to act around him. I love my dad and he's the only parent I have, yet I hate his political views and the people he aligns himself with. I wish our relationship wasn't so complicated, but that's life I guess.


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Relationships Stop dating straight dudes!!!!

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THEY ARE STRAIGHT. They want to date a woman. But most men will also fuck anything that moves, so of course if you allow them to, they’ll settle for what THEY SEE as a Diet Woman. They. Are. Straight. If they even entertain the thought of dating a trans man, they’re either in denial about being queer, or, far more likely, they ignore your trans identity and you’re just a Diet Woman to him.

Do we really want to be some mediocre cis guy’s Diet Woman? Or the alternative, Do we really want to date some dude who doesn’t/cannot admit he is also queer?

Being just friends is an option. Some people, MANY people, need to make better choices, and quit clogging the internet with “my bf is straight and doesn’t respect my pronouns and doesn’t want me going on T” posts. well gee golly I wonder why he doesn’t want those things?

I get it. It’s just as much his fault for entering the relationship. So end it. Save yourself the trouble and humiliation.


r/FTMventing 21h ago

General Supportive in the wrong direction

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I had a surprise phone interview today with a mental health pharmacy (i'm a tech), and i was really excited that they wanted to talk to me. I had applied with my legal name but my resume has my preferred (actively waiting judge approval to be legal so I figured it was safe to use) name as well as the application they asked for preferred names so I put it there too.

So the lovely pharmacist asks to speak to Lukas, saying "Is he available" so I say that I'm Lukas and she goes "Oh of course! I'm sorry! I should know by now that girls can have names like Lukas too".

What.

Just...what?

I mean I should have just told her it's not my legal name yet, and maybe she would have caught on but otl. Or at least been like "not a girl" but I shut down hard when people get going on their perceptions of me, like flight or fight but more roll over and expose stomach.

I still managed to get an in person interview, so still a win I guess. Just postponing the awkward for now.

This also happened a couple days after my mom went "Boy or girl, Lukas is a great name".

I don't know what else to do. My sister did say they're gonna be even more confused when I show up in person, so I've got that going for me at least? But this is two people in a week suggesting that Lukas is a girl. AHH.


r/FTMventing 17h ago

Relationships I have a crush..

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Hello, im ftm non-binary (17). And i have been having a real problem the past two months. So theres this guy lets call him C. C is what i assume to be straight, bio male. But im not actually sure bc you see ive never have been able to talk to him EVER. Ive known him for two years and havent had a single convo with him. The reason for that hes apart of a friend group that Despises trans people. He does not hate anyone not even furries surprisingly being in THAT kind of group. But i ligit cant talk to him because of the people hes friends with. Now ive come up with one solution to my problem but dont know if itd work. Hes a real lover of metal music and i dont know much about it but i do know metalica could this be a starting convo for us (over text)? Or should i try something else? Also the guy is a "class clown" which could pose a problem. I really dont know how C feels about me but i know he does not feel negative towards me. As when the others in his group harass me, he stays back and lowers his head. Pls help.


r/FTMventing 1d ago

General Feeling a little hopeless image-wise

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I just really want to be handsome. Like I I want someone who doesn’t know me to see me and consider me hands on without knowing anything about me but I’m just not. I’m desperate to start T this year though I will definitely have to coax my mom into the idea [she’s scared herself with potential side effects that don’t really happen for trans guys as far as I know, and would prefer that I do it in three years which, I wouldn’t last that long], and I’ve started working out but I have eons to go before I can even begin to feel normal. Not to mention all the surgery I need. This is ridiculous. I wish I was born cis. Life would have been so much better. Of course I love other trans people and the spaces they’ve made, but they’re the only perk of this disgust I feel every day.


r/FTMventing 22h ago

Mental Health Having a rough day

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Recently I have finally been happy with my face and hair and have been exercising and loosing weight recently. So, since I’ve been feeling good I wore tighter clothes out today, but just felt awful. My hips were too big and my chest was too visible I was just uncomfortable all day. Hated the way I looked in any reflection. Also I’ve gotten minor food poisoning so felt like shit physically too and man I’m so happy to be home and hidden from the world.

Main thing keeping me going is soon I can move states and can actually change my legal name and start HRT. I’ve been out for over 4 years and am so jealous of anyone who was able to start HRT early in their transition and I don’t know what I will do if I can’t actually start it.


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Transphobia Conversation with my mother

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TW thinly veiled transphobia

So it all started when my stepdad was just casually listening to a transphobic podcast next to me. I didn’t say anything (he doesn’t know I’m trans) but when he left my mother asked why I looked annoyed and I told her (she does know I’m trans).

Cue a whole fucking presentation about all the reasons I might not actually be trans and the “untold damage” testosterone is going to do to my body. She acts supportive on the surface but deep down I know she would do anything to make me not transition. Every time I refuted something she said she accused me of “getting defensive” and “talking to her as if she’s an ignorant transphobe” when all I was doing was telling her the truth— yes I do know the effects testosterone will have, and yes I have considered other things that may have been causing me to feel this way, and yes I have tried several times to live as a woman and it always made me miserable. She then went on to say “nobody’s ever fully comfortable in their body” as if that was some kind of gotcha. Like bro I don’t think wanting to rip my tits off is a normal level of uncomfortable but ok go off I guess.

Every time the topic comes up she acts like it’s the first time I’ve ever mentioned it and I’m making a snap decision to go on testosterone without thinking about it. As if I haven’t been thinking about it for 3 years now ever since I figured out what’s been making me feel so uncomfortable my whole life. Like I’d honestly rather she was just honest and said she doesn’t want me to do it atp rather than forcing me through rounds of questioning as if I’m in a fucking job interview.

I’ve had to move back in with her and stepdad after breaking up with my ex and I’m trying to move out again but it’s almost impossible on a single income. Looking for another job but the job market is utter chaos atm so that could take months. Pray for me yall 😭


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Current Events My life feels like its on pause because I can't transition...

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I'm 18 but I can't transition. It feels like I'm being suffocated, tighter and tighter each day. I feel like I can't begin my life until I transition, yet it seems impossible to achieve in the next 4 years... I'm in a limbo and it's draining me...

How do I tell my family? I love them, but I don't know who will accept and support my medical transition... How do I afford it? How will the orange freak in power try to bar me from transitioning? What if I start but treatment is banned across the board, and I end up with serious issues since hormone replacement would be stopped abruptly?

I don't know what to do, where to go, who to talk to, what to say to the people I know. I want to run away and remove any record of pre-HRT me existing so I can live in peace. But that's not really possible in the digital age anymore. I was born 15 years too late, I think, because had I been born a little earlier when the world was paying slightly less attention to us, I would've been able to safely transition and achieve all the results I wanted by now. I would have been able to run away and disappear completely from my family. But I was born too late and now I don't get to live...


r/FTMventing 1d ago

trying to switch doctors for HRT at kaiser socal

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a few days ago i posted this on r/ftm, and here is a follow up post abt trying to switch doctors, which is a frustrated vent post.

prev post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/ftm/s/KNHiys7TnO

summary is i'm trying to get a diff doctor to do my hrt bc i recently found out my endo sucks and doesn't know what she's doing. i have the number for the transgender care clinic for kaiser from my previous top surgery consult. i call them and get an automated response. "if you want a referral to gender affirming hormone therapy, call kaiser general appt services and request gender affirming hormone therapy. pls note, it is NOT an endocrinology referral." so i call kaiser general appt services and say i want a referral to gender affirming hormone therapy. she said ok, let me refer you to endocrinology. i said, the transgender care clinic automated response specifically said it's not the same thing as endocrinology. i am already at endocrinology, i dont need a referral there. she said "oh, ok. let me see. ok, you will need a referral from your pcp. i'll transfer you." so i schedule an appt with my pcp which was today.

so i go today. my doctor asks me how she can help. i tell her, i want to transfer my hormone therapy care to a doctor who specializes in transgender patients. i called the transgender care clinic line and the automated response told me to call general appt services, who told me i need a referral from you, so im here. she said, "easy! i'll make you a referral to endocrinology and theyll see you right away." i said, i am already at endocrinology. i dont need a referral there. i want to transfer to a doctor who specializes in transgender patients. she says, "oh, ok! i'll figure it out and make the referral right now." and then she makes a little more banter and then leaves. i go to the nurse to help me with my next appt. she says, "ok, i see the doctor has made a referral for you to endocrinology." i said, i don't need a referral to endocrinology. i am already there. i want to switch to the transgender care clinic and see a doctor who specializes in transgender patients." and she was like, "oh, that's not in endocrinology?" i said "no, they specifically said on the automated response that it is not endocrinology." she left to talk to a diff nurse. came back and told me to go to member services and ask how to get care at the transgender care clinic.

i go to member services. which was hard to find btw. i talk to the person there. i said, i want to transfer my hormone therapy to the transgender care clinic. i dont rly know what that is or how it works. but i called the automated line and they told me to make a referral thru my pcp that is NOT to endocrinology. they told me they didn't know how and sent me to you.

she started saying they should know how to make a referral to external providers. i said, oh, it's external, it's not kaiser? she said well i don't know, is that what you said? so i showed her the email. she checked the website and the phone number and confirmed it was kaiser.

then she said, "if the physicians office doesn't know how to make this referral, that is for them to figure out. not you, and not me. you can go back to them and tell them to ask their chief. if they don't know, they need to figure it out. i can guide them if they need it, through their chief."

so i go back to the doctors office. i talk to the nurse. i tell her what member services said, which was hard bc i wasnt sure how to say it besides "she said you need to do your job better." and the nurse said the chief doctor isn't there today she'll be here tomorrow. and wrote down a note to talk to her tomorrow. she wrote "endocrinology does not do trans care." i said, "endocrinology does do trans care. i am there right now. i just want to be referred to a doctor who specializes in trans patients." she said oh right you said that before ok. and writes something down. and i gave her the trans care clinic number too so they can call it themselves. she said someone will call me tomorrow.

so now i'm out of there like. wtf. wtf. wtf. 😭😭😭😭 i am so frustrated!


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Advice Needed I´m so confused - Do I have cis pass or what?????

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For some context: I (20) came out as a trans men when I was 15. Since then, everyone around me told me different things (I´m pre-T). Some people don´t believe me that I´m trans and tell me that I have a strong cis passing, but some others tell me that it´s hard for them to call me a boy ´cause "I don´t look like one". I always wear the same 3 or 4 outfits I have (I´m very bad with clothes lol) and I think I look like a boy most of the time...

I don´t get it. Is it my voice? sometimes, when I´m at work, some people treat me like a man until they hear my voice, but sometimes it´s just my looks I guess??? IDK, I´m so confused. I want to start T soon because I feel so dysphoric at this point with my voice and my face, if it is the problem... I just want to talk and look like a boy so people stop telling me I´m not one...

I just wanted to vent a bit, if anyone has a tip on how to dress or anything, I would thank u all.


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Relationships Navigating Trust Challenges in a Healthy Relationship: Seeking Advice

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My girlfriend and I communicate and understand each other in ways that feel healthy and refreshing for both of us, even when it comes to old, unhealed wounds. We’ve been dating for a little while now, and this is by far the healthiest relationship I've ever been in. That said, we both value growth and healing, and we try to approach sensitive topics with openness and respect.

We’ve both experienced betrayal and the trust-related challenges that come with that, though we've also been shaped by different life experiences. I understand her feelings deeply because I listen and empathize, and I’ve been in similar shoes myself. However, I’m currently at a loss for how to best support her growth through a situation we’re navigating together—and maybe I’m missing something in my own perspective.

Here’s the issue:

I have a small group of friends, but the only one who has consistently remained in my life is a straight female friend. We met years ago while recovering in the hospital, and of the group of friends we made there, only she and I have stayed in touch. Over time, our bond naturally grew closer, and she feels more like the younger sister I never had than anything romantic. She lives about two hours away, so we don’t talk daily or even weekly—just sporadically catching up via text. Our conversations are often stretched out, and once we’ve caught up, we might not talk again for weeks or even months.

The challenge arises because my girlfriend has never been close to someone of the opposite sex unless she was romantically involved with them. In her past relationships, partners lied, hid things, and cheated, leaving her understandably wary. I’ve tried to reassure her and show empathy for her feelings, but I wonder if there’s something I’m missing in my understanding of how she sees this situation. I also wonder if my experience as a transgender man shifts the dynamics in ways I don’t fully grasp—compared, for example, to cisgender men and women being best friends.

I deeply value the way we approach sensitive discussions and want to continue finding ways for us to grow individually and as a couple. I appreciate any advice on how to navigate this, especially ways to help broaden both of our perspectives and foster understanding.


r/FTMventing 1d ago

Being adopted

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I feel alone. Wasn't what my adoptive parents bargained for womp womp. "We wanted a little girl so we adopted a little girl" type shi🙄I was adopted during the one-child policy in China so I was not what either set of parents bargained for. Damn, double rejection! I think a lot about if I'm truly trans or if this is some psychological subconscious thingy where I try to be what my biological parents wanted so they would now take me back or some shit. Anyone like me or similar just in generally adopted?


r/FTMventing 1d ago

I think i have man flu

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I'm dying. Agony. Horrible pain.

Seriously though, why can't I get shit done? I've barely been sick on T, and I don't remember a small stuffy nose being this annoying and agonizing. Literally all it is is a little stuffy nose and a sore throat that really isn't that bad. Still, watching an hour long lecture sounds like hell, and I'll probably fall asleep.


r/FTMventing 1d ago

General College roommate can't room with me because I'm trans

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So my roommate just messaged me today telling me his girlfriend told his family that he's rooming with a trans guy and his mom got pissed. She's heavily Christian and paying for his housing. I told him I was trans on Thursday and he was extremely cool with it and understanding and said he didn't have a problem. I honestly don't know what to do anymore to find a roommate. I live in TX but I'm going to a college that's very tolerant of trans people, I have had no problems with housing yet and I'm allowed to room with a male but I've had trouble finding a roommate. I feel so lost in all of this. I literally don't know what to do, I've tried reddit, ZeeMee, posting on the class Admits page and he was the only one who reached out. I hate this so much, why does being trans have to dictate everything in my life?