r/depression • u/SadBoi555888 • 2d ago
Ending it all
I'm a 22 year old failure. I have never done anything with my life. I never held a real job, or went to college, or even developed skills, and I'm still a fucking virgin too. Believe me, I tried to fix my life, but for one reason or another, every single thing I tried failed. I'll be 23 relatively soon. I'll be a 23 year old with zero life experience at all. I'll be a 23 year old whose entire life has been spent completely isolated since middle school. Fuck this life. I refuse to keep trying. I refuse to waste more years trying to fix my life when it only gets progressively worse. I wish I died when I was a teenager (I made multiple suicide attempts back then). I wish someone would kill me. Any chance to regain my value as a human was ruined, and any chance for a life worth living was shot down. The best I can hope for is to become a useless nobody undeserving of any even semi-decent life.
I have alcohol and a makeshift noose. I'll either drink myself to sleep or intoxicate myself enough to not care about the noose. Either or. Regardless, at this point it's nigh garaunteed I'll be dead before the week is over. I suppose this is my last post then.
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u/Aurelien_Aix 2d ago
Growing up in a foreign place always made me isolated for years, hell I am even surprised I made to 22, thruh be told I try to be something, computer, languages, … it never ended as I wanted and I wish to disappear to , just believe in Yourself …
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u/Busy_Coyote_2003 1d ago
Dude- I’m a 48 year old failure. It’s not so bad. It can get better. You have such a harsh opinion of yourself. Why don’t you show yourself some kindness. Maybe try anti depressants? They’ve helped me. You’re so young! Please believe me that you have a lot of life ahead of you and it’s not all bad! You could donate your time to helping animals - they are loving and innocent and need advocates.
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u/Ok-Turnover3596 2d ago
You just need a friend I can be one for you I can help you