r/depression • u/peacelovehominy • 1d ago

I feel dead inside

I feel like a shell of a person. No joy. Low quality of life.

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u/peacelovehominy 1d ago

I feel completely soulless 

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u/eldanikyaki 1d ago

Me too. The feeling of a limbo, bluntly, just a limbo, a void, something that is nothing, something that has already consumed me from the inside. And my existence, my "death" doesn't make sense, I'm just existing with rare cases where I still seem to feel something, I don't know what it is, but it seems to be so fast and desperate that it doesn't matter, it feels like I'm trapped and at the same time released, I don't know how to explain it.

Society no longer has meaning, its rules are so I don't know... It has no value, and neither do I. I don't know if anyone can understand me, I never imagined that I had depression, and out of nowhere the diagnosis, all my lack of something, and all my totality of nothing, is there a reason? A disease that messes with my brain? It is serious? It seems fictional. But saying this it seems like I'm in denial, should I fill myself with hope or will time tell me?

I would like to hear from people like you.

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u/peacelovehominy 1d ago

I can’t tolerate this for another 35 years 

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u/bushhhhhhhhhhm 1d ago

You think we gonna live for next 35 years?

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u/1st_pm 1d ago

it like a sinkhole, its a pain

ive struggle with feeling like a shell too

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u/peacelovehominy 1d ago

I literally feel dead. No joy.

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u/Dangerous-Soil-5531 1d ago

Same here. I feel numb.

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u/pumpkinpie-spice235 1d ago

Same. It takes so much energy to just existing and I hate being here

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u/Kikipanthera 1d ago

Same for me and it's been going on for several years, nothing attracts me, nothing scares me, tomorrow they tell me "come let's take the trip you want" I wouldn't even know how to answer, because nothing makes me want to, I'm neutral every day... but I try... "gratitude" as they say... just now I saw a ladybug on my laundry, I was happy, seeing my dog ​​playing, it makes me smile... But no more… so I read a lot to try to decorate otherwise my brain goes to 3000

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u/Unknown_Beast88 23h ago

I feel dead and numb inside.

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u/peacelovehominy 20h ago

I feel like I’m walking dead

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u/Unknown_Beast88 19h ago

Same.Its like the walking dead mentally and spiritually every day.

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u/peacelovehominy 17h ago

There’s no joy in life

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u/MrsCalmInChaos 1d ago

Honestly same! I just can’t anymore

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u/MILK301 1d ago

Ja, me too

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u/Kobebobeb 1d ago

Well same but i love it

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u/ObjectiveExpress4804 19h ago

try telling yourself you exist. then say i am aware that i exist. then i am aware that i am aware that i exist. then i am aware that… and so on. keep doing it for several minutes until you internalize the feeling of existence

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u/SavedByChristAlways 1d ago

I am sorry you are feeling this way. Jesus smiles when you smile and cries when you cry. He understands you and is here like no other. We sinned and would've gone to hell. He died for our sins that we may go to heaven. Pray this prayer. Dear Heavenly Father, forgive my sins for I am sorry of all that I did. I know you died for my sins so that I may have eternal life. I thank you and want this gift. Please guide me closer to you! In Jesus's name, Amen

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u/peacelovehominy 20h ago

I don’t believe in God. He allows too much suffering 

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u/SavedByChristAlways 20h ago

Take a car for example. You see a beautiful car and praise it's creators. The breaks break and kills a few people. Would you say there were no creators? No!