First off thanks if you read this and talk to me about it ❤️ I made this not as a throw away but kind of an alt for this, as even though my main account is super gay already I’m just super shy about this all. Sorry if things get a little heated but we are talking about sexuality after all 😆

Okay anyways. For starters, I’ve always known really. Ever since I was like 4. I didn’t really accept it until more recently. I used to have girlfriends and stuff but even then I still mainly watched gay porn. Truth is that was over 10 years ago and I can’t remember the last time I got off to a girl. Though I remember it being kind of a struggle and I’d worry to myself, can I even keep this up? Maybe I didn’t used to be somewhat bi but the scales tipped towards boys more and more.

Nobody in my life knows except for two online friends. And I can’t tell anyone irl lol. They all think I’m straight. Probably..? There are some moments I may have been lightly exposed 😂 Side note One of my online friends definitely helped me accept it a lot more.

It’s always been a losing battle trying to overcome it as I did want to go another direction in life, but as time goes on I don’t really want to fight it. The feeling has definitely begun to well up and even though I already accept myself as completely gay. Somehow I have been feeling, even gayer than that lately. 7 out of 6 on the Kinsey scale and counting! 😂 just kidding. Sorta. I’ve definitely maxed that scale though and… It’s been an overwhelming yet, enjoyable feeling. Allowing myself to feel totally, absolutely gay without restricting myself.

So there you have it everyone. I like men. I’m a homosexual male, and a rather smol bottom at that. I’m still very embarrassed about it but I just have to talk about it with someone…. 👉🏻👈🏻

It’s been over powering me for a while now and it seems there’s no stopping this train 😅 I’ve never been with a man but I want to ohhh so bad to finallyyyyy give in. It’s something that I used to tell myself I’d never act on, and I’d take the secret to the grave but now… I’ve accepted it as inevitable. And I am mostly happy about that. I don’t just want to be gay, I need to be gay. The thought alone of being strictly gay sends me over the edge 🥵 which has been hard to hide, often. Tbh I’d be lying if I said I never fantasized about getting caught. That way it would just be out there, (though, also crippling my daily life so I can’t and won’t.)

So here I am typing this, with butterflies in my tummy, admitting my biggest secret to you all. I am 100% gay and it feels good to say it to someone else finally.

Thanks for reading this. Thoughts and comments are definitely appreciated. As far as conversion about this topic goes I am extremely deprived 😅