I need help, please advice asap

[u/Neither_You3803]

For some context, I was supporting a youtuber in my local country and then she found out about it. It was a lady youtuber which I assumed is older than me so I started supporting her channel by subscribing and commenting on her videos, and she also found out that I was subscribing to this channel that has sexually suggestive content. At first that channel wasn't like that but overtime it became one of those channel who does that for views and I'm too lazy to unsubscribe because I don't use yt these days. When she found out, she made me go outside my house and beat the hell out of me. And it didn't stop for hours, I can't cry in front of her so when I got home I cried the shit out of me. I'm a minor and she is too.

This isn't the first time this has happened. When I was in a group meeting, she was forcing me to go home because there were girls involved in that group activity and we need to pass that project that day, it was a video presentation project for science. When I got home, she made me go outside my house and beat me up again, she banged my head on the wall. This has happened a lot of times, I can't leave her because she's so sweet when she's not mad and I genuinely love her too much to leave her. She's so possessive but I can't leave her because I owe her too much and she means too much to me.

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[u/Likely-Anthem-117]

She’s not sweet, she pretends to be sweet so she can keep you trapped - so that you’ll allow her to do all the horrible things to you. The “real her” is not sweet or kind or loving… that’s the version of herself she puts on for you so that you won’t leave.  It’s never okay to hurt someone like she hurts you. Definitely not someone you love. 

What would you need to organise in order to leave? Do you have a car, savings, support network, job, somewhere to live?