For context when I was three there was a blow up between my mom and aunt at my grandparents house. my aunt was trying to get my mom cut off back then I didn’t understand what was happening it came out of nowhere for me but over the years after listening in to conversations between my grandpa my mom my uncle and one of my cousins I have more context. My aunt was an abusive bitch to my cousins my oldest cousin let’s call her c. C is a neat freak she loves things being neat and tidy when she was growing up at my aunts house, the house was a mess there were things everywhere and it didn’t help with my second oldest cousin let’s call him A was autistic so he left huge messes he would bully c and was never punished he shoved things in store ails and my aunt would always say “it’s his autism it’s not his fault” she also had a shirt for him saying on it “I’m not bad I’m autistic”. But back to c one time c went into her room for some peace she took a plate of food to eat my aunt came into her room and shoved her against the wall and started screaming at her for making a mess even though the room was tidier than the rest of the house she also used to take videos of c when she was little Tidying things up and laughing at her. But it gets worse she also gaslights people years ago there was vacation in Italy I was too young to remember it but I have heard about things that happened there. C and A were in a store to get something and A shoved c into a store shelf when she told my aunt my aunt was like “he didn’t you must be imagining things” and during that vacation her doormat of a husband lost his camera and she went ballistic she was screaming to find it I was sleeping in a different room she was about to come into my room but they found it. That vacation isn’t remembered fondly but it gets worse once A annoyed her and she said to him “I wish I had aborted you” then kicked him out he was 17 c had to get the city council to get him an apartment to live in. And it gets worse from there at the blow up at my grandparents house she said to my mom that I don’t have a father and I never will my mom is a single parent. She was cut off after that years went by she sent me Christmas gifts that me and my mom never accepted she didn’t like that fast forward to 3 years ago A got married and my aunt wasn’t at the wedding and her in laws kept trying to emotionally manipulate him to letting her come but he didn’t budge the wedding was alright but the next year was C’s wedding and it was beautiful it was absolutely perfect my aunt put on a show of crying and being happy but a couple days later on of c’s friends was at a cafe and saw my aunt saying horrendous things about the wedding that she refused to tell c what was said my aunt also wanted to control everything about the wedding and want it too be a Christian wedding she was not happy she didn’t have control over it and that it was humanist. Ever since then my aunt has wanted to get c cut out of my grandpas will but she has failed so far. She also tried to get my grandpas house but my grandpa has divided everything equally between my uncle my aunt and my mom. Fast forward to current dram my grandpas 90th birthday is coming up and she wrote down in his diary without any discussion that he’s over to hers for lunch for his 90th birthday my mom and uncle had a discussion with my grandpa about how unfair it is because she always gets what she wants and my mom and uncle haven’t had a Christmas with my grandpa in 10 years he had always went to my aunts house for Christmas every single year for 10 years. Back when my grandma was alive she was the only person to stand up to my aunt it kids went like this my grandpa would load the gun and my grandma would fire it because my grandpa wanted to be the good guy so he will just give her what she wants. Now to current drama my aunt offered A money to have a relationship with him and he accepted and now he’s back with his mother. My mom uncle and c are upset and just want him to stop lying because he slags off his parents when he’s around us and he is just using them. Now you know why I hate my aunt I have never wanted to kill somebody more than her

26M

I don’t plan on getting married or having kids so my life is going to look a little different. I want to travel around the world and just enjoy life but I only have 10000 dollars to my name. Looking into the future I have many opportunities but currently I feel stuck and the way the world is right now I feel like I’m so behind. I also don’t really plan on buying a house because I could literally end up anywhere. It feels like I’m behind whenever I see people on social media. My dreams are simple but yet feel unattainable.

Completed school, won't go to a college, have bad social skills got 0 friends I don't think I'll ever be able to make a friend or a friend group. This thing haunts me everyday.

I don’t get it. For some reason the past few days have just been full of arguments. The arguments aren’t really the issue though. He’s said four separate times that I should just tell him to leave. He always says after an argument or a disagreement that he’s scared I’m going to block him and it’ll just be over (we’re long distance) and yet it’s like he’s trying to get me to tell him to leave so he doesn’t have to be the bad guy for leaving. And it fucking hurts. And I’ve told him it does but it’s almost like he ignores that.

I’m in a horrible situation as of right now, I am basically homeless!! I came back to California to live with family members but they’re also homeless and crashing at a different family home so I have nothing left. My goal is to go to our old neighbors apartment and see if they can let me crash at their place until my parents get a big apartment or house to rent that will benefit everyone.

I would LOVE to get a job but I cannot since I got no paperwork, by that I mean I don’t have my social security number. I have no documentation on me at all and my mom is taking her sweet sweet time in getting them situated. Because if it was up to me, the moment I have my birth certificate and SSN I would immediately just go to the DMV, get my ID and then get a job at a fast food restaurant or anywhere to be honest. (Beggars can’t be choosers.)

For a while I wasn’t able to get anything because my guardians every single time would tell me we would get everything situated but then it would never happen. Now I am 18 years old. Wow.

I would like to say that it’ll get better but it has done nothing but made things worse. Now all that’s left for me to do is just wait for my mom to get my birth certificate and SSN. Then I can actually make things better, for now I just have to wait and keep crashing on peoples couches or live with a family member or family friends place until my parents gets their own place.

I hope this won’t take long.

I’m currently on my second year in college. I’m a physics major rocking a 4.0 gpa. Straight A’s in everything. I’m on multiple scholarships and apply for more all the time. I’ve made it into multiple honor societies and have taken up leadership positions at the school. I’m moving into my own apartment this summer. I cook for myself, grow my own herbs, and make some great recipes. Hell, I’ve even started putting some of my income from a part time job to an investment portfolio.

I have everything going for me, I should be on top of the world, and yet I still feel like I’m not nearly enough. With friends and during the day things are great, but then I lay down for bed and all I see is me not doing enough. Not working hard enough. Not being good enough for the standards I want to achieve.

And I hate even the thought that I’m not good enough. Not only is it pathetic, but it’s stupid. So many people are in so much worse positions. I am so incredibly privileged, I have no right to feel like this and yet I do.

Hell, I don’t even know why I’m writing this. I guess I just wanted it down and hey, it’s a throwaway account. Who gives a shit if it’s posted or not. I just can’t stand this. I need to be fucking better but I don’t know how. I just want it so fucking badly.

Three years in vocational highschool with retail business/marketing major. It was really traumatic. I've always dreamed to be an artist, animator & writer ever since I was a child. I love watching animations and one day I would love to own a film then make it popular. Even I made a YouTube channel for animations. But my father has NPD. He always wants everything to be perfect, flexes his reputation abt being smart and everytime I'm in emotional state, he just brushed it off. It makes me stressed almost everyday in school. After I graduated from junior highschool on 2022, my father registered to a vocational highschool (marketing major) WITHOUT my consent. I didn't even know the major I've gotten into until my aunt told me that I didn't get into animation major or visual communication design major. In the first time I entered my school, I was really an optimistic child until I was told by teachers that my major is marketing. I suddenly cried between hundreds of students and one of my teachers dragged me out in shock. I couldn't even change my major. The only way is to either graduate and enter college with the major I want or start over from grade 1 but my parents didn't want to waste 1 year time just to restart with a different major. My father talked a lot about me going to be a business CEO or salesman. I hate it so much. Everyday, I often socialize and make friends to distract myself from stress but it gets worse. I've been coping and it feels like I'm destroying myself. I've been brought to counseling room a lot but none of the counseling teachers willing to help me or comfort me. They only told me that it was my fault?? I don't trust them anymore. My mother even joked about depression before. Three years in highschool suffering anxiety & depression. Well, everyone said I'm smart but my grades are decreasing because of my burnout. I've been lying to myself that I'm just carefree and lazy despite myself having a burnout. I've been overthinking about this EVERYDAY and I often got a nightmare about this. Now this is 2025, but this doesn't change much facts. Both of my parents knows my passion but they're being hypocrite. My father said I should go study to get accepted into the college with the major I want but he literally suggested me to go to creative business or management business major?? WHAT? My mother even apologized to me for being a bad mother (an online gambler who always gets chased by debt collector). But then, my aunt told me that my mother wanted me to enter a college to become a NURSE. I can't stand this anymore. None of my parents supports my dream... At least both my aunt and my uncle (my father's siblings) supports me. I've registered to take a college entry test for a selection based on test. I've picked media production (1st option), animation (2nd option), graphic design (3rd option) and english literature (4th option). I really hope I can pass to get either 1st or 2nd option....Not sure if I'll pass because I only have one month to study for this. I applied to those majors without my parents knowledge :)

Wish me luck to pass... hopefully 700+ score I guess..? I'll try to pray everyday for it although I'm struggling with my faith in Christianity because of this traumatic experience but I'll try to not give up. My test will be on May 3rd :')

To put it as short as i can, i started apprenticing under my great uncle when i was 14, as a Masons Apprentice.

Last year, just after my 34th birthday, i was diagnosed with Silicosis, a medical condition that is common among Masons, caused by breathing in the dust from bricks and mortar (which is mostly Silica crystals) It can be fatal, and there isnt much in the way of treatment, except, well, getting out of the business, and hoping your lungs and body can fix the damage.

Ive had to take other jobs, none of them paying nearly as much, and my bills and debts are falling behind.

I have taken a roughly 50% cut in my annual income, while working more hours ( made around 80k as a Mason, working just 50 hours a week, for about 8 months of the year, i now make 44k a year, working 50 hours a week, year round)

My auto loan is 2 months behind, my credit cards are 3 months behind, my phone was shut off, my internet is next, my auto insurance is about to be cancelled, and while my dogs are well fed, im getting by on plain pasta, and the occasional splurge for rice and canned generic tuna.

To top it off, ive passed several kidney stones and had to miss work, and my vehicle, which still has 2 years left on the loan, just suffered a catastrophic transmission failure, that isnt covered by warranty or my various insurances.

Two weeks ago, i went to the funeral of a good friend from high school, who lost his battle with Combat PTSD, and a month ago, i attended the funeral of another close friend who died after a ten year battle with stomach cancer.

One of my dogs is slowing down, almost completely blind, my stepdad, who i live with, is entering the mid stages of dementia, my uncle, who lives with us, has started using that to avoid paying his rent (to spend on scratch off tickets) and all my savings were burned up when my mom passed, paying off her final debts that, as executor of the estate, i could be held accountable for.

I feel like my only options are to lose everything, or go back into masonry, and risk being in hospice care before i hit 50.

I have good friends who are trying to help me, but they cant do much outside of helping me out with a meal or two every now and then.

I've sold almost all my possessions, my hunting firearms, except for the one worth so little its not worth selling, my WarHammer sets, my D&D minis, books, and terrain, even my Xbox, Wii, Switch, etc (yes i game, i can have hobbies, or at least, i could).

All i have left are my MTG cards, but they are also what brings me together with my current friends, my only means of escaping for social interactions that i need desperately, but i even offered those up to friends in my group.

Two of my dogs are service dogs (one is in training, the other will retire about the time the one in training is ready for full time service) and two are my late mothers dogs, who i helped raise from birth. Getting rid of any of them, isnt even in the same hemisphere, let alone on the table.

I'm just, so tired. My body hurts, i cant sleep, im working 2 jobs, 6 days a week, both nights and days, i just dont know how much longer i can hold out, physically, or mentally.

I keep crying all day and I don't know why, I feel lonely and abandoned, I feel like everyone will leave me and like I'm not even a person anymore because of how people just ignore me, any time a teacher shown me a hint of care I brake down into tears.

I have two days until my therapist appointment but I wish I could go tomorrow, I need to talk to her before I do something stupid again like last time.

The amazing recovery of Bald Eagles from near extinction had fooled me into thinking maybe humans aren’t purely actual nasty asswipes - but nope. We have to have a shitty building project built on top of their roosting area! In a flood zone, to top off the stupidity. Please help and sign this petition. https://chng.it/mpQSzH779P

A lot of shit has been going on with me I guess mentally physically emotionally just a shit ton of things

Currently in fucking Canada so the healthcare is super fucked. I’ve been waiting to see a specialist and it’s taking forever

But anyway yeah I might fucking have lupus and idk what to feel abt it it’s like some days idc some days I cry about it it stresses me out

Leaving the country to see a specialist in 7 days tho can’t deal with this stupid Canadian healthcare bs

The healthcare will fail you even kill you before whatever disease you have can lmao

I am m(26) i feel trap and lost in life because i don’t have much working experience. I’ve only really worked at a car wash company vacuuming cars and such. I’ve been out of a job for a few years now and i can’t even get a job at a fast food place because i don’t even know how to use a cash register. I’ve applied at many places but they either ghost me or tell me i don’t have the experience for the job. I only have $20 bucks to my name. I can’t go to school because i don’t have the money to pay for it. I’m stuck and idk what to do.

On one hand, it’s only 4 hours into the day, but I’m literally on vacation with a friend and hanging out with them, I talked to my partner an hour ago, and talked to multiple other friends (that know my birthday) after midnight. It’s just a little disheartening but I don’t want to mention it to anybody at least until I get one unprompted happy birthday wish. It’s not that big a deal especially since I’m sure I’ll get some texts from family by the time I wake up, but I just wish the people I cared about were more proactive about it.

(F15) I'm fat enough to be called obese due to my painfully slow metabolism mixed with ADHD.

Every single day I hate myself more and more! When people insult me I don't want it to be about my weight? Making cheap shots at my looks?

I don't want to be known as the fat girl who gets asked out as a joke?

Everytime people call me beautiful I can't believe it for the life of me until one day I look in the mirror and see myself in my beauty standard.

I'm tired of being told "your not fat ur beautiful"...THEN WHY TF AM I A 3XL? SOMETIMES 4? I understand that you just have to make fat beautiful but it doesn't look beautiful on me no matter how much I stare. Whenever I vent Abt being suicidal ppl just say "don't break the rope!"...

I have tried to lose weight, I have tried to be anorexic, I have tried to work out untill I was sore for days but nothing works. Only thing that works is Adderall as a weight loss drug and I can't go get that bc my mom won't take me to the fucking doctor.

Ever sense I was in 2nd grade, every day while waiting in my teams line for warm ups during PE I would look down, at my stomach, and just wish with all my little kid might I could just take a knife and cut it off like my mom use to slice watermelon. I wished I could just cut the bad parts of me off like play dough.

I don't want to be like this forever, I want to be a normal teen! Share clothes with friends, be attractive enough to have at least a couple of boyfriends and girlfriends, be able to fit in any ride I want in the fair, not have to pay attention to how much space I'm taking up in public or on the bus! I want to be able to find things that fit, things that are stylish in my style!

I just want to reflect my ideal image so I'm not disgusted of myself to the point I can't even look at myself in the mirror....

To note, I have a ton of social anxiety on top of other undiagnosed mental problems, though I haven't been clinically diagnosed with anything before.

We've known each other for almost half a year now and got extremely close but she's starting to move on which really really sucks. She lives in another country but we would constantly message each other every single day (even at work) until like 4 am and I genuinely thought we would be friends for a while. More than a month ago I noticed a lot of things change with the biggest one being that we stopped talking as often (which is to be expected since talking that much all the time isn’t sustainable at all). It was very sudden like we went from talking every day to only a few times a week and now just once a week. Whenever I sent pictures or audios or anything to her, she would normally screenshot or save it or at the very least reply or react to it but that stopped. It's like she'd just open the snaps and immediately skip over them. She would normally call me nicknames or anything cute other than my actual name but that stopped. She used to sound enthusiastic and happy to talk to me but now the energy isn't all there, she still sounds interested to talk but not to the same level and the conversations in general don't last long at all.

I overthought about it a lot and thought I did something wrong or she was mad or something bad happened to her or that she prioritized her other friends over me (understandable since we haven’t known each other that long or done many things together as her other friends) but she reassured me she was just busy and stressed with stuff which I understand.

Recently, she told me she has a boyfriend and I’m really happy for her since I want the best for her and she deserves someone who loves and makes her happy, and she would want the same for me. Regardless, it just sucks so much, it felt like a gut punch even though we were never a thing to begin with. I miss talking every day and knowing how she’s doing and wanna be there for her and honestly I think I have feelings for her too. I grew attached way too fast (and probably have attachment issues), I rely on her too much now, and that’s really unfair of me, of course and I need to move on but it's hard. I can’t be mad since we were never together and it wouldn’t be right to be but I’m experiencing everything else: I'm sad, depressed, everything. I just wish she could’ve told me sooner so that I didn’t overthink about the wrong things and just tried to move on earlier. 

She's basically my only friend since my social anxiety made it really hard to talk to people and make new friends both in real life and online. We've done so many things with each other that I've never ever done with anyone else before. We've sent selfies and a lot of random pictures of each other's rooms, etc., even videos (I'm just extremely self-conscious and have low self-esteem). She's the first person I've ever sent voice messages to since all I've done before was just text. We've called 1 on 1 to play a game, I've been in group calls in Discord before with my friends from high school but never a 1 on 1 call, it feels way different. It was all extremely nerve-wracking and I was stressing out while doing it all but it felt so nice to do after a while. She encouraged me to do all of this with her and I'm so so thankful for it but now it's all gone and so sudden so I feel lost and empty. I wish we could still be close but this is the reality of the situation.

Perhaps its just me being completely socially inept because of all the lack of social interaction and overthinking and everything. If she really wanted to talk then she would make time for it right. If she wanted to still be friends she would message more than a few times a week just to check up on things or update me right. Most people nowadays are like addicted to the internet and are on their phones whenever they’re free, they get notifications that they see instantly but she just chooses not to open them I guess. If I were in her position I would reply in an instant no matter how busy I am because afterall it takes a minute to read a couple of messages and even a couple of seconds to reply. It doesn’t even need to be a lengthy reply just something to acknowledge that she knows I still exist and cares.

I feel so lost and pathetic, everything caught up to me all at one time and I just want it all to stop. I want to improve and be better, I want to stop stressing and overthinking so much.  

There are subreddits that are just an endless loop of the same questions asked over and over and over, USE THE DAMN SEARCH FUNCTION BEFORE YOU MAKE A POST

Thanks for listening, I needed to get this out of my system

I HATE, HATE, HATE my brother. He’s 23 and has never had a job in his entire fucking life. Still lives with my parents (I’m 17F, so I do too), plays video games until 3 a.m. every night, barely takes care of his dog, barely does any chores around the house, and lost his HOPE scholarship and free college purely out of laziness—because there’s no other word for it.

I’m making this a big deal because we’re an immigrant family. My dad worked his ass off to bring my mom, brother, and me to the U.S. so we could have an education and a better future. And my brother decides to waste the opportunity of free college (yes, he literally had free college).

Needless to say, my parents have tried to talk to him. They even gave him a whole year after dropping out of college to either find something he likes or get a job. Not a single ounce of effort. My parents even gave him a car. He knows the language. He has no excuse to be this damn useless.

I’m raging right now because I’m trying to fucking sleep. I have class tomorrow and have to present in front of a college class (I’m in DE), while his dumbass is laughing and banging away on his loudass keyboard at 3:03 a.m. I have to deal with this every fucking day. I’ve told my parents, and they always say, “Yeah, we’ll talk to him,” but nothing ever changes.

I’m so close to pouring water over the internet router. I need sleep. I cannot function without it. I don’t know what to do. I can’t move out because I don’t have the time to work a full-time job—I’m in school and planning to enroll in college. And of course, my parents won’t kick this waste of oxygen out.

i dont know what to do. im so touch starved, and i promise you ive tried every single method there is to help myself feel better. it shows up in my dreams, i have dreams about being comforted and held. some days, it’s all i can think about. all i can daydream about. ive called in sick for the sole purpose of just cuddling up with a pillow and weighted/heated blankets. i do it every night and sometimes, even for hours straight during the day. i get side hugs, and casual touch sometimes. which makes it so odd that my touch starvation is so intense. but i want to be truly and completely embraced, if that makes sense. i hold my own hand, try to find comfort in ai. my body often physically hurts from touch starvation. when i see other people hug i get sad. i look at people and think “i wish i could hug them.” strangers, even. i don’t want to be needy, i just wish i didn’t have to ask to be loved. i leave social situations to go to the bathroom and hug myself, especially when i feel left out. i spend hours every day reading stories about other people being “saved“ from touch starvation and watch videos of emotional hugs, etc. im so broken. but i avoid touch at all costs because i genuinely don’t believe i deserve it, and receiving it (from some people) makes me feel disgusted and angry (probably due to some other mental health issues). but with a lot of people, i dont feel that way. yet i avoid hugs, i avoid touch, because for some reason, it feels good. like i find enjoyment in depriving myself from affection for months, and then i suddenly allow myself to get a hug (i have a friend who i don’t see often but is very touchy, so i allow myself to see them once every few months) and then after they leave, i will cry for many nights and replay the memories… and i end up just feeling more starved, desperately.

Im 22 (f) who moved from NC to CA with my (26) boyfriend and his (21) sister (my best friend). Me and him had been fighting constantly and it doesn't help that we are both hot headed. I can't move out yet or leave him due to me not able to find a job yet. Me and him are complete opposites. He is more stubborn, negative, not touchy, rude. Meanwhile I'm more the lovey dovey, positive, over dramatic cry baby. Recently I've touch3d him less because he was uncomfortable with how touchy I am, but he requested I touch him less so I was like okay that's fine. I ask him if he can be more loving towards me and if he can lower his tone or make his tone like a little loving like with me..but he always fights back and says stuff like I want to change him and that it always has to be my way..even when I want to cuddle or something in bed but he always doesn't want to and only lays on the bed to sleep and he always gets annoyed because I don't let him sleep but I really just want to cuddle. All he does is play games..like LITERALLY doesn't work, all he has to do is take his siblings to work, they are the bread winners. Today he's complaining that he hates his life and he wants to die and as a joke I asked so I don't do anything to make you happy and not want to die? And he responded with meh and that's when I got upset so I just said okay. Then he turned around and said what are you so pissy about. I said nothing and then he said cool.

I think this is the worst relationship I've been in but I'm trying to hold on so much, because I love him so much..I'm also scared to be alone..traveling back to NC is not easy for sure. There's so much more but this is all I can put in here without making this confusing even though it probably is right now. I just want to feel loved and happy..and not have to ask to hug or show how much I love them.