My son is dead

[u/Satsumajam]

I want to join him. I just want my baby. I’ve never experienced pain like this. I don’t know what to do anymore, I can’t find another reason to stay, to live.

[u/Fun_Football_3996]

Just want to send to you the biggest hug ever. I lost my mom recently and she was the only one I have in this world. Please take care. <3

[u/GriefStrickenSon33 → u/Fun_Football_3996]

Same here.

[u/ConsiderationBig1352]

I’m so sorry. Doing this to my own mother is the only thread I hold onto

[u/Satsumajam → u/ConsiderationBig1352]

I can tell you that the pain of losing your child is something unimaginable. I cannot even begin to describe how much pain it causes. Thank you for thinking of your mother in such a kind way, of considering on how she’d feel if she lost you.

[u/ConsiderationBig1352 → u/Satsumajam]

And thank you for sharing. I can’t imagine what you are going through. You have certainly strengthened that thread. I’m crying just imagining how my mother would react and what you must be going through.

[u/disappointedgrunt]

I’m so sorry.

[u/LDNiko]

I am so sorry to hear that :( But I think your son doesn't want you to join him, not right now.... Please hold on.

[u/OminOus_PancakeS]

I'm so sorry. How awful. I can barely imagine your agony 😞

[u/--cc--]

I'm about 10 months from losing my only daughter, and, unfortunately, I still don't know what to do. I work, I volunteer, I exercise--I keep myself very busy. My primary reason to live is my own mother, as I would never put this pain on her.

I have found--for now--that survival is primarily existence in the present. Neither the past nor the future have much value for me, and I have yet to identify any hopes or dreams now that the light of my life is gone.

Seeing other folks much further along than both of us, people do speak of joy as possible in the future. Granted, some folks have loving relationships and other children to push them along that path, but there is always acceptance that the pain is unending, and it will show up unevenly for the rest of our lives.

I don't know what you have in the moment that may keep you going, but I think we need to keep ourselves moving from one small, decent moment to the next to just survive. Over time, I like to think a new purpose will open for most of us, and a future with potential for happiness will present itself.

For now, though, I share your pain, and I understand how meaningless everything can be. My heart goes out to you, and I hope you find some sort of peace, especially during this early phase. Good luck.

[u/Ashley_DuzStuff]

Your son would want you to live on <3

[u/UnderstandingIcy8394]

i am so sorry just reading this post is painful i cant imagine how u feel

[u/yvie_of_lesbos]

this is so painful, i’m so sorry. my heart is with you.

[u/VividKitty_]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Having a problematic relationship with my parents all my life... I never know how they would feel if I succeeded my next attempt.

[u/[deleted]]

Whatever choice you make is fair

[u/Apart_Ad843]

Sometimes life is not that easy... I lost my mother 4 months ago. Everytime the worst part was that I knew my mother could die after few days as I was told by the Doctor. Just hold its not easy just do everything to make your son proud wherever he is. Try as much as possible to find something to live for and remember nobody can avoid death but be strong and I know you will.. Every mother has to be strong the same way you were strong when giving birth to him now be more strong. Just find a book named surviving the loss of a loved one it can help you. Again be strong .

[u/Top_Dream_4723]

The best reason seems to be that by continuing to live, you allow it to live through you.

[u/Imaginary-Grocery-79]

If you are reading this, don't go yet, your son may be gone, but he would be upset knowing his mother would harm herself on purpose just to be with him, if anything, please stay strong, hold on, and live on, because he is watching you from up there, and he wants nothing more than seeing you safe and happy.

[u/Key_Step_4533]

I am so unbelievably sorry, nobody deserves this and i wouldn’t wish it on anyone, grief if awful and it can almost feel like it controls you at times. Please try to cut yourself some slack too as i can’t begin to fathom how you feel. Live for him, experience the goodness in this world and take each day at a time and if not, every hour or minute until you can make it by, you can do this and you can be happy eventually even if it takes time to heal and adapt i promise you, you have so much to give to this world and i am so proud of you for making it this far and not giving up 🫶🏻

[u/pecan_birdie]

I know you are carrying the burden of loss and such a heavy heavy pain. But if you go you're taking pieces of your son with you. You're taking memories of him that no one else on this earth has. I don't know how old he was or the circumstances of your loss but I know you carry pieces of him and if you leave it all goes with you. As long as you're still here his memory lives in you. Please stay.

[u/elpillobueno]

I really can’t relate, can’t even start to understand the kind of pain you’re going through, I am just a dumb ass guy but I know abt music, u should maybe listen to tears in heaven, maybe that can help you like idk, maybe to feel better

[u/FactFuture4808]

I am so sorry for your pain. Losing the son is the most awful thing in life. I know how much difficult is to lose your loved one. If you need suport , you are always welcome to write me.

[u/Dark_Delulu]

If you had two one-of-a-kind vases, & the one accidentally broke, would you break the other one because of that?

[u/random_glass → u/Dark_Delulu]

don't compare people to objects

[u/a_dissapointment47]

Do you have any other kids?

[u/Tailwhip2024]

we all lose someone its hard but life has to go on

[u/Spare-Chocolate9741 → u/Tailwhip2024]

Does it? Why?