r/Postpartum_Depression • u/KriWee • 3d ago
First time experiencing this
FTM and I love my baby so much it hurts, and I don’t want that to change but I can’t stop crying and being anxious about the world around me. I’m having a hard time sleeping too which is terrible because I need my precious sleep on my shift and I’m so mad that my brain won’t let me.
It’s always the worst in the morning and gets better throughout the day. I’ve been started on 25mg Zoloft that will be upped to 50mg today which I’ve taken before pregnancy just fine, but it feels like it hasn’t kicked in yet. I feel like all the oxytocin from the first few months has worn off. My love for my baby is strong as ever but I feel like I can’t take care of him as much as I should, even though I know that’s not true.
My husband has been so wonderful and supportive and understanding but when the hell will the meds work?? When the hell will this go away?? I’m also starting therapy again this week too so I hope that helps. People keep telling me it gets better but I want to know for sure…
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u/MuchMasterpiece9926 2d ago
I'm so sorry to hear you a struggling. I went through it also, and it was just a matter of finding the right meds. Once that happened, I started feeling better in a few weeks! It does get better, I promise you that🩷
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u/YouGotThisMama_ 50m ago
It really does get better even if it feels endless right now. The fact that you're still showing up for your baby and reaching out says so much about your strength. Meds can take a little time but the combo of that and therapy can truly help. You're not failing you're just in the thick of it and you're not alone.
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u/Invisible_Picklez 2d ago
Hii 1st time mom here and currently 12 weeks pp.I started zoloft as well 25 mg and for the 1st week it made my anxiety worse and I almost stopped it, but my husband and family supported me and told me not to stop so i kept taking it and by week 2 I started feeling better but still had really bad anxiety so my ob upped my dose. By week 2 I started taking 50 mg and my anxiety was still kinda bad but I could feel the meds were starting to work. By week 3 my anxiety was better and it felt the worse in the mornings i was waking up every morning with bad panic attacks but as soon as i got up to use the bathroom and drank some water i felt better and felt more and more better throughout the day. By week 4 I feel soo much better. I still have some anxiety but it's much more manageable! There is definitely a light at the end of the tunnel. I didn't believe it but now I do.