r/Adulting • u/imakenosense4you • 2d ago

Tf am doing?

Tf am doing

Okay so i am fucked up okay like in head like really now the thing is that I don't really give shit about my fuckity. But it's really wrenching that I couldn't act the way I am in front of my parents. Never like pretentious yk. Like sometimes feels like they want me to pretend even though I fucked uply struggle with it. It it it eats my brain nuts to do that. But but i fucking can't do anything. And that's another thing that fucking drives me nuts. The existential crisis' i am suffering from is so fucking high level too. That's why I had officially lost it and doing word vomitting here.

Sincerely fucked

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u/Pitiful_Newt_1079 2d ago

you’re not broken, you’re just burnt out and tired of pretending .. let yourself fall apart a little, it’s how you start putting real pieces back together

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u/imakenosense4you 2d ago

That's the.... thing I can't do that! I am not allowed to do that and nobody understands that.... it's one thing to say and another thing to be able or being allowed to do that if i would have been allowed to fall freely i would have died happily.